Книга - Weaveworld

Weaveworld
Clive Barker


Reissue of the highly acclaimed thriller by the world’s most outstanding dark fantasist.WEAVEWORLD is an epic adventure of the imagination. It begins with a carpet in which a world of rapture and enchantment is hiding; a world which comes to life, alerting the dark forces and beginning a desperate battle to preserve the last vestiges of magic which Humankind still has access to.WEAVEWORLD is a book of visions and horrors, a story of quest, titanic struggles, of love and of hope. It is a triumph of imagination and storytelling, an adventure, a nightmare, a promise…‘Barker’s fecundity of invention is beyond praise. In a world of hard-bitten horror and originality, Clive Barker dislocates your mind.’ THE MAIL ON SUNDAY.







CLIVE BARKER






WEAVEWORLD






















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First published in Great Britain by HarperCollinsPublishers 1987

Copyright © Clive Barker 1987

Introduction copyright © Clive Barker 1996

Drawings by Tim White

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Lines from The Tryst by Walter de la Mare published by permission of the Literary Trustees of Walter de la Mare and the Society of Authors as their representatives. Lines from Stopping by Woods on a Snowy Evening from THE POETRY OF ROBERT FROST edited by Edward Connery Lathem by permission of the Estate of Robert Frost and Jonathan Cape Ltd. Lines from The Two from THE COLLECTED POEMS OF W.H. AUDEN reprinted by permission of Faber and Faber Ltd.

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Dedication (#ulink_946280d6-1ffc-5ef1-936e-08cc81ae0af7)


To D.J.D




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‘… the spirit has its homeland, which is the realm of the meaning of things.’

Saint Exupéry The Wisdom of the Sands




CONTENTS







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Copyright (#u01537e2b-3e91-5ae5-9635-c6a2d44b8b94)

Dedication (#u1da2a9b9-4d30-58ac-a3b4-ec578c27fbdb)

Epigraph (#u2055e3bc-4d8a-5e89-ac0a-e90c2bb1694d)

INTRODUCTION (#uedbb4916-a863-508d-b77e-24cb6bdb0ab2)

BOOK ONE: IN THE KINGDOM OF THE CUCKOO (#u7dc5420e-7dbb-5567-8f9a-1c24669f391d)

Part One: Wild Blue Yonder (#u01ee06bf-c61e-5378-b017-48795d1e90d2)




Part Two: Births, Deaths and Marriages (#u817a4d8e-8f1e-55cd-99ed-5acda461425e)




Part Three: The Exiles (#u444261ca-4861-5317-9fd6-7348b90348b4)




Part Four: What Price Wonderland? (#litres_trial_promo)




BOOK TWO: THE FUGUE (#litres_trial_promo)

Part Five: Revels (#litres_trial_promo)




Part Six: Back Among the Blind Men (#litres_trial_promo)




Part Seven: The Demagogue (#litres_trial_promo)




Part Eight: The Return (#litres_trial_promo)




Part Nine: Into the Gyre (#litres_trial_promo)




BOOK THREE: OUT OF THE EMPTY QUARTER (#litres_trial_promo)

Part Ten: The Search for the Scourge (#litres_trial_promo)




Part Eleven: The Dream Season (#litres_trial_promo)




Part Twelve: Stalking Paradise (#litres_trial_promo)




Part Thirteen: Magic Night (#litres_trial_promo)




Keep Reading (#litres_trial_promo)

About the Author (#litres_trial_promo)

Also by the Author (#litres_trial_promo)

About the Publisher (#litres_trial_promo)




INTRODUCTION (#ulink_3fecfa4a-0600-56d7-8f02-aa2a43ca05e9)







I remember a window in a farmhouse in North Wales which had a sill of white-washed stone so deep I could sit sideways in it at the age of six, hugging my knees to my chin. From that spying place I had a view of the orchard of apple trees behind the house. The orchard seemed large to me at the time, though in retrospect it probably contained less than twenty trees. In the heat of the afternoon the farmyard cats, having exerted themselves mousing, went there to doze, and I went to hunt through the unkempt grass for eggs laid by nomadic hens. Beyond the orchard was a low wall with an ancient mossy stile. And beyond the wall an expanse of rolling meadow, grazed by sheep, with the sea a misty blue prospect.

I have little way of knowing how accurate these memories are; almost forty years have passed since I was small enough to sit in that window niche. The photographs my parents took of those distant summers are still pasted in the musty pages of their album, but they are tiny, black and white and often blurred. There are, it’s true, a couple of pictures of the cats, dozing. But none of the orchard, or the wall, or the meadow. And none of the window where I sat.

Perhaps it doesn’t really matter how accurate my memories are; all that matters is how powerfully they move me. I still conjure that place in my dreams, and when I wake I have the details clear in my head. The smell of the night-lights my mother set on the dresser in my bedroom, the dapple beneath the trees, the warmth and weight of an egg, found in the grass and carried into the kitchen like unearthed treasure. The dreams are all the evidence I need. I was there once, blissfully happy. And though I cannot tell you how, I believe I will be there again.

The farmhouse has long since disappeared; the cats are dead, the orchard uprooted. But I will be there again.

If you are already familiar with the book in your hand, you know the relevance of this sliver of autobiography. Weaveworld is a meditation on memory. Yes, it also tells about magic and demagoguery and angelic judgments, but the central drama of the tale is the way the characters remember – or fail to remember – the glimpse they’ve had of paradise. This, for instance, of Cal Mooney, our hero:

‘It was only when, in the middle of a dreamy day, something reminded him – a scent, a shout – that he had been in another place, and breathed its air and met its creatures, it was only then that he realized how tentative his recall was …

… The glories of the Fugue were becoming mere words, the reality of which he could no longer conjure. When he thought of an orchard it was less and less that extraordinary place he’d slept in (slept, and dreamt that his life he was now living was the dream) and more a commonplace stand of apple trees …

… Surely dying was like this, he thought; losing things dear and unable to prevent their passing.’

The novel is not primarily about the escape into Eden. It’s about how the knowledge of Eden slips from us, and the means we devise to hold on to that knowledge. This is, I think, a universal experience, which may go some way to explaining why the book continues to find readers. I recently finished a six-week publicity tour for a new novel, and at book-signings across the country found readers bringing me battered but much-beloved copies of Weaveworld to be inscribed; several times I heard people say the book had helped them through dark times in their personal lives.

There is nothing more gratifying to this author than to sign and personalize a book which has seen some action: passed between friends, dropped in the bath, coffee-stained and sun-yellowed. I have in my library copies of certain works – Melville, Poe, Blake – that I’ve treasured over the years, all much the worse for wear. I know how close you can get to a book whose stains and creases are part of your shared history. And what more perfect marriage of form and content, than that a novel about memory, like Weaveworld. should be valued because of the events that have marked it?

The book was published in 1987, the year in which the first Hellraiser film was released, but it represented a considerable departure from the transgressive horror fiction with which I had become identified. There were plenty of critics ready to snipe at the change of direction, opining that my imagination was too dark for the genre I was attempting to infiltrate, and I was better off staying on the horror shelves. But the response from readers, including many who were devoted to the extremes of my earlier work, was overwhelmingly positive. The book sold solidly from the outset, and has continued to do so, in several languages, ever since. It has sparked off creative work in other media from readers who wanted to explore the story for themselves: paintings, poems, musical compositions; even an opera, planned for production in Paris. I have come to believe that the darkness I imported into the work, far from proving problematic, is very much to the book’s purpose. Yes, there are raptures in the novel, and glorious deliriums. But the Fugue – the magic haven of the book – is threatened with total destruction, and the powers that overshadow it are not tuppenny coloured terrors. They are the obscenities of human cruelty and human despair.






Tales of Paradise Lost are central to our culture, of course; we are all exiles from some place of bliss.

What is that place? A memory of a pre-conscious state of perfect contentment, where we believe ourselves whole because we have not yet comprehended the fact of our physical separation from our mothers? Or a religious conviction, too deep in our cells to be subjected to the rigours of intellectual enquiry, that knows our connection to the planet, to animal life, to the stars? A faith, is it? Or a glorious certainty?

It isn’t necessary for a storyteller to have answers to the questions they pose, of course; only to be interested enough to ask them. Weaveworld is full of unrequited enquiries. Why does Immacolata’s hatred of the Seerkind burn so intensely? Is the creature in the Empty Quarter an angel or not? And if the garden of sand in which it has kept its psychotic vigil is not the Eden of Genesis, then where did the Seerkind arise from? There are certainly answers to these mysteries to be wrought and written, but they would, I am certain, only beg further questions, which if answered would beg yet more. For all its length and elaboration, the novel does not attempt to fill in every gap in its invented history. Nothing ever begins, its first line announces; there are innumerable stories from which this fragment of narrative springs, and there will be plenty to tell when it’s done. Though I have had requests aplenty for a sequel, I will never write one. The tale isn’t finished; but I’ve told all I can.

That is not to say my attitude to the work does not continue to change. In the past ten years I’ve gone through periods when I was thoroughly out of sorts with the novel, even on occasion irritated that it found such favour with readers when other stories seemed more worthy. And in the troughs of my discomfort, I made what with hindsight seems to be dubious judgments about fantastic fiction as a whole. I have been, I think, altogether disparaging about the ‘escapist’ elements of the genre, emphasizing its powers to address social, moral and even philosophical issues at the expense of celebrating its dreamier virtues. I took this position out of a genuine desire to defend a fictional form I love from accusations of triviality and triteness, but my zeal led me astray. Yes, fantastic fiction can be intricately woven into the texture of our daily lives, addressing important issues in fabulist form. But it also serves to release us for a time from the definitions that confine our daily selves; to unplug us from a world that wounds and disappoints us, allowing us to venture into places of magic and transformation. Though of late my writing has concerned itself more and more with detailing that wounded, disappointing reality, as a reader I have rediscovered the pleasures of unrepentant escapism: the short fiction of Lord Dunsany, early Yeats poems, the paintings of Samuel Palmer and Ernst Fuchs.

The author who wrote Weaveworld has, however, disappeared. I’ve not lost faith with the enchantments of fantasy, but there is a kind of easy sweetness in this book that would not, at least presently, come readily from my pen. We go through seasons perhaps; and Weaveworld was written in a balmier time. Perhaps there’ll be another. But its tender inventions seem very remote from the man writing these words.

Maybe that’s why, when I sat down to work this morning, I thought of that sill in North Wales, and the orchard and the wall and the meadow. They too are remote, yet – like the copy of Weaveworld that sits beside me on the desk – they are here with me still; part of my past, and yet present.

That which is imagined need never be lost, runs the epigram in the book of faery-tales Mimi Laschenski leaves in her granddaughter’s keeping. The book will become a repository, before the story of Weaveworld is told; a place where vulnerable enchantments can take refuge. So inner and outer books, tales of Faerie and of Fugue, collapse into a single idea, the same precious idea that brings readers to bookstores with battered copies to be signed, and me, back to memories of a sill and an orchard to set before you. It’s such a simple idea, but it still seems to me miraculous: that in words we may preserve ideas and images precious to us. Not only preserve them, but pass them on. To dream in isolation can be properly splendid to be sure; but to dream in company seems to me infinitely preferable.

C.B.



BOOK ONE (#ulink_f4c209c9-9794-514b-b571-da98a67717ed)




Part One (#ulink_14e72873-b20d-5c13-b366-2757ef666365)

Wild Blue Yonder (#ulink_14e72873-b20d-5c13-b366-2757ef666365)


‘I for one, know of no sweeter sight for a man’s eyes than his own country …’

Homer

The Odyssey





I (#litres_trial_promo)






HOMING (#litres_trial_promo)

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othing ever begins.

There is no first moment; no single word or place from which this or any other story springs.

The threads can always be traced back to some earlier tale, and to the tales that preceded that; though as the narrator’s voice recedes the connections will seem to grow more tenuous, for each age will want the tale told as if it were of its own making.

Thus the pagan will be sanctified, the tragic become laughable; great lovers will stoop to sentiment, and demons dwindle to clockwork toys.

Nothing is fixed. In and out the shuttle goes, fact and fiction, mind and matter, woven into patterns that may have only this in common: that hidden amongst them is a filigree which will with time become a world.

It must be arbitrary then, the place at which we choose to embark.

Somewhere between a past half forgotten and a future as yet only glimpsed.

This place, for instance.

This garden, untended since the death of its protector three months ago, and now running riot beneath a blindingly bright late August sky; its fruits hanging unharvested, its herbaceous borders coaxed to mutiny by a summer of torrential rain and sudden, sweltering days.

This house, identical to the hundreds of others in this street alone, built with its back so close to the railway track that the passage of the slow train from Liverpool to Crewe rocks the china dogs on the dining-room sill.

And with this young man, who now steps out of the back door and makes his way down the beleaguered path to a ramshackle hut from which there rises a welcoming chorus of coos and flutterings.

His name is Calhoun Mooney, but he’s universally known as Cal. He is twenty-six, and has worked for five years at an insurance firm in the city centre. It’s a job he takes no pleasure in, but escape from the city he’s lived in all his life seems more unlikely than ever since the death of his mother, all of which may account for the weary expression on his well-made face.

He approaches the door of the pigeon loft, opens it, and at that moment – for want of a better – this story takes wing.




2


Cal had told his father several times that the wood at the bottom of the loft door was deteriorating. It could only be a matter of time before the planks rotted completely, giving the rats who lived and grew gross along the railway line access to the pigeons. But Brendan Mooney had shown little or no interest in his racing birds since Eileen’s death. This despite, or perhaps because, the birds had been his abiding passion during her life. How often had Cal heard his mother complain that Brendan spent more time with his precious pigeons than he did inside the house?

She would not have had that complaint to make now; now Cal’s father sat most of every day at the back window, staring out into the garden and watching the wilderness steadily take charge of his wife’s handiwork, as if he might find in the spectacle of dissolution some clue as to how his grief might be similarly erased. There was little sign that he was learning much from his vigil however. Every day, when Cal came back to the house in Chariot Street – a house he’d thought to have left for good half a decade ago, but which his father’s isolation had obliged him to return to – it seemed he found Brendan slightly smaller. Not hunched, but somehow shrunken, as though he’d decided to present the smallest possible target to a world suddenly grown hostile.

Murmuring a welcome to the forty or so birds in the loft, Cal stepped inside, to be met with a scene of high agitation. All but a few of the pigeons were flying back and forth in their cages, near to hysteria. Had the rats been in, Cal wondered? He cast around for any damage, but there was no visible sign of what had fuelled this furore.

He’d never seen them so excited. For fully half a minute he stood in bewilderment, watching their display, the din of their wings making his head reel, before deciding to step into the largest of the cages and claim the prize birds from the mêlée before they did themselves damage.

He unlatched the cage, and had opened it no more than two or three inches when one of last year’s champions, a normally sedate cock known, as were they all, by his number – 33 – flew at the gap. Shocked by the speed of the bird’s approach. Cal let the door go, and in the seconds between his fingers slipping from the latch and his retrieval of it, 33 was out.

‘Damn you!’ Cal shouted, cursing himself as much as the bird, for he’d left the door of the loft itself ajar, and – apparently careless of what harm he might do himself in his bid – 33 was making for the sky.

In the few moments it took Cal to latch the cage again, the bird was through the door and away. Cal went in stumbling pursuit, but by the time he got back into the open air 33 was already fluttering up above the garden. At roof-height he flew around in three ever larger circles, as if orienting himself. Then he seemed to fix his objective and took off in a North-North-Easterly direction.

A rapping drew Cal’s attention, and he looked down to see his father standing at the window, mouthing something to him. There was more animation on Brendan’s harried face than Cal had seen in months; the escape of the bird seemed to have temporarily roused him from his despondency. Moments later he was at the back door, asking what had happened. Cal had no time for explanation.

‘It’s off–’ he yelled.

Then, keeping his eye on the sky as he went, he started down the path at the side of the house.

When he reached the front the bird was still in sight. Cal leapt the fence and crossed Chariot Street at a run, determined to give chase. It was, he knew, an all but hopeless pursuit. With a tail wind a prime bird could reach a top speed of 70 miles an hour, and though 33 had not raced for the best part of a year he could still easily outpace a human runner. But he also knew he couldn’t go back to his father without making some effort to track the escapee, however futile.

At the bottom of the street he lost sight of his quarry behind the rooftops, and so made a detour to the foot bridge that crossed the Woolton Road, mounting the steps three and four at a time. From the top he was rewarded with a good view of the city. North towards Woolton Hill, and off East, and South-East, over Allerton towards Hunt’s Cross. Row upon row of council house roofs presented themselves, shimmering in the fierce heat of the afternoon, the herringbone rhythm of the close-packed streets rapidly giving way to the industrial wastelands of Speke.

Cal could see the pigeon too, though he was a rapidly diminishing dot.

It mattered little, for from this elevation 33’s destination was perfectly apparent. Less than two miles from the bridge the air was full of wheeling birds, drawn to the spot no doubt by some concentration of food in the area. Every year brought at least one such day, when the ant or gnat population suddenly boomed, and the bird life of the city was united in its gluttony. Gulls up from the mud banks of the Mersey, flying tip to tip with thrush and jackdaw and starling, all content to join the jamboree while the summer still warmed their backs.

This, no doubt, was the call 33 had heard. Bored with his balanced diet of maize and maple peas, tired of the pecking order of the loft and the predictability of each day – the bird had wanted out; wanted up and away. A day of high life; of food that had to be chased a little, and tasted all the better for that; of the companionship of wild things. All this went through Cal’s head, in a vague sort of way, while he watched the circling flocks.

It would be perfectly impossible, he knew, to locate an individual bird amongst these riotous thousands. He would have to trust that 33 would be content with his feast on the wing, and when he was sated do as he was trained to do, and come home. Nevertheless, the sheer spectacle of so many birds exercised a peculiar fascination, and crossing the bridge, Cal began to make his way towards the epicentre of this feathered cyclone.




II (#litres_trial_promo)






THE PURSUERS (#litres_trial_promo)





he woman at the window of the Hanover Hotel drew back the grey curtain and looked down at the street below.

‘Is it possible …?’ she murmured to the shadows that held court in the corner of the room. There was no answer to her question forthcoming, nor did there need to be. Unlikely as it seemed the trail had incontestably led here, to this dog-tired city, lying bruised and neglected beside a river that had once borne slave ships and cotton ships and could now barely carry its own weight out to sea. To Liverpool.

‘Such a place,’ she said. A minor dust-dervish had whipped itself up in the street outside, lifting antediluvian litter into the air.

‘Why are you so surprised?’ said the man who half lay and half sat on the bed, pillows supporting his impressive frame, hands linked behind his heavy head. The face was wide, the features upon it almost too expressive, like those of an actor who’d made a career of crowd-pleasers, and grown expert in cheap effects. His mouth, which knew a thousand variations of the smile, found one that suited his leisurely mood, and said:

‘They’ve led us quite a dance. But we’re almost there. Don’t you feel it? I do.’

The woman glanced back at this man. He had taken off the jacket that had been her most loving gift to him, and thrown it over the back of the chair. The shirt beneath was sweat-sodden at the armpits, and the flesh of his face looked waxen in the afternoon light. Despite all she felt for him – and that was enough to make her fearful of computation – he was only human, and today, after so much heat and travel, he wore every one of his fifty-two years plainly. In the time they had been together, pursuing the Fugue, she had lent him what strength she could, as he in his turn had lent her his wit, and his expertise in surviving this realm. The Kingdom of the Cuckoo, the Families had always called it, this wretched human world which she had endured for vengeance’s sake.

But very soon now the chase would be over. Shadwell – the man on the bed – would profit by what they were so very close to finding, and she, seeing their quarry besmirched and sold into slavery, would be revenged. Then she would leave the Kingdom to its grimy ways, and happily.

She turned her attentions back to the street. Shadwell was right. They had been led a dance. But the music would cease soon enough.

From where Shadwell lay Immacolata’s silhouette was clear against the window. Not for the first time his thoughts turned to the problem of how he would sell this woman. It was a purely academic exercise, of course, but one that pressed his skills to their limits.

He was by profession a salesman; that had been his business since his early adolescence. More than his business, his genius. He prided himself that there was nothing alive or dead he could not find a buyer for. In his time he had been a raw sugar merchant, a small arms salesman, a seller of dolls, dogs, life-insurance, salvation rags and lighting fixtures. He had trafficked in Lourdes water and hashish, in Chinese screens and patented cures for constipation. Amongst this parade of items there had of course been frauds and fakes aplenty, but nothing, nothing that he had not been able to foist upon the public sooner or later, either by seduction or intimidation.

But she – Immacolata, the not quite woman he had shared his every waking moment with these past many years – she, he knew, would defy his talents as a salesman.

For one, she was paradoxical, and the buying public had little taste for that. They wanted their merchandise shorn of ambiguity: made simple and safe. She was not safe; oh, certainly not; not with her terrible rage and her still more terrible alleluias; nor was she simple. Beneath the incandescent beauty of her face, behind eyes that concealed centuries yet could be so immediate they drew blood, beneath the deep olive skin, the Jewess’ skin, there lay feelings that would blister the air if given vent.

She was too much herself to be sold, he decided – not for the first time – and told himself to forget the exercise. It was one he could never hope to master; why should he torment himself with it?

Immacolata turned away from the window.

‘Are you rested now?’ she asked him.

‘It was you wanted to get out of the sun,’ he reminded her. ‘I’m ready to start whenever you are. Though I haven’t a clue where we begin …’

‘That’s not so difficult,’ Immacolata said. ‘Remember what my sister prophesied? Events are close to crisis-point.’

As she spoke, the shadows in the corner of the room stirred afresh, and Immacolata’s two dead sisters showed their ethereal skirts. Shadwell had never been easy in their presence, and they in their turn had always despised him. But the old one, the Hag, the Beldam, had skills as an oracle, no doubt of that. What she saw in the filth of her sister, the Magdalene’s after-birth, was usually proved correct.

‘The Fugue can’t stay hidden much longer,’ said Immacolata. ‘As soon as it’s moved it creates vibrations. It can’t help itself. So much life, pressed into such a hideway.’

‘And do you feel any of these … vibrations?’ said Shadwell, swinging his legs over the edge of the bed and standing up.

Immacolata shook her head. ‘No. Not yet. But we should be ready.’

Shadwell picked up his jacket, and slipped it on. The lining shimmered, casting filaments of seduction across the room. By their momentary brightness he caught sight of the Magdalene and the Hag. The old woman covered her eyes against the spillage from the jacket, fearful of its power. The Magdalene did not concern herself; her lids had long ago been sewn closed over sockets blind from birth.

‘When the movements begin it may take an hour or two to pin-point the location,’ said Immacolata.

‘An hour?’ Shadwell replied.

– the pursuit that had finally led them here seemed today to have been a lifetime long –

‘I can wait an hour.’




III (#litres_trial_promo)






WHO MOVED THE GROUND? (#litres_trial_promo)

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he birds did not stop their spiralling over the city as Cal approached. For every one that flew off, another three or four joined the throng.

The phenomenon had not gone unnoticed. People stood on the pavement and on doorsteps, hands shading their eyes from the glare of the sky, and stared heavenwards. Opinions were everywhere ventured as to the reason for this congregation. Cal didn’t stop to offer his, but threaded his way through the maze of streets, on occasion having to double back and find a new route, but by degrees getting closer to the hub.

And now, as he approached, it became apparent that his first theory had been incorrect. The birds were not feeding. There was no swooping nor squabbling over a six-legged crumb, nor any sign in the lower air of the insect life that might have attracted these numbers. The birds were simply circling. Some of the smaller species, sparrows and finches, had tired of flying and now lined rooftops and fences, leaving their larger brethren – carrion-crows, magpies, gulls – to occupy the heights. There was no scarcity of pigeons here either; the wild variety banking and wheeling in flocks of fifty or more, their shadows rippling across the rooftops. There were some domesticated birds too, doubtless escapees like 33. Canaries and budgerigars: birds called from their millet and their bells by whatever force had summoned the others. For these birds being here was effectively suicide. Though their fellows were at present too excited by this ritual to take note of the pets in their midst, they would not be so indifferent when the circling spell no longer bound them. They would be cruel and quick. They’d fall on the canaries and the budgerigars and peck out their eyes, killing them for the crime of being tamed.

But for now, the parliament was at peace. It mounted the air, higher, ever higher, busying the sky.

The pursuit of this spectacle had led Cal to a part of the city he’d seldom explored. Here the plain square houses of the council estates gave way to a forlorn and eerie no-man’s-land, where streets of once-fine, three-storey terraced houses still stood, inexplicably preserved from the bulldozer, surrounded by areas levelled in expectation of a boom-time that had never come; islands in a dust sea.

It was one of these streets – Rue Street the sign read – that seemed the point over which the flocks were focused. There were more sizeable assemblies of exhausted birds here than in any of the adjacent streets; they twittered and preened themselves on the eaves and chimney tops and television aerials.

Cal scanned sky and roof alike, making his way along Rue Street as he did so. And there – a thousand to one chance – he caught sight of his bird. A solitary pigeon, dividing a cloud of sparrows. Years of watching the sky, waiting for pigeons to return from races, had given him an eagle eye; he could recognize a particular bird by a dozen idiosyncrasies in its flight pattern. He had found 33; no doubt of it. But even as he watched, the bird disappeared behind the roofs of Rue Street.

He gave chase afresh, finding a narrow alley which cut between the terraced houses half way along the road, and let on to the larger alley that ran behind the row. It had not been well kept. Piles of household refuse had been dumped along its length; orphan dustbins overturned, their contents scattered.

But twenty yards from where he stood there was work going on. Two removal men were manoeuvring an armchair out of the yard behind one of the houses, while a third stared up at the birds. Several hundred were assembled on the yard walls and window sills and railings. Cal wandered along the alley, scrutinizing this assembly for pigeons. He found a dozen or more amongst the multitude, but not the one he sought.

‘What d’you make of it?’

He had come within ten yards of the removal men, and one of them, the idler, was addressing the question to him.

‘I don’t know,’ he answered honestly.

‘Maybe they’re goin’ to migrate,’ said the younger of the two armchair carriers, letting drop his half of the burden and staring up at the sky.

‘Don’t be an idiot, Shane,’ said the other man, a West Indian. His name – Gideon – was emblazoned on the back of his overalls. Why’d they migrate in the middle of the fuckin’ summer?’

‘Too hot,’ was the idler’s reply. ‘That’s what it is. Too fuckin’ hot. It’s cookin’ their brains up there.’

Gideon had now put down his half of the armchair and was leaning against the back yard wall, applying a flame to the half-spent cigarette he’d fished from his top pocket.

‘Wouldn’t be bad, would it?’ he mused. ‘Being a bird. Gettin’ yer end away all spring, then fuckin’ off to the South of France as soon as yer get a chill on yer bollocks.’

‘They don’t live long,’ said Cal.

‘Do they not?’ said Gideon, drawing on his cigarette. He shrugged. ‘Short and sweet,’ he said. ‘That’d suit me.’

Shane plucked at the half-dozen blond hairs of his would-be moustache. ‘Yer know somethin’ about birds, do yer?’ he said to Cal.

‘Only pigeons.’

‘Race ’em, do you?’

‘Once in a while –’

‘Me brother-in-law keeps whippets,’ said the third man, the idler. He looked at Cal as though this coincidence verged on the miraculous, and would now fuel hours of debate. But all Cal could think of to say was:

‘Dogs.’

‘That’s right,’ said the other man, delighted that they were of one accord on the issue. ‘He’s got five. Only one died.’

‘Pity,’ said Cal.

‘Not really. It was fuckin’ blind in one eye and couldn’t see in the other.’

The man guffawed at this observation, which promptly brought the exchange to a dead halt. Cal turned his attention back to the birds, and he grinned to see – there on the upper window-ledge of the house – his bird.

‘I see him,’ he said.

Gideon followed his gaze. ‘What’s that then?’

‘My pigeon. He escaped.’ Cal pointed. ‘There. In the middle of the sill. See him?’

All three now looked.

‘Worth something is he?’ said the idler.

‘Trust you, Bazo,’ Shane commented.

‘Just asking,’ Bazo replied.

‘He’s won prizes,’ said Cal, with some pride. He was keeping his eyes glued to 33, but the pigeon showed no sign of wanting to fly; just preened his wing feathers, and once in a while turned a beady eye up to the sky.

‘Stay there …’ Cal told the bird under his breath, ‘… don’t move.’ Then, to Gideon: ‘Is it all right if I go in? Try and catch him?’

‘Help yourself. The auld girl who had the house’s been carted off to hospital. We’re taking the furniture to pay her bills.’

Cal ducked through into the yard, negotiating the bric-a-brac the trio had dumped there, and went into the house.

It was a shambles inside. If the occupant had ever owned anything of substance it had long since been removed. The few pictures still hanging were worthless; the furniture was old, but not old enough to have come back into fashion; the rugs, cushions and curtains so aged they were fit only for the incinerator. The walls and ceilings were stained by many years’ accrual of smoke, its source the candles that sat on every shelf and sill, stalactites of yellowed wax depending from them.

He made his way through the warren of pokey, dark rooms, and into the hallway. The scene was just as dispiriting here. The brown linoleum rucked up and torn, and everywhere the pervasive smell of must and dust and creeping rot. She was well out of this squalid place, Cal thought, wherever she was; better off in hospital, where at least the sheets were dry.

He began to climb the stairs. It was a curious sensation, ascending into the murk of the upper storey, becoming blinder stair by stair, with the sound of birds scurrying across the slates above his skull, and beyond that the muted cries of gull and crow. Though it was no doubt self-deception, he seemed to hear their voices circling, as though this very place were the centre of their attentions. An image appeared in his head, of a photograph from National Geographical. A study of stars, taken with a slow release camera, the pin-point lights describing circles as they moved, or appeared to move, across the sky, with the Pole Star, the Nail of Heaven, steady in their midst.

The wheeling sound, and the picture it evoked, began to dizzy him. He suddenly felt weak, even afraid.

This was no time for such frailties, he chided himself. He had to claim the bird before it flew off again. He picked up his pace. At the top of the stairs he manœuvred past several items of bedroom furniture, and opened one of the several doors that he was presented with. The room he had chosen was adjacent to the one whose sill 33 occupied. Sun streamed through the curtainless window; the stale heat brought fresh sweat to his brow. The room had been emptied of furniture, the only souvenir of occupancy a calendar for the year 1961. On it, a photograph of a lion beneath a tree, its shaggy, monolithic head laid on vast paws, its gaze contemplative.

Cal went out on to the landing again, selected another door, and was this time delivered into the right room. There, beyond the grimy glass, was the pigeon.

Now it was all a question of tactics. He had to be careful not to startle the bird. He approached the window cautiously. On the sun-drenched sill 33 cocked its head, and blinked its eye, but made no move. Cal held his breath, and put his hands on the frame to haul the window up, but there was no budging it. A quick perusal showed why. The frame had been sealed up years ago, a dozen or more nails driven deep into the wood. A primitive form of crime prevention, but no doubt reassuring to an old woman living alone.

From the yard below, he heard Gideon’s voice. Peering down, he could just see the trio dragging a large rolled-up carpet out of the house, Gideon giving orders in a ceaseless stream.

‘– to my left, Bazo. Left! Don’t you know which is your left?’

‘I’m going left.’

‘Not your left, yer idiot. My left.’

The bird on the sill was undisturbed by this commotion. It seemed quite happy on its perch.

Cal headed back downstairs, deciding as he went that the only option remaining was to climb up on to the yard wall and see if he couldn’t coax the bird down from there. He cursed himself for not having brought a pocketful of grain. Coos and sweet words would just have to do.

By the time he stepped out into the heat of the yard once more, the removal men had successfully manhandled the carpet out of the house, and were taking a rest after their exertions.

‘No luck?’ said Shane, seeing Cal emerge.

‘The window won’t budge. I’ll have to try from down here.’

He caught a deprecating look from Bazo. ‘You’ll never reach the bugger from here,’ the man said, scratching the expanse of beer-gut that gleamed between T-shirt and belt.

‘I’ll try from the wall,’ said Cal.

‘Watch yerself –’ Gideon said.

‘Thanks.’

‘– you could break yer back –’

Using pits in the crumbling mortar for footholds, Cal hauled himself up on to the eight-foot wall that divided this yard from its neighbour.

The sun was hot on his neck and the top of his head, and something of the giddiness he’d experienced climbing the stairs returned. He straddled the wall as though it were a horse, until he got used to the height. Though the perch was the width of a brick, and offered ample enough walking space. heights and he had never been happy companions.

‘Looks like it’s been a nice piece of handiwork,’ said Gideon, in the yard below. Cal glanced down to see that the West Indian was now on his haunches beside the carpet, which he’d rolled out far enough to expose an elaborately woven border.

Bazo wandered over to where Gideon crouched, and scrutinized the property. He was balding, Cal could see, his hair scrupulously pasted down with oil to conceal the spot.

‘Pity it’s not in better nick,’ said Shane.

‘Hold yer horses,’ said Bazo. ‘Let’s have a better look.’

Cal returned his attention to the problem of standing upright. At least the carpet would divert his audience for a few moments; long enough, he prayed, for him to get to his feet. There was no breath of wind here to alleviate the fury of the sun; he could feel sweat trickle down his torso and glue his underwear to his buttocks. Gingerly, he started to stand, bringing one leg up into a kneeling position – both hands clinging to the brick like grim death.

From below, there were murmurs of approval as more of the carpet was exposed to light.

‘Look at the work in that,’ said Gideon.

‘Are you thinkin’ what I’m thinkin’?’ said Bazo, his voice lowered.

‘I don’t know ’til you tell me,’ came Gideon’s reply.

‘What say we take it down to Gilchrist’s. We might get a price for this.’

‘The Chief’ll know it’s gone,’ Shane protested.

‘Keep it down,’ said Bazo, quietly reminding his companions of Cal’s presence. In fact Cal was far too concerned with his inept tight-rope act to bother himself with their petty theft. He had finally got the soles of both feet up on to the top of the wall, and was about to try standing up.

In the yard, the conversation went on.

‘Take the far end, Shane, let’s have a look at the whole thing …’

‘D’you think it’s Persian?’

‘Haven’t a fuckin’ clue.’

Very slowly, Cal stood upright, his arms extended at ninety degrees from his body. Feeling as stable as he was ever going to feel, he chanced a quick look up at the window sill. The bird was still there.

From below he heard the sound of the carpet being unrolled further, the men’s grunts punctuated with words of admiration.

Ignoring their presence as best he could, he took his first faltering step along the wall.

‘Hey there …’ he murmured to the escapee ‘… remember me?’

33 took no notice. Cal advanced a second trembling step, and a third, his confidence growing. He was getting the trick of this balancing business now.

‘Come on down,’ he coaxed, a prosaic Romeo.

The bird finally seemed to recognize his owner’s voice, and cocked his head in Cal’s direction.

‘Here, boy …’ Cal said, tentatively raising his hand towards the window as he risked another step.

At that instant either his foot slipped or the brick gave way beneath his heel. He heard himself loose a yell of alarm, which panicked the birds lining the sill. They were up and off, their wing-beats ironic applause, as he flailed on the wall. His panicked gaze went first to his feet, then to the yard below.

No, not the yard; that had disappeared. It was the carpet he saw. It had been entirely unrolled, and it filled the yard from wall to wall.

What happened next occupied mere seconds, but either his mind was lightning fast, or the moments played truant, for it seemed he had all the time he needed –

Time to appreciate the startling intricacy of the design laid out beneath him; an awesome proliferation of exquisitely executed detail. Age had bled brightness from the colours of the weave, mellowing vermilion to rose, and cobalt to a chalky blue, and here and there the carpet had become thread-bare, but from where Cal teetered the effect was still overwhelming.

Every inch of the carpet was worked with motifs. Even the border brimmed with designs, all subtly different from their neighbours. The effect was not over-busy; every detail was clear to Cal’s feasting eyes. In one place a dozen motifs congregated as if banded together; in another, they stood apart like rival siblings. Some kept their station along the border; others spilled into the main field, as if eager to join the teeming throng there.

In the field itself ribbons of colour described arabesques across a background of sultry browns and greens, forms that were pure abstraction – bright jottings from some wild man’s diary – jostling with stylized flora and fauna. But this complexity paled beside the centre piece of the carpet: a huge medallion, its colours as various as a summer garden, into which a hundred subtle geometries had been cunningly woven, so that the eye could read each pattern as flower or theorem, order or turmoil, and find each choice echoed somewhere in the grand design.

He saw all of this in one prodigious glance. In his second the vision laid before him began to change.

From the corner of his eye he registered that the rest of the world – the yard, and the men who’d occupied it, the houses, the wall he’d been toppling from – all were winking out of existence. Suddenly he was hanging in the air, the carpet vaster by the moment beneath him, its glorious configurations filling his head.

The design was shifting, he saw. The knots were restless, trembling to slip themselves, and the colours seemed to be merging into each other, new forms springing from this marriage of dyes.

Implausible as it seemed, the carpet was coming to life.

A landscape – or rather a confusion of landscapes thrown together in fabulous disarray – was emerging from the warp and the weft. Was that not a mountain he could see below him, pressing its head up through a cloud of colour?; and was that not a river?; and could he not hear its roar as it fell in white water torrents into a shadowed gorge?

There was a world below him.

And he was suddenly a bird, a wingless bird hovering for a breathless instant on a balmy, sweet-scented wind, sole witness to the miracle sleeping below.

There was more to claim his eye with every thump of his heart.

A lake, with myriad islands dotting its placid waters like breaching whales. A dappled quilt of fields, their grasses and grains swept by the same tides of air that kept him aloft. Velvet woodland creeping up the sleek flank of a hill, on whose pinnacle a watchtower perched, sun and cloud-shadow drifting across its white walls.

There were other signs of habitation too, though nothing of the people themselves. A cluster of dwellings hugging a river bend; several houses beetling along the edge of a cliff, tempting gravity. And a town too, laid out in a city-planner’s nightmare, half its streets hopelessly serpentine, the other half cul-de-sacs.

The same casual indifference to organization was evident everywhere, he saw. Zones temperate and intemperate, fruitful and barren were thrown together in defiance of all laws geological or climatic, as if by a God whose taste was for contradiction.

How fine it would be to walk there, he thought, with so much variety pressed into so little space, not knowing whether turning the next corner would bring ice or fire. Such complexity was beyond the wit of a cartographer. To be there, in that world, would be to live a perpetual adventure.

And at the centre of this burgeoning province, perhaps the most awesome sight of all. A mass of slate-coloured cloud, the innards of which were in perpetual, spiralling motion. The sight reminded him of the birds wheeling above the house in Rue Street – an echo of this greater wheel.

At the thought of them, and the place he’d left behind, he heard their voices – and in that moment the wind that had swept up from the world below, keeping him aloft, faltered.

He felt the horror in his stomach first, and then his bowels: he was going to fall.

The tumult of the birds grew louder, crowing their delight at his descent. He, the usurper of their element; he, who had snatched a glimpse of a miracle, would now be dashed to death upon it.

He started to yell, but the speed of his fall stole the cry from his tongue. The air roared in his ears and tore at his hair. He tried to spread his arms to slow his descent but the attempt instead threw him head over heels, and over again, until he no longer knew earth from sky. There was some mercy in this, he dimly thought. At least he’d be blind to death’s proximity. Just tumbling and tumbling until –

– the world went out.

He fell through a darkness unrelieved by stars, the birds still loud in his ears, and hit the ground, hard.

It hurt, and went on hurting, which struck him as odd. Oblivion, he’d always assumed, would be a painless condition. And soundless too. But there were voices.

‘Say something …’ one of them demanded, ‘… if it’s only goodbye.’

There was laughter now.

He opened his eyes a hair’s breadth. The sun was blindingly bright, until Gideon’s bulk eclipsed it.

‘Have you broken anything?’ the man wanted to know.

Cal opened his eyes a fraction wider.

‘Say something, man.’

He raised his head a few inches, and looked about him. He was lying in the yard, on the carpet.

‘What happened?’

‘You fell off the wall,’ said Shane.

‘Must have missed your footing,’ Gideon suggested.

‘Fell,’ Cal said, pulling himself up into a sitting position. He felt nauseous.

‘Don’t think you’ve done much damage,’ said Gideon. ‘A few scrapes, that’s all.’

Cal looked down at himself, verifying the man’s remark. He’d taken skin off his right arm from wrist to elbow, and there was tenderness down his body where he’d hit the ground, but there were no sharp pains. The only real harm was to his dignity, and that was seldom fatal.

He got to his feet, wincing, eyes to the ground. The weave was playing dumb. There was no tell-tale tremor in the rows of knots, no sign that hidden heights and depths were about to make themselves known. Nor was there any sign from the others that they’d seen anything miraculous. To all intents and purposes the carpet beneath his feet was simply that: a carpet.

He hobbled towards the yard gate, offering a muttered thanks to Gideon. As he stepped out into the alley, Bazo said:

‘Yer bird flew off.’

Cal gave a small shrug and went on his way.

What had he just experienced? An hallucination, brought on by too much sun or too little breakfast? If so, it had been startlingly real. He looked up at the birds, still circling overhead. They sensed something untoward here too; that was why they’d gathered. Either that, or they and he were sharing the same delusion.

All, in sum, that he could be certain of was his bruising. That, and the fact that though he was standing no more than two miles from his father’s house, in the city in which he’d spent his entire life, he felt as homesick as a lost child.




IV (#litres_trial_promo)






CONTACT (#litres_trial_promo)





s Immacolata crossed the width of heat-raddled pavement between the steps of the hotel and the shaded interior of Shadwell’s Mercedes, she suddenly let out a cry. Her hand went to her head, the sunglasses she always wore in the Kingdom’s public places falling from her face.

Shadwell was swiftly out of the car, and opening the door, but his passenger shook her head.

‘Too bright,’ she murmured, and stumbled back through the swing-doors into the vestibule of the hotel. It was deserted. Shadwell came in swift pursuit, to find Immacolata standing as far from the door as her legs would carry her. The wraith-sisters were guarding her – their presences distressing the stale air – but he couldn’t prevent himself from snatching the opportunity, in the guise of legitimate concern, to reach and touch the woman. Such contact was anathema to her, and a joy to him made more potent because she forbade it. He was obliged therefore to exploit any occasion when he might pass such contact off as accidental.

The ghosts chilled his skin with their disapproval, but Immacolata was quite able to protect her inviolability. She turned, her eyes raging at his presumption. He immediately removed his hand from her arm, his fingers tingling. He would count the minutes until he had a private moment in which to put them to his lips.

‘I’m sorry,’ he said. ‘I was concerned.’

A voice intervened. The receptionist had emerged from his room, a copy of Sporting Life in hand.

‘Can I be of help?’ he offered.

‘No, no …’ said Shadwell.

The receptionist’s eyes were not on him, however, but on Immacolata.

‘Touch of heat stroke, is it?’ he said.

‘Maybe,’ said Shadwell. Immacolata had moved to the bottom of the stairs, out of the receptionist’s enquiring gaze. ‘Thank you for your concern –’

The receptionist made a face, and returned to his armchair. Shadwell went to Immacolata. She had found the shadows; or the shadows had found her.

‘What happened?’ he said. ‘Was it just the sun?’

She didn’t look at him, but she deigned to speak.

‘I felt the Fugue …’ she said, so softly he had to hold his breath to catch her words ‘… then something else.’

He waited for further news from her, but none came. Then, as he was about to break the silence, she said:

‘At the back of my throat …’ She swallowed, as if to dislodge some remembered bitterness ‘… the Scourge …’

The Scourge? Had he heard her correctly?

Either Immacolata sensed his doubt, or shared it, for she said:

‘It was there, Shadwell.’

and when she spoke even her extraordinary self-control couldn’t quite tame the flutter in her voice.

‘Surely you’re mistaken.’

She made a tiny shake of her head.

‘It’s dead and gone,’ he said.

Her face could have been chiselled from stone. Only her lips moved, and he longed for them, despite the thoughts they shaped.

‘A power like that doesn’t die.’ she said. ‘It can’t ever die. It sleeps. It waits.’

‘What for? Why?’

‘Till the Fugue wakes, maybe,’ she said.

Her eyes had lost their gold; become silvery. Motes of the menstruum, turning like dust in a sun-beam, dropped from her lashes and evaporated inches from his face. He’d never seen her like this before, so close to exposing her feelings. The spectacle of her vulnerability aroused him beyond words. His prick was so hard it ached. She was apparently dead to his arousal however; or else chose to ignore it. The Magdalene, the blind sister, was not so indifferent. She, Shadwell knew, had an appetite for what a man might spill, and horrid purposes to put it to. Even now he saw her form coagulating in a recess in the wall, one hunger from scalp to sole.

‘I saw a wilderness,’ Immacolata said, calling Shadwell’s attention from the Magdalene’s advances. ‘Bright sun. Terrible sun. The emptiest place on earth.’

‘And that’s where the Scourge is now?’

She nodded. ‘It’s sleeping. I think … it’s forgotten itself.’

‘It’ll stay that way, then, won’t it?’ Shadwell replied. ‘Who the hell’s going to wake it?’

His words failed to convince even himself.

‘Look –’ he said, ‘– we’ll find the Fugue and sell it before the Scourge can so much as roll over. We haven’t come so far to stop now.’

Immacolata said nothing. Her eyes were still fixed on that nowhere she’d sighted, or tasted – or both – minutes earlier.

Only very dimly did Shadwell comprehend what forces were at work here. Finally, he was only a Cuckoo – a human being – and that limited his vision; for which fact, as now, he was sometimes grateful.

One thing he did comprehend: the Fugue trailed legends. In the years of their search he’d heard it reported so many ways, from cradle-song to death-bed confession, and he’d long ago given up attempting to sort fact from fiction. All that mattered was that the many and the mighty longed for that place, spoke of it in their prayers, without knowing – most of them – that it was real; or had been. And what a profit he would turn when he had that dream on the block; there had never been a sale its like, or ever would be again. They could not give up now. Not for fear of something lost in time and sleep.

‘It knows. Shadwell,’ Immacolata said. ‘Even in its sleep, it knows.’

Had he had the words to persuade her from her fear she would have been contemptuous of them. Instead, he played the pragmatist.

‘The sooner we find the carpet and dispose of it the happier we’ll all be,’ he said.

The response seemed to stir her from the wilderness.

‘Maybe in a while,’ she replied, her eyes flickering towards him for the first time since they’d stepped off the street. ‘Maybe then we’ll go looking.’

All sign of the menstruum had abruptly vanished. The moment of doubt had passed, and the old certainty was back. She would pursue the Fugue to the end, he knew, as they had always planned. No rumour – even of the Scourge – would deflect her from her malice.

‘We may lose the trail if we don’t hurry.’

‘I doubt that,’ she said. ‘We’ll wait. Until the heat dies down.’

Ah, so this was to be his punishment for that ill-considered touch. It was his heat she made mocking reference to, not that of the city outside. He would be obliged to wait her pleasure, as he had waited before, and bear his stripes in silence. Not just because she alone could track the Fugue by the rhythm of its woven life, but because to wait another hour in her company, bathing in the scent of her breath, was an agony he would gladly endure.

For him it was a ritual of crime and punishment which would keep him hard for the rest of the day.

For her, the power his desire lent her remained a diverting curiosity. Furnaces, after all, grew cold if left unstoked. Even stars went out after a millennium. But the lust of Cuckoos, like so much else about that species, defied all the rules. The less it was fed, the hotter it became.





V (#litres_trial_promo)






BEFORE THE DARK (#litres_trial_promo)

1





n all, Suzanna had probably met her maternal grandmother less than a dozen times. Even as a child, before she’d fully understood the words, she’d been taught that the old woman was not to be trusted, though she could not remember ever hearing a reason offered as to why. The mud had stuck however. Though in her early adulthood – she was now 24 – she had learned to view her parents’ prejudices with a critical eye, and come to suspect that whatever their anxiety regarding her grandmother it was likely to be perfectly irrational – she could nevertheless not entirely forget the mythology that had grown up around Mimi Laschenski.

The very name was a stumbling block. To the ear of a child it sounded more like a faery-tale curse than a name. And indeed there had been much about the woman that supported such a fiction. Suzanna remembered Mimi as being small, with skin that was always slightly jaundiced, her black hair (which with hindsight, was probably dyed) drawn back tightly from a face which she doubted capable of a smile. Perhaps Mimi had reason for grief. Her first husband, who had been some sort of circus performer, had disappeared before the Great War; run away, the family gossip went, because Mimi was such a harridan. The second husband, Suzanna’s grandfather, had died of lung cancer in his early forties; smoked himself to death. Since then the old woman had lived in increasingly eccentric isolation, alienated from her children and grand-children alike, in a house in Liverpool; a house to which – at Mimi’s enigmatic request – Suzanna was about to pay a long-delayed visit.

As she drove North she turned over her memories of Mimi, and of that house. She recalled it being substantially larger than her parents’ place in Bristol had been; and darker. A house that had not been painted since before the Flood, a stale house; a house in mourning. And the more she remembered, the gloomier she became.

In the private story-book of her head this trip back to Mimi’s was a return to the mire of childhood; a reminder not of blissful, careless years, but of an anxious, blinkered state from which adulthood had liberated her. And Liverpool had been that state’s metropolis; a city of perpetual dusk, where the air smelt of cold smoke and a colder river. When she thought of it she was a child again, and frightened of dreams.

Of course she’d shrugged off those fears years ago. Here she was, at the wheel of her car, perfect mistress of herself, driving in the fast lane with the sun on her face. What hold could those old anxieties have over her now? Yet as she drove she found herself drawing to her keepsakes from her present life, like talismans to keep that city at bay.

She thought of the studio she’d left behind in London, and the pots she’d left to be glazed and fired when – in just a little while – she got back. She remembered Finnegan, and the flirtatious dinner she’d had with him two nights ago. She thought of her friends, robust and articulate people, any of a dozen of whom she’d trust her life and sanity to. With so much clarity to arm her, she could surely re-tread the paths of her childhood and remain untainted. She travelled a broader, brighter highway now.

Yet the memories were still potent.

Some, like her picturing of Mimi and the house, were images she’d recalled before. One in particular, however, emerged from some hidden niche in her head, unvisited since the day she’d sealed it up there.

The episode didn’t come, as many had, piece by piece. It flashed before her all at once, in astonishing particularity –

She was six. They were in Mimi’s house, she and her mother, and it was November – wasn’t it always? – drear and cold. They’d come on one of their rare visits to Gran’ma, a duty which father had always been spared.

She saw Mimi now, sitting in an armchair near to a fire that barely warmed the soot in the grate. Her face – soured and sad to the brink of tragedy – was pale with powder, the brows meticulously plucked, the eyes glittering even in the dour light through the lace curtains.

She spoke; and her soft syllables drowned out the din of the motorway.

‘Suzanna …’

Addressed from the past, she listened.

‘… I’ve something for you.’

The child’s heart had fallen from its place, and thumped around in her belly.

‘Say thank you. Suzie.’ her mother chided.

The child did as she was told.

‘It’s upstairs.’ Mimi said, ‘in my bedroom. You can go and get it for yourself, can’t you? It’s all wrapped up, at the bottom of the tall-boy.’

‘Go on. Suzie.’

She felt her mother’s hand on her arm, pushing her away towards the door.

‘Hurry up now.’

She glanced at her mother, then back at Mimi. There was no mercy to be had from either: they would have her up those stairs, and no protest would mellow them. She left the room, and went to the bottom of the stairs. They were a mountain-face before her; and the darkness at the summit a terror she tried not to contemplate. In any other house she would not have been so fearful. But this was Mimi’s house; Mimi’s darkness.

She climbed, her hand clinging to the bannister, certain that something terrible awaited her on every stair. But she reached the top without being devoured, and crossed the landing to her grandmother’s bedroom.

The drapes were barely parted: what little light fell between was the colour of old stone. A clock ticked on the mantelpiece, at a quarter the speed of her pulse. On the wall above the clock, gazing down the length of the head-high bed was an oval portrait photograph of a man in a suit that was buttoned up to the neck. And to the left of the mantelpiece, across a carpet that killed her footsteps, was the tall-boy, twice her size and more.

She went to it quickly, determined – now that she was in the room – to do the deed and be out before the ticking had its way with her and slowed her heart ’til it stopped.

Reaching up, she turned the chilly handle. The door opened a little. From inside bloomed the smell of moth-balls, shoe-leather and lavender water. Ignoring the gowns that hung in the shadows she plunged her hand amongst the boxes and tissue paper at the bottom of the tall-boy, hoping to chance upon the present.

In her haste, she pushed the door wide – and something wild-eyed lurched out of the darkness towards her. She screamed. It mocked her, screaming back in her face. Then she was running towards the door, tripping on the carpet in her flight, before hurtling downstairs. Her mother was in the hallway –

‘What is it, Suzie?

There were no words to tell. Instead she threw herself into her mother’s arms – though, as ever, there was that moment when they seemed to hesitate before choosing to hold her – and sobbed that she wanted to go home. Nor would she be placated, even after Mimi had gone upstairs and returned saying something about the mirror in the tall-boy door.

They’d left the house soon after that, and, as far as she could now recall, Suzanna had never since entered Mimi’s bedroom. As for the gift, it had not been mentioned again.

That was the bare bones of the memory, but there was much else – perfumes; sounds; nuances of light – that fleshed those bones. The incident, once exhumed, had more authority than events both more recent and ostensibly more significant. She could not now conjure – nor would ever, she suspected – the face of the boy to whom she’d given her virginity, but she could remember the smell from Mimi’s tall-boy as though it were still in her lungs.

Memory was so strange.

And stranger still, the letter, at the beck of which she was making this journey.

It was the first missive she’d received from her grandmother for over a decade. That fact alone would have been sufficient to have her foresake the studio and come. But the message itself, spindly scrawlings on an air-mail paper page, had lent her further speed. She’d left London as soon as the summons had arrived, as if she’d known and loved the woman who’d written it for half a hundred years.

Suzanna, it had begun. Not Dear nor Dearest. Simply:

Suzanna,

Forgive my scribbles. I’m sick at the moment. I feel weak some hours, and not so weak others. Who knows how I’ll feel tomorrow?

That’s why I’m writing to you now, Suzanna, because I’m afraid of what may happen.

Will you come to see me, at the house? We have very much to say to each other, I think. Things I didn’t want to say, but now I have to.

None of this will make much sense to you. I know, but I can’t be plain, not in a letter. There are good reasons.

Please come. Things are different to the way I thought they’d be. We can talk, the way we should have talked many years ago.

My love to you, Suzanna.

Mimi.

The letter was like a midsummer lake. Its surface placid, but beneath?; such darkness. Things are different to the way I thought they’d be. Mimi had written. What did she mean? That life was over too soon, and her sunlit youth had contained no clue as to how bitter mortality would be?

The letter had been delayed, through the vagaries of the postal service, by over a week. When, upon getting it, she’d rung Mimi’s house she’d received only the number disconnected tone. Leaving the pots she was making unfinished, she had packed a bag and driven North.




2


She went straight to Rue Street, but number eighteen was empty. Sixteen was also deserted, but at the next house a florid woman by the name of Violet Pumphrey was able to offer some explanation. Mimi had fallen sick a few days earlier, and was now in Sefton General Hospital, close to death. Her creditors, which included the Gas and Electricity Boards, and the Council, in addition to a dozen suppliers of food and drink, had immediately made moves to claim some recompense.

‘Like vultures, they were,’ said Mrs Pumphrey, ‘and her not even dead yet. It’s shameful. There they were, taking everything they could lay their hands on. Mind you, she was difficult. Hope you don’t mind my being plain, love? But she was. Kept herself hidden away in the house most of the time. It was a bloody fortress. That’s why they waited, see? ’til she was peggin’ out. If they’d tried to get in with her there they’d have still been tryin’.’

Had they taken the tall-boy? Suzanna idly wondered. Thanking Mrs Pumphrey for her help, she went back to have another look at number eighteen – its roof so covered in bird-shit it looked to have had its own private blizzard – then went on to the hospital.




3


The nurse wore her show of compassion indifferently well. ‘I’m afraid Mrs Laschenski’s very sick. Are you a close relative?’

‘I’m her grand-daughter. Has anybody else been to see her?’

‘Not that I know of. There really isn’t that much point. She’s had a major stroke, Miss –’

‘Parrish. Suzanna Parrish.’

‘Your grandmother’s unconscious most of the time, I’m afraid.’

‘I see.’

‘So please don’t expect too much.’

The nurse led her down a short corridor to a room that was so quiet Suzanna could have heard a petal drop, but that there were no flowers. She wasn’t unfamiliar with death rooms; her mother and father had died three years before, within six months of each other. She recognized the scent, and the hush, as soon as she stepped inside.

‘She’s not been awake today,’ said the nurse, as she stood back to let Mimi’s visitor approach the bed.

Suzanna’s first thought was that there’d been some colossal error. This couldn’t be Mimi. This poor woman was too frail; too white. The objection was on the tip of her tongue when she realized that the error was hers. Though the hair of the woman in the bed was so thin that her scalp gleamed through, and the skin of her face was draped slackly on her skull like wet muslin, this was, nevertheless, Mimi. Robbed of power; reduced by some malfunction of nerve and muscle to this unwelcome passivity; but still Mimi.

Tears rose in Suzanna, seeing her grandmother tucked up like a child, except that she was sleeping not in preparation for a new day but for endless night. She had been so fierce, this woman, and so resolute. Now all that strength had gone, and forever.

‘Shall I leave you alone awhile?’ said the nurse, and without waiting for a reply, withdrew. Suzanna put her hand to her brow to keep the tears at bay.

When she looked again, the old woman’s blue-veined lids were flickering open.

For a moment it seemed Mimi’s eyes had focused somewhere beyond Suzanna. Then the gaze sharpened, and the look that found Suzanna was as compelling as she had remembered it.

Mimi opened her mouth. Her lips were fever-dried. She passed her tongue across them to little effect. Utterly unnerved, Suzanna approached the bedside.

‘Hello,’ she said softly. ‘It’s me. It’s Suzanna.’

The old woman’s eyes locked with Suzanna’s. I know who you are, the stare said.

‘Would you like some water?’

A tiny frown nicked Mimi’s brow.

‘Water?’ Suzanna repeated, and again, the tiniest of frowns by way of reply. They understood each other.

Suzanna poured an inch of water from the plastic jug on the bedside table into a plastic glass, and took the glass to Mimi’s lips. As she did so the old woman lifted her hand a fraction from the crisp sheet and brushed Suzanna’s arm. The touch was feather-light, but it sent such a jolt through Suzanna that she almost dropped the glass.

Mimi’s breath had suddenly become uneven, and there were tics and twitches around her eyes and mouth as she struggled to shape a word. Her eyes blazed with frustration, but the most she could produce was a grunt in her throat.

‘It’s all right,’ said Suzanna.

The look on the parchment face refused such platitudes. No. the eyes said, it isn’t all right, it’s very far from all right. Death is waiting at the door, and I can’t even speak the feelings I have.

‘What is it?’ Suzanna whispered, bending closer to the pillow. The old woman’s fingers still trembled against her arm. Her skin tingled at the contact, her stomach churned. ‘How can I help you?’ she said. It was the vaguest of questions, but she was shooting in the dark.

Mimi’s eyes flickered closed for an instant, and the frown deepened. She had given up trying to make words, apparently. Perhaps she had given up entirely.

And then, with a suddenness that made Suzanna cry out, the fingers that rested on her arm slid around her wrist. The grip lightened ’til it hurt. She might have pulled herself free, but she had no time. A subtle marriage of scents was filling her head; dust and tissue-paper and lavender. The tall-boy of course; it was the perfume from the tall-boy. And with that recognition, another certainty: that Mimi was somehow reaching into Suzanna’s head and putting the perfume there.

There was an instant of panic – the animal in her responding to this defeat of her mind’s autonomy. Then the panic broke before a vision.

Of what, she wasn’t certain. A pattern of some kind, a design which melted and reconfigured itself over and over again. Perhaps there was colour in the design, but it was so subtle she could not be certain; subtle too, the shapes evolving in the kaleidoscope.

This, like the perfume, was Mimi’s doing. Though reason protested. Suzanna couldn’t doubt the truth of that. This image was somehow of vital significance to the old lady. That was why she was using the last drops of her will’s resources to have Suzanna share the sight in her mind’s eye.

But she had no chance to investigate the vision.

Behind her, the nurse said:

‘Oh my god.’

The voice broke Mimi’s spell, and the patterns burst into a storm of petals, disappearing. Suzanna was left staring down at Mimi’s face, their gazes momentarily locking before the old woman lost all control of her wracked body. The hand dropped from Suzanna’s wrist, the eyes began to rove back and forth grotesquely; dark spittle ran from the side of her mouth.

‘You’d better wait outside.’ the nurse said, crossing to press the call button beside the bed.

Suzanna backed off towards the door, distressed by the choking sounds her grandmother was making. A second nurse had appeared.

‘Call Doctor Chai,’ the first said. Then, to Suzanna, ‘Please. will you wait outside?’

She did as she was told: there was nothing she could do inside but hamper the experts. The corridor was busy; she had to walk twenty yards from the door of Mimi’s room before she found somewhere she could take hold of herself.

Her thoughts were like blind runners; they rushed back and forth wildly, but went nowhere. Time and again, she found memory taking her to Mimi’s bedroom in Rue Street, the tall-boy looming before her like some reproachful ghost. What had Gran’ma wanted to tell her, with the scent of lavender?; and how had she managed the extraordinary feat of passing thoughts between them? Was it something she’d always been capable of? If so, what other powers did she own?

‘Are you Suzanna Parrish?’

Here at least was a question she could answer.

‘Yes.’

‘I’m Doctor Chai.’

The face before her was round as a biscuit, and as bland.

‘Your grandmother, Mrs Laschenski …’

‘Yes?’

‘… there’s been a serious deterioration in her condition. Are you her only relative?’

‘The only one in this country. My mother and father are dead. She has a son. In Canada.’

‘Do you have any way of contacting him?’

‘I don’t have his telephone number with me … but I could get it.’

‘I think he should be informed,’ said Chai.

‘Yes, of course,’ said Suzanna. ‘What should I…? I mean, can you tell me how long she’s going to live?’

The Doctor sighed. ‘Anybody’s guess,’ he said. ‘When she came in I didn’t think she’d last the night. But she did. And the next. And the next. She’s just kept holding on. Her tenacity’s really remarkable.’ He halted, looking straight at Suzanna. ‘My belief is, she was waiting for you.’

‘For me?’

‘I think so. Your name’s the only coherent word she’s spoken since she’s been here. I don’t think she was going to let go until you’d come.’

‘I see,’ said Suzanna.

‘You must be very important to her,’ he replied. ‘It’s good you’ve seen her. So many of the old folks, you know, die in here and nobody ever seems to care. Where are you staying?’

‘I hadn’t thought. A hotel. I suppose.’

‘Perhaps you’d give us a number to contact you at, should the necessity arise.’

‘Of course.’

So saying, he nodded and left her to the runners. They were no less blind for the conversation.

Mimi Laschenski did not love her, as the Doctor had claimed; how could she? She knew nothing of the way her grandchild had grown up; they were like closed books to each other. And yet something in what Chai had said rang true. Perhaps she had been waiting, fighting the good fight until her daughter’s daughter came to her bedside.

And why? To hold her hand and expend her last ounce of energy giving Suzanna a fragment of some tapestry? It was a pretty gift, but it signified either too much or too little. Whichever, Suzanna did not comprehend it.

She went back to Room Five. The nurse was in attendance, the old lady still as stone on her pillow. Eyes closed, hands laid by her side. Suzanna stared down at the face, slack once more. It could tell her nothing.

She took hold of Mimi’s hand and held it for a few moments, tight, then went on her way. She would go back to Rue Street, she decided, and see if being in the house jogged a memory or two.

She’d spent so much time forgetting her childhood, putting it where it couldn’t call the bluff of hard-won maturity. And now, with the boxes sealed, what did she find? A mystery that defied her adult self, and coaxed her back into the past in search of a solution.

She remembered the face in the tall-boy mirror, that had sent her sobbing down the stairs.

Was it waiting still? And was it still her own?





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MAD MOONEY (#litres_trial_promo)

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al was frightened as he had never been frightened in his life before. He sat in his room, the door locked, and shook.

The shaking had begun a few minutes after events at Rue Street, almost twenty-four hours ago now, and it hadn’t shown much sign of stopping since. Sometimes it made his hands tremble so much he could hardly hold the glass of whisky he’d nursed through an all but sleepless night, other times it made his teeth chatter. But most of the shaking didn’t go on outside, it was in. It was as if the pigeons had got into his belly somehow, and were flapping their wings against his innards.

And all because he’d seen something wonderful, and he knew in his bones that his life would never be the same again. How could it? He’d climbed the sky and looked down on the secret place that he’d been waiting since childhood to find.

He’d always been a solitary child, as much through choice as circumstance, happiest when he could unshackle his imagination and let it wander. It took little to get such journeys started. Looking back, it seemed he’d spent half his school days gazing out of the window, transported by a line of poetry whose meaning he couldn’t quite unearth, or the sound of someone singing in a distant classroom, into a world more pungent and more remote than the one he knew. A world whose scents were carried to his nostrils by winds mysteriously warm in a chill December; whose creatures paid him homage on certain nights at the foot of his bed, and whose peoples he conspired with in sleep.

But despite the familiarity of this place, the comfort he felt there, its precise nature and location remained elusive, and though he’d read every book he could find that promised some rare territory, he always came away disappointed. They were too perfect, those childhood kingdoms; all honey and summer.

The true Wonderland was not like that, he knew. It was as much shadow as sunlight, and its mysteries could only be unveiled when your wits were about used up and your mind close to cracking.

That was why he trembled now, for that was how he felt. Like a man whose head was about to split.




2


He’d woken early, gone downstairs and cooked himself a fried egg and bacon sandwich, then sat with the ruins of his gluttony until he heard his father stirring above. He quickly called the firm, and told Wilcox that he was sick, and wouldn’t be in work today. He told the same to Brendan – who was about his morning ablutions and, with the door locked, couldn’t see the ashen, anxious face his son was wearing this morning. Then, these duties done, he went back to his room and sat on his bed to examine the events at Rue Street afresh, hoping that the nature of yesterday’s mysteries could eventually be made to come clear.

It did little good. Whichever way he turned events they seemed impervious to rational explanation, and he was left only with the same razor-sharp memory of the experience and the ache of longing that came with it.

Everything he’d ever wanted had been in that land; he knew it. Everything his education had taught him to disbelieve – all miracles, all mystery, all blue shadow and sweet-breathed spirits. All the pigeon knew, all the wind knew, all the human world had once grasped and now forgotten, all of it was wailing in that place. He’d seen it with his own eyes.

Which probably made him insane.

How else could he explain an hallucination of such precision and complexity? No, he was insane. And why not? He had lunacy in his blood. His father’s father, Mad Mooney, ended his life crazy as a coot. The man had been a poet, according to Brendan, though tales of his life and times had been forbidden in Chariot Street. Hush your nonsense, Eileen had always said, whenever Brendan mentioned the man, though whether this taboo was against Poetry, Delirium or the Irish Cal had never decided. Whichever, it was an edict his father had often broken when his wife’s back was turned, for Brendan was fond of Mad Mooney and his verses. Cal had even learned a few, at his father’s knee. And now here he was, carrying on that family tradition: seeing visions and crying into his whisky.

The question was: to tell or not to tell. To speak what he’d seen, and endure the laughter and the sly looks, or to keep it hidden. Part of him badly wanted to talk, to spill everything to somebody (Brendan, even) and see what they made of it. But another part said: be quiet, be careful. Wonderland doesn’t come to those who blab about it, only to those who keep their silence, and wail.

So that’s what he did. He sat, and shook, and waited.




3


Wonderland didn’t turn up, but Geraldine did, and she was in no mood for lunatics. Cal heard her voice in the hall below; heard Brendan telling her that Cal was ill, and didn’t want to be disturbed, heard her tell Brendan that she intended to see Cal whether he was sick or not; then she was at the door.

‘Cal?’

She tried the handle, found the door locked and rapped on it. ‘Cal? It’s me. Wake up.’

He feigned bleariness, aided by a tongue now well whisky-sodden.

‘Who is it?’ he said.

‘Why’s the door locked? It’s me. Geraldine.’

‘I’m not feeling too good.’

‘Let me in, Cal.’

He knew better than to argue with her in such a mood. He shambled to the door, and turned the key.

‘You look terrible,’ she said, her voice mellowing as soon as she set eyes on him. ‘What’s wrong with you?’

‘I’m all right,’ he protested. ‘Really. I just had a fall.’

‘Why didn’t you ring me? I was expecting you at the wedding rehearsal last night. Had you forgotten?’

The following Saturday Geraldine’s elder sister Teresa was to marry the love of her life, a good Catholic boy whose fertility could scarcely be in question: his beloved was four months pregnant. Her swelling belly was not being allowed to overshadow proceedings however: the wedding was to be a grand affair. Cal, who’d been courting Geraldine for two years, was a valued guest, given the general expectation that he’d be the next to exchange vows with one of Norman Kellaway’s four daughters. Doubtless his missing the rehearsal had been viewed as minor heresy.

‘I did remind you, Cal,’ Geraldine said. ‘You know how important it is to me.’

‘I had a bit of trouble,’ he told her. ‘I fell off a wall.’

She looked incredulous.

‘What were you doing climbing on a wall?’ she said, as though at his age he should be well beyond such indignities.

He told her briefly about the escape of 33, and the chase to Rue Street. It was a bowdlerized account, of course. In it there was no mention of the carpet or what he’d seen there.

‘Did you find the bird?’ she asked, when he’d finished recounting the chase.

‘In a manner of speaking,’ he told her. In fact, he’d come home to Chariot Street, only to be told by Brendan that 33 had flown back to the loft in the late afternoon, and was now back beside his speckled wife. This he told Geraldine.

‘So you missed the rehearsal looking for a pigeon that came home anyway?’ she said.

He nodded. ‘But you know how Dad loves his birds,’ he said.

Mention of Brendan softened Geraldine further still; she and Cal’s father had been fast friends since Cal had first introduced them. ‘She sparkles,’ his father had told Cal, ‘hold on to her, ’cause if you don’t, somebody else will.’ Eileen had never been so certain. She’d always been cool with Geraldine, a fact which had only made Brendan’s praise more lavish.

The smile she offered now was gently indulgent. Though Cal had been loath to let her in and have her spoil his reverie, he was suddenly grateful for her company. He even felt the shaking fade a little.

‘It’s stale in here,’ she said. ‘You need some fresh air. Why don’t you open the window?’

He did as she suggested. When he turned round she was sitting cross-legged on the bed, her back to the collage of pictures he’d put up there in his youth, and which his parents had never removed. The Wailing Wall, Geraldine called it; it had always upset her, with its parade of movie stars and mushroom clouds, politicians and pigs.

‘The dress is beautiful,’ she said.

He puzzled over the remark a moment, his mind sluggish.

‘Teresa’s dress,’ she prompted.

‘Oh.’

‘Come and sit down, Cal.’

He lingered by the window. The air was balmy, and clean. It reminded him –

‘What’s wrong?’ she said.

The words were on the tip of his tongue. ‘I saw Wonderland.’ he wanted to say. That was it, in sum. The rest – the circumstances, the description – those details were niceties. The three essential words were easy enough, weren’t they? I saw Wonderland. And if there was anybody in his life to whom he should say them, it was this woman.

‘Tell me, Cal,’ she said. ‘Are you ill?’

He shook his head.

‘I saw …’ he began.

She looked at him with plain puzzlement.

‘What?’ she said. ‘What did you see?’

‘I saw …’ he began again, and again faltered. His tongue refused the instruction he gave it; the words simply wouldn’t come. He looked away from her face at the Wailing Wall. ‘The pictures …’ he said finally, ‘… they’re an eyesore.’

A strange euphoria swept over him as he sailed so close to telling, then away. The part of him that wanted what he’d seen kept secret had in that moment won the battle, and perhaps even the war. He could not tell her. Not now, not ever. It was a great relief to have made up his mind.

I’m Mad Mooney, he thought to himself. It wasn’t such a bad idea at that.

‘You’re looking better already,’ she said. ‘It must be the fresh air.’




4


And what lessons could he learn from the mad poet, now that they were fellow spirits? What would Mad Mooney do, were he in Cal’s shoes?

He’d play whatever game was necessary, came the answer, and then, when the world turned its back, he’d search, search until he found the place he’d seen, and not care that in doing so he was inviting delirium. He’d find his dream and hold on to it and never let it go.

They talked a little while longer, until Geraldine announced that she had to leave. There was wedding business to do that afternoon.

‘No more pigeon-chasing,’ she said to Cal. ‘I want you there on Saturday.’

She put her arms around him.

‘You’re too thin,’ she said. ‘I’m going to have to feed you up.’

She expects to be kissed now, the mad poet whispered in his ear; oblige the lady. We don’t want her to think you’ve lost interest in copulation, just because you’ve been half way to Heaven and back. Kiss her, and say something fetching.

The kiss Cal could deliver, though he was afraid the fact that his passion was prompted would show. He needn’t have feared. She returned his fake fervour with the genuine article, her body warm and tight against his.

That’s it, said the poet, now find something seductive to say, and send her off happy.

Here Cal’s confidence faltered. He had no skill with sweet-talk, nor ever had. ‘See you Saturday,’ was all he could muster. She seemed content with that. She kissed him again, and took her leave.

He watched her from the window, counting her steps until she turned the corner. Then, with his lover out of sight, he went in search of his heart’s desire.




Part Two: (#ulink_9a7215cd-275d-53db-9a20-44c3be1d80b7)

Births, Deaths and Marriages (#ulink_9a7215cd-275d-53db-9a20-44c3be1d80b7)


‘The iron tongue of midnight hath told twelve; Lovers to bed; ‘tis almost fairy time.’

Shakespeare:

A Midsummer Night’s Dream





I (#litres_trial_promo)






THE SUIT OF LIGHTS (#litres_trial_promo)

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he day Cal stepped out into was humid and stale. It could not be long before the summer let fall take its toll. Even the breeze seemed weary, and its condition was contagious. By the time Cal reached the vicinity of Rue Street his feet felt swollen in his shoes and his brain in his skull.

And then, to add insult to injury, he couldn’t find the damn street. He’d made his way to the house the previous day with his eyes on the birds rather than on the route he was following, so he had only an impressionistic notion of its whereabouts. Knowing he could well wander for several hours and not find the street, he asked the way from a gaggle of six-year-olds, engaged in war games on a street corner. He was confidently re-directed. Either through ignorance or malice, however, the directions proved hopelessly incorrect, and he found himself wandering around in ever more desperate circles, his frustration mounting.

Any sixth sense he might have hoped for – some instinct that would lead him unerringly to the region of his dreams – was conspicuous by its absence.

It was luck then, pure luck, that brought him finally to the corner of Rue Street, and to the house that had once belonged to Mimi Laschenksi.




2


Suzanna had spent much of the morning attempting to do as she had promised Doctor Chai: notifying Uncle Charlie in Toronto. It was a frustrating business. For one thing, the small hotel she’d found the previous night only boasted a single public telephone, and other guests wanted access to it as well as she. For another, she had to call round several friends of the family until she located one who had Charlie’s telephone number, all of which took the best part of the morning. When, around one, she finally made contact, Mimi’s only son took the news without a trace of surprise. There was no offer to drop his work and rush to his mother’s bedside; only a polite request that Suzanna call back when there was ‘more news’. Meaning, presumably, that he didn’t expect her to ring again until it was time for him to send a wreath. So much for filial devotion.

The call done, she rang the hospital. There was no change in the patient’s condition. She’s hanging on, was the duty nurse’s phrase. It conjured an odd image of Mimi as mountaineer, clinging to a cliff-face. She took the opportunity to ask about her grandmother’s personal effects, and was told that she’d come into hospital without so much as a nightgown. Most probably the vultures Mrs Pumphrey had spoken of would by now have taken anything of worth from the house – the tall-boy included – but she elected to call by anyway, in case she could salvage anything to make Mimi’s dwindling hours a little more comfortable.

She found a small Italian restaurant in the vicinity of the hotel to lunch in, then drove to Rue Street.




3


The back yard gate had been pushed closed by the removal men, but left unbolted. Cal opened it, and stepped into the yard.

If he had expected some revelation, he was disappointed. There was nothing remarkable here. Just parched chickweed sprouting between the paving stones, and a litter of chattels the trio had discarded as worthless. Even the shadows, which might have hidden some glory, were wan and unsecretive.

Standing in the middle of the yard – where all of the mysteries that had overturned his sanity had been unveiled – he doubted for the first time, truly doubted, that anything had in fact happened the previous day.

Maybe there would be something inside the house, he told himself; some flotsam he could cling to that would bear him up in this flood of doubt.

He crossed the ground where the carpet had lain, to the back door. The removal men had left it unlocked; or else vandals had broken in. Either way, it stood ajar. He stepped inside.

At least the shadows were heavier within; there was some room for the fabulous. He waited for his eyes to accommodate the murk. Was it really only twenty-four hours since he’d been here, he thought, as his sharpening gaze scanned the grim interior; only yesterday that he’d entered this house with no more on his mind than catching a lost bird? This time he had so much more to find.

He wandered through to the hallway, looking everywhere (or some echo of what he’d experienced the day before). With every step he took his hopes fell further. Shadows there were, but they were deserted. The place was shorn of miracles. They’d gone when the carpet was removed.

Half way up the stairs he halted. What was the use of going any further? It was apparent he’d missed his chance. If he was to rediscover the vision he’d glimpsed and lost he’d have to search elsewhere. It was mere doggedness, therefore – one of Eileen’s attributes – that made him continue to climb.

At the top of the stairs the air was so leaden it made drawing breath a chore. That, and the fact that he felt like a trespasser today – unwelcome in this tomb – made him anxious to confirm his belief that the place had no magic to show him, then get gone.

As he went to the door of the front bedroom something moved behind him. He turned. The labourers had piled several articles of furniture at the top of the stairs, then apparently decided they weren’t worth the sweat of moving any further. A chest of drawers, several chairs and tables. The sound had come from behind this furniture. And now it came again.

Hearing it, he imagined rats. The sound suggested several sets of scurrying paws. Live and let live, he thought: he had no more right to be here than they did. Less, perhaps. They’d probably occupied the house for rat generations.

He returned to the job at hand, pushed open the door, and stepped into the front room. The windows were grimy, and the stained lace curtains further clogged the light. There was a chair overturned on the bare boards, and three odd shoes had been placed on the mantelpiece by some wit. Otherwise empty.

He stood for a few moments and then, hearing laughter in the street and needing its reassurance, crossed to the window and drew the curtain aside. But before he found the laughter’s source he forsook the search. His belly knew before his senses could confirm it that somebody had entered the room behind him. He let the curtain drop and looked around. A wide man in late middle-age, dressed too well for this dereliction, had joined him in the half-light. The threads of his grey jacket were almost iridescent. But more eye-catching still, his smile. A practised smile, belonging on an actor, or a preacher. Whichever, it was the expression of a man looking for converts.

‘Can I be of help?’ he said. His voice was resonant, and warm, but his sudden appearance had chilled Cal.

‘Help me?’ he said, floundering.

‘Are you perhaps interested in purchasing property?’ the other man said.

‘Purchasing? No … I … was just … you know … looking around.’

‘It’s a fine house,’ said the stranger, his smile as steady as a surgeon’s handshake, and as antiseptic. ‘Do you know much about houses?’ The line was spoken like its predecessors, without irony or malice. When Cal didn’t reply, the man said: ‘I’m a salesman. My name’s Shadwell.’ He teased the calf-skin glove from his thick-fingered hand. ‘And yours?’

‘Cal Mooney. Calhoun, that is.’

The bare hand was extended. Cal took two steps towards the man – he was fully four inches taller than Cal’s five foot eleven – and shook hands. The man’s cool palm made Cal aware that he was sweating like a pig.

The handshake broken, friend Shadwell unbuttoned his jacket, and opened it, to take a pen from his inside pocket. This casual action briefly revealed the lining of the Salesman’s garment, and by some trick of the light it seemed to shine, as though the fabric were woven of mirrored threads.

Shadwell caught the look on Cal’s face. His voice was feather-light as he said:

‘Do you see anything you like?’

Cal didn’t trust the man. Was it the smile or the calf-skin gloves that made him suspicious? Whichever, he wanted as little time in the man’s company as possible.

But there was something in the jacket. Something that caught the light, and made Cal’s heart beat a little faster.

‘Please …’ Shadwell coaxed. ‘Have a look.’

His hand went to the jacket again, and opened it.

‘Tell me …’ he purred, ‘… if there’s anything there that takes your fancy.’

This time, he fully opened the jacket, exposing the lining. And yes. Cal’s first judgment had been correct. It did shine.

‘I am, as I said, a salesman,’ Shadwell was explaining. ‘I make it a Golden Rule always to carry some samples of my merchandise around with me.’

Merchandise. Cal shaped the word in his head, his eyes still fixed on the interior of the jacket. What a word that was: merchandise. And there, in the lining of the jacket, he could almost see that word made solid. Jewellery, was it, that gleamed there? Artificial gems with a sheen that blinded the way only the fake could. He squinted into the glamour, looking to make sense out of what he saw, while the Salesman’s voice went about its persuasions:

‘Tell me what you’d like and it’s yours. I can’t say fairer than that, can I? A fine young man like you should be able to pick and choose. The world’s your oyster. I can see that. Open in front of you. Have what you like. Free, gratis and without charge. You tell me what you see in there, and the next minute it’s in your hands …’

Look away, something in Cal said; nothing comes free. Prices must be paid.

But his gaze was so infatuated with the mysteries in the folds of the jacket that he couldn’t have averted his eyes now if his life depended upon it.

‘… tell me …’ the Salesman said, ‘… what you see …’

Ah, there was a question –

‘… and it’s yours.’

He saw forgotten treasures, things he’d once upon a time set his heart upon, thinking that if he owned them he’d never want for anything again. Worthless trinkets, most of them; but items that awoke old longings. A pair of X-ray spectacles he’d seen advertised at the back of a comic book (see thru walls! impress your friends!) but had never been able to buy. There they were now, their plastic lens gleaming, and seeing them he remembered the October nights he’d lain awake wondering how they worked.

And what was that beside them? Another childhood fetish. A photograph of a woman dressed only in stiletto heels and a sequinned G-string, presenting her over-sized breasts to the viewer. The boy two doors down from Cal had owned that picture, stolen it from his uncle’s wallet, he’d claimed, and Cal had wanted it so badly he thought he’d die of longing. Now it hung, a dog-eared memento, in the glittering flux of Shadwell’s jacket, there for the asking.

But no sooner had it made itself apparent than it too faded, and new prizes appeared in its place to tempt him.

‘What is it you see, my friend?’

The keys to a car he’d longed to own. A prize pigeon, the winner of innumerable races, that he’d been so envious of he’d have happily abducted –

‘… just tell me what you see. Ask, and it’s yours …’

There was so much. Items that had seemed – for an hour, a day – the pivot upon which his world turned, all hung now in the miraculous store-room of the Salesman’s coat.

But they were fugitive, all of them. They appeared only to evaporate again. There was something else there, which prevented these trivialities from holding his attention for more than moments. What it was, he couldn’t yet see.

He was dimly aware that Shadwell was addressing him again, and that the tone of the Salesman’s voice had altered. There was some puzzlement in it now, tinged with exasperation.

‘Speak up, my friend … why don’t you tell me what you want?’

‘I can’t … quite … see it.’

‘Then try harder. Concentrate.’

Cal tried. The images came and went, all insignificant stuff. The mother-lode still evaded him.

‘You’re not trying,’ the Salesman chided. ‘If a man wants something badly he has to zero in on it. Has to make sure it’s clear in his head.’

Cal saw the wisdom of this, and re-doubled his efforts. It had become a challenge to see past the tinsel to the real treasure that lay beyond. A curious sensation attended this focusing; a restlessness in his chest and throat, as though some part of him were preparing to be gone; out of him and along the line of his gaze. Gone into the jacket.

At the back of his head, where his skull grew the tail of his spine, the warning voices muttered on. But he was too committed to resist. Whatever the lining contained, it teased him, not quite showing itself. He stared and stared, defying its decorum until the sweat ran from his temples.

Shadwell’s coaxing monologue had gained fresh confidence. It’s sugar coating had cracked and fallen away. The nut beneath was bitter and dark.

‘Go on …’ he said. ‘Don’t be so damn weak. There’s something here you want, isn’t there? Very badly. Go on. Tell me. Spit it out. No use waiting. You wait, and your chance slips away.’

Finally, the image was coming clear –

‘Tell me and it’s yours.’

Cal felt a wind on his face, and suddenly he was flying again, and wonderland was spread out before him. Its deeps and its heights, its rivers, its towers – all were displayed there in the lining of the Salesman’s jacket.

He gasped at the sight. Shadwell was lightning swift in his response.

‘What is it?’

Cal stared on, speechless.

‘What do you see?’

A confusion of feelings assailed Cal. He felt elated, seeing the land, yet fearful of what he would be asked to give (was already giving, perhaps, without quite knowing it) in return for this peep-show. Shadwell had harm in him, for all his smiles and promises.

‘Tell me …’ the Salesman demanded.

Cal tried to keep an answer from coming to his lips. He didn’t want to give his secret away.

‘… what do you see?’

The voice was so hard to resist. He wanted to keep his silence, but the reply rose in him unbidden.

‘I …’ (Don’t say it. the poet warned), ‘I see …’ (Fight it. There’s harm here.) ‘I … see …’

‘He sees the Fugue.’

The voice that finished the sentence was that of a woman.

‘Are you sure?’ said Shadwell.

‘Never more certain. Look at his eyes.’

Cal felt foolish and vulnerable, so mesmerized by the sights still unfolding in the lining he was unable to cast his eyes in the direction of those who now appraised him.

‘He knows,’ the woman said. Her voice held not a trace of warmth. Even, perhaps, of humanity.

‘You were right then,’ said Shadwell. ‘It’s been here.’

‘Of course.’

‘Good enough,’ said Shadwell, and summarily closed the jacket.

The effect on Cal was cataclysmic. With the world – the Fugue, she’d called it – so abruptly snatched away he felt weak as a babe. It was all he could do to stand upright. Queasily, his eyes slid in the direction of the woman.

She was beautiful: that was his first thought. She was dressed in reds and purples so dark they were almost black, the fabric wrapped tightly around her upper body so as to seem both chaste, her ripeness bound and sealed, and, in the act of sealing, eroticized. The same paradox informed her features. Her hair-line had been shaved back fully two inches, and her eye-brows totally removed, which left her face eerily innocent of expression. Yet her flesh gleamed as if oiled, and though the shaving, and the absence of any scrap of make-up to flatter her features, seemed acts in defiance of her beauty, her face could not be denied its sensuality. Her mouth was too sculpted: and her eyes – umber one moment, gold the next – too eloquent for the feelings there to be disguised. What feelings, Cal could only vaguely read. Impatience certainly, as though being here sickened her, and stirred some fury Cal had no desire to see unleashed. Contempt – for him most likely – and yet a great focus upon him, as though she saw through to his marrow, and was preparing to congeal it with a thought.

There were no such contradictions in her voice however. It was steel and steel.

‘How long?’ she demanded of him. ‘How long since you saw the Fugue?’

He couldn’t meet her eyes for more than a moment. His gaze fled to the mantelpiece, and the tripod’s shoes.

‘Don’t know what you’re talking about,’ he said.

‘You’ve seen it. You saw it again in the jacket. It’s fruitless to deny it.’

‘It’s better you answer,’ Shadwell advised.

Cal looked from mantelpiece to door. They had left it open. ‘You can both go to Hell,’ he said quietly.

Did Shadwell laugh? Cal wasn’t certain.

‘We want the carpet,’ said the woman.

‘It belongs to us, you understand,’ Shadwell said. ‘We have a legitimate claim to it.’

‘So, if you’d be so kind …’ the woman’s lip curled at this courtesy. ‘… tell me where the carpet’s gone, and we can have the matter done with.’

‘Such easy terms.’ the Salesman said. ‘Tell us, and we’re gone.’

Claiming ignorance would be no defence, Cal thought; they knew that he knew, and they wouldn’t be persuaded otherwise. He was trapped. Yet dangerous as things had become, he felt inwardly elated. His tormentors had confirmed the existence of the world he’d glimpsed: the Fugue. The urge to be out of their presence as fast as possible was tempered by the desire to play them along, and hope they’d tell him more about the vision he’d witnessed.

‘Maybe I did see it,’ he said.

‘No maybe,’ the woman replied.

‘It’s hazy …’ he said. ‘I remember something, but I’m not quite sure what.’

‘You don’t know what the Fugue is?’ said Shadwell.

‘Why should he?’ the woman replied. ‘He came on it by luck.’

‘But he saw,’ said Shadwell.

‘A lot of Cuckoos have some sight, it doesn’t mean they understand. He’s lost, like all of them.’

Cal resented her condescension, but in essence she was right. Lost he was.

‘What you saw isn’t your business,’ she said to him. ‘Just tell us where you put the carpet, then forget you ever laid eyes on it.’

‘I don’t have the carpet,’ he said.

The woman’s entire face seemed to darken, the pupils of her eyes like moons barely eclipsing some apocalyptic light.

From the landing, Cal heard again the scuttling sounds he’d previously taken to be rats. Now he wasn’t so sure.

‘I won’t be polite with you much longer,’ she said. ‘You’re a thief.’

‘No –’ he protested.

‘Yes. You came here to raid an old woman’s house and you got a glimpse of something you shouldn’t.’

‘We shouldn’t waste time,’ said Shadwell.

Cal had begun to regret his decision to play the pair along. He should have run while he had half a chance. The noise from the other side of the door was getting louder.

‘Hear that?’ said the woman. ‘Those are some of my sister’s bastards. Her by-blows.’

‘They’re vile,’ said Shadwell.

He could believe it.

‘Once more,’ she said. The carpet.’

And once more he told her. ‘I don’t have it.’ This time his words were more appeal than defence.

‘Then we must make you tell,’ said the woman.

‘Be careful, Immacolata,’ said Shadwell.

If the woman heard him, she didn’t care for his warning. Softly, she rubbed the middle and fourth fingers of her right hand against the palm of her left, and at this all but silent summons her sister’s children came running.





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THE SKIN OF THE TEETH (#litres_trial_promo)

1





uzanna arrived in Rue Street a little before three, and went first to tell Mrs Pumphrey of her grandmother’s condition. She was invited into the house with such insistence she couldn’t refuse. They drank tea, and talked for ten minutes or so: chiefly of Mimi. Violet Pumphrey spoke of the old woman without malice, but the portrait she drew was far from flattering.

‘They turned off the gas and electricity in the house years ago,’ Violet said. ‘She hadn’t paid the bills. Living in squalor, she was, and it weren’t for want of me keeping a neighbourly eye. But she was rude, you know, if you enquired about her health.’ She lowered her voice a little. I know I shouldn’t say it but … your grandmother wasn’t entirely of sound mind.’

Suzanna murmured something in reply, which she knew would go unheard.

‘All she had was candles for light. No television, no refrigerator. God alone knows what she was eating.’

‘Do you know if anyone has a key to the house?’

‘Oh no, she wouldn’t have done that. She had more locks on that house than you’ve had hot dinners. She didn’t trust anybody, you see. Not anybody.’

‘I just wanted to look around.’

‘Well there’s been people in and out since she went; probably find the place wide open by now. Even thought of having a look myself, but I didn’t fancy it. Some houses … they’re not quite natural. You know what I mean?’

She knew. Standing finally on the doorstep of number eighteen Suzanna confessed to herself that she’d welcomed the various duties that had postponed this visit. The episode at the hospital had validated much of the family suspicion regarding Mimi. She was different. She could give her dreams away with a touch. And whatever powers the old woman possessed, or was possessed by, would they not also haunt the house she’d spent so many years in?

Suzanna felt the grip of the past tighten around her: except that it was no longer that simple. She wasn’t here hesitating on the threshold just because she feared a confrontation with childhood ghosts. It was that here – on a stage she’d thought to have made a permanent exit from – she dimly sensed dramas waiting to be played, and that Mimi had somehow cast her in a pivotal role.

She put her hand on the door. Despite what Violet had said, it was locked. She peered through the front window, into a room of debris and dust. The desolation proved oddly comforting. Maybe her anxieties would yet prove groundless. She went around the back of the house. Here she had more luck. The yard gate was open, and so was the back door.

She stepped inside. The condition of the front room was reprised here: practically all trace of Mimi Laschenski’s presence – with the exception of candles and valueless junk – had been removed. She felt an unhappy mixture of responses. On the one hand, the certainty that nothing of value would have survived this clearance, and that she’d have to go back to Mimi empty-handed; and on the other, an undeniable relief that this was so: that the stage was deserted. Though her imagination hung the missing pictures on the walls, and put the furniture back in place, it was all in her mind. There was nothing here to spoil the calm good order of the life she lived.

She moved through from the parlour into the hallway, glancing into the small sitting room before turning the corner to the stairs. They were not so mountainous; nor so dark. But before she could climb them she heard a movement on the floor above.

‘Who’s there?’ she called out –




2


– the words were sufficient to break Immacolata’s concentration. The creatures she’d summoned, the by-blows, halted their advance towards Cal, awaiting instruction.

He took his opportunity, and threw himself across the room, kicking at the beast closest to him.

The thing lacked a body, its four arms springing straight from a bulbous neck, beneath which clusters of sacs hung, wet as liver and lights. Cal’s blow connected, and one of the sacs burst, releasing a sewer stench. With the rest of the siblings close upon him. Cal raced for the door, but the wounded creature was fastest in pursuit, sidling crab-like on its hands, and spitting as it came. A spray of saliva hit the wall close to Cal’s head, and the paper blistered. Revulsion gave heat to his heels. He was at the door in an instant.

Shadwell moved to intercept him, but one of the beasts got beneath his feet like an errant dog, and before he could regain his equilibrium Cal was out of the room and on to the landing.

The woman who’d called out was at the bottom of the stairs, face upturned. She stood as bright day to the night he’d almost succumbed to in the room behind him. Wide grey-blue eyes, curls of dark auburn hair framing her pale face, a mouth upon which a question was rising, but which his wild appearance had silenced.

‘Get out of here!’ he yelled as he hurtled down the stairs.

She stood and gaped.

‘The door!’ he said. ‘For God’s sake open the door.’

He didn’t look to see if the monsters were coming in pursuit, but he heard Shadwell cry out:

‘Stop, thief!’

from the top of the stairs.

The woman’s eyes went to the Salesman, then back to Cal, then to the front door.

‘Open it!’ Cal yelled, and this time she moved to do so. Either she distrusted Shadwell on sight or she had a passion for thieves. Whichever, she flung the door wide. Sunlight poured in, dust dancing in its beams. Cal heard a howl of protest from behind him, but the girl did nothing to arrest his flight.

‘Get out of here!’ he said to her, and then he was over the threshold and into the street outside.

He took half a dozen steps from the door and then turned around to see if the woman with the grey eyes was following, but she was still standing in the hallway.

‘Will you come on?’ he yelled at her.

She opened her mouth to say something to him, but Shadwell was at the bottom of the stairs by now, and pushing her out of the way. He couldn’t linger; there were only a few paces between him and the Salesman. He ran.

The man with the greased-back hair made no real attempt at pursuit once his quarry was out in the open. The young man was whippet-lean, and twice as fleet; the other was a bear in a Savile Row suit. Suzanna had disliked him from the moment she’d set eyes on him. Now he turned and said:

‘Why’d you do that, woman?’

She didn’t grace the demand with a reply. For one thing, she was still trying to make sense of what she’d just seen; for another, her attention was no longer on the bear but on his partner – or keeper – the woman who had now followed him down the stairs.

Her features were as blank as a dead child’s, but Suzanna had never seen a face that exercised such fascination.

‘Get out of my way,’ the woman said as she reached the bottom of the stairs. Suzanna’s feet had already begun to move when she cancelled her acquiescence and instead stepped directly into the woman’s path, blocking her route to the door. A flood of adrenalin surged through her system as she did so. as though she’d stepped in front of a speeding juggernaut.

But the woman stopped in her tracks, and the hook of her gaze caught Suzanna and raised her face to be scrutinized. Meeting the woman’s eyes Suzanna knew the adrenalin rush had been well timed: she had just skirted death. That gaze had killed, she’d swear to it; and would again. But not now; now the woman studied Suzanna with curiosity.

‘A friend of yours, was he?’ she finally said.

Suzanna heard the words spoken, but she couldn’t have sworn that the woman’s lips had moved to form them.

At the door behind her the bear said:

‘Damn thief.’

Then he poked at Suzanna’s shoulder, hard.

‘Didn’t you hear me telling you?’ he said.

Suzanna wanted to turn to the man and tell him to take his hands off her, but the woman hadn’t done with her study, and held her with that gaze.

‘She heard,’ the woman said. This time her lips did move, and Suzanna felt the hold on her relax. But the mere proximity of the other woman made her body tremble. Her groin and breasts felt pricked by tiny thorns.

‘Who are you?’ the woman demanded.

‘Leave it be,’ said the bear.

‘I want to know who she is. Why she’s here.’ The gaze, which had briefly flitted to the man, settled on Suzanna afresh, and the curiosity had murder in its shadow.

‘There’s nothing here we need …’ the man was saying.

The woman ignored him.

‘Come on now … leave it be …’

There was something in the tone of his voice of one coaxing an hysteric from the brink of an attack, and Suzanna was glad of his intervention.

‘… it’s too public …’ he said, ‘… especially here …’

After a long, breathless moment the woman made the tiniest of nods, conceding the wit of this. She suddenly seemed to completely lose interest in Suzanna, and turned back towards the stairs. At the top of the flight, where Suzanna had once imagined terrors to be in wait for her, the gloom was not quite at rest. There were ragged forms moving up there, so insubstantial she could not be certain whether she saw them or merely sensed their presence. They were spilling down the stairs like poison smoke, losing what little solidity they might have owned as they approached the open door, until, by the time they reached the woman who awaited them at the bottom, their vapours were invisible.

She turned from the stairs and walked past Suzanna to the door, taking with her a cloud of cold and tainted air, as though the wraiths that had come to her were now wreathed about her neck, and clinging to the folds of her dress. Carried unseen into the sunlit human world, until they could congeal again.

The man was already out on the pavement, but before his companion stepped out to join him she turned back to Suzanna. She said nothing, either with her lips or without. Her eyes were quite expressive enough: their promises were all joyless.

Suzanna looked away. She heard the woman’s heel on the step. When she looked up again the pair had gone. Drawing a deep breath, she went to the door. Though the afternoon was growing old, the sun was still warm and bright.

Not surprisingly the woman and the bear had crossed over, so as to walk on the shadowed side of the street.




3


Twenty-four years was a third of a good span; time enough to form some opinions on how the world worked. Up until mere hours ago, Suzanna would have claimed she’d done just that.

Certainly there were sizeable gaps in her comprehension: mysteries, both inside her head and out, that remained un-illuminated. But that had only made her the more determined not to succumb to any sentiment or self-delusion that would give those mysteries power over her – a zeal that touched both her private and professional lives. In her love-affairs she had always tempered passion with practicality, avoiding the emotional extravagance she’d seen so often become cruelty and bitterness. In her friendships she’d pursued a similar balance: neither too cloying nor too detached. And no less in her craft. The very appeal of making bowls and pots was its pragmatism; the vagaries of art disciplined by the need to create a functional object.

The question she would ask, viewing the most exquisite jug on earth, would be: does it pour? And it was in a sense a quality she sought in every facet of her life.

But here was a problem which defied such simple distinctions; that threw her off-balance; left her sick and bewildered.

First the memories. Then Mimi, more dead than alive but passing dreams through the air.

And now this meeting, with a woman whose glance had death in it, and yet had left her feeling more alive than perhaps she’d ever felt.

It was that last paradox that made her leave the house without finishing her search, slamming the door on whatever dramas it had waiting for her. Instinctively, she made for the river. There, sitting awhile in the sun, she might make some sense of the problem.

There were no ships on the Mersey, but the air was so clear she could see cloud shadows moving over the hills of Clwyd. There was no such clarity within her, however. Only a chaos of feelings, all unsettlingly familiar, as though they’d been inside her for years, biding their time behind the screen of pragmatism she’d established to keep them from sight. Like echoes, waiting on a mountain-face for the shout they were born to answer.

She’d heard that shout today. Or rather, met it, face to face, on the very spot in the narrow hallway where as a six-year-old she’d stood and trembled in fear of the dark. The two confrontations were inextricably linked, though she didn’t know how. All she knew was that she was suddenly alive to a space inside herself where the haste and habit of her adult life had no dominion.

She sensed the passions that drifted in that space only vaguely, as her fingertips might sense fog. But she would come to know them better with time, those passions, and the acts that they’d engender: she was certain of that as she’d been certain of nothing in days. She’d know them – and, God help her – she’d love them as her own.




III (#litres_trial_promo)






SELLING HEAVEN (#litres_trial_promo)





r Mooney? Mr Brendan Mooney?’

‘That’s right.’

‘Do you happen to have a son by the name of Calhoun?’

‘What business is it of yours?’ Brendan wanted to know. Then, before the other could answer, said: ‘Nothing’s happened to him?’

The stranger shook his head, taking hold of Brendan’s hand and pumping it vigorously.

‘You’re a very lucky man, Mr Mooney, if I may make so bold.’

That, Brendan knew, was a lie.

‘What do you want?’ he said. ‘Are you selling something?’ He withdrew his hand from the grip of the other man. ‘Whatever it is, I don’t want it.’

‘Selling?’ said Shadwell. ‘Perish the thought. I’m giving, Mr Mooney. Your son’s a wise boy. He volunteered your name – and lo and behold, you’ve been selected by computer as the recipient of –’

‘I told you I don’t want it,’ Brendan interrupted, and tried to close the door, but the man already had one foot over the threshold.

‘Please –’ Brendan sighed, ‘– will you just leave me alone? I don’t want your prizes. I don’t want anything.’

‘Well that makes you a very remarkable man,’ the Salesman said, pushing the door wide again. ‘Maybe even unique. There’s really nothing in all the world you want? That’s remarkable.’

Music drifted from the back of the house, a recording of Puccini’s Greatest Hits which Eileen had been given several years ago. She’d scarcely listened to it, but since her death Brendan – who had never stepped inside an opera-house in his life, and was proud of the fact – had become addicted to the Love Duet from Madam Butterfly. If he’d played it once he’d played it a hundred times, and the tears would always come. Now all he wanted to do was get back to the music before it finished. But the Salesman was still pressing his suit.

‘Brendan,’ he said. ‘I may call you Brendan –?’

‘Don’t call me anything.’

The Salesman unbuttoned his jacket.

‘Really, Brendan, we have a great deal to discuss, you and I. Your prize, for one.’

The lining of the jacket scintillated, drawing Brendan’s eye. He’d never in his life seen a fabric its equal.

‘Are you sure there’s nothing you want?’ the Salesman said. ‘Absolutely sure?’

The Love Duet had reached a new plateau, the voices of Butterfly and Pinkerton urging each other on to fresh confessions of pain. Brendan heard, but his attention was increasingly focused on the jacket. And yes, there was something there that he wanted.

Shadwell watched the man’s eyes and saw the flame of desire ignited. It never failed.

‘You do see something, Mr Mooney.’

‘Yes,’ Brendan admitted softly. He saw, and the joy he felt at what he saw made his heavy heart light.

Eileen had said to him once (when they were young, and mortality was just another way to express their devotion to each other): ‘– if I die first, Brendan, I’ll find some way to tell you what Heaven’s like. I swear I will.’ He’d hushed her with kisses then, and said that if she were to die he would die too, of a broken heart.

But he hadn’t died, had he? He’d lived three long, empty months, and more than once in that time he’d remembered her frivolous promise. And now, just as he felt despair would undo him utterly, here on his doorstep was this celestial messenger. An odd choice, perhaps, to appear in the shape of a salesman, but no doubt the Seraphim had their reasons.

‘Do you want what you see, Brendan?’ the visitor asked.

‘Who are you?’ Brendan breathed, awe-struck.

‘My name’s Shadwell.’

‘And you brought this for me?’

‘Of course. But if you accept it, Brendan, you must understand there’ll be a small charge for the service.’

Brendan didn’t take his eyes off the prize the jacket housed. ‘Whatever you say,’ he replied.

‘We may ask for your help, for instance, which you’d be obliged to furnish.’

‘Do angels need help?’

‘Once in a while.’

‘Then of course,’ said Brendan. ‘I’d be honoured.’

‘Good.’ The Salesman smiled. ‘Then please –’ he opened the jacket a little wider, ‘– help yourself.’

Brendan knew how the letter from Eileen would smell and feel long before he had it in his hands. It did not disappoint him. It was warm, as he’d expected, and the scent of flowers lingered about it. She’d written it in a garden, no doubt; in the paradise garden.

‘So, Mr Mooney. We have a deal, do we?’

The Love Duet had ended; the house behind Brendan was silent. He held the letter close to his chest, still fearful that this was all a dream, and he’d wake to find himself empty-handed.

‘Whatever you want,’ he said, desperate that this salvation not be snatched from him.

‘Sweetness and light,’ came the smiling reply. ‘That’s all a wise man ever wants, isn’t it? Sweetness and light.’

Brendan was only half-listening. He ran his fingers back and forth over the letter. His name was on the front, in Eileen’s cautious hand.

‘So tell me, Mr Mooney –’ the Seraphim said, ‘about Cal.’

‘Cal?’

‘Can you tell me where I can find him?’

‘He’s at a wedding.’

‘A wedding. Ah. Could you perhaps furnish me with address?’

‘Yes. Of course.’

‘We’ve got a little something for Cal too. Lucky man.’





IV (#litres_trial_promo)






NUPTIALS (#litres_trial_promo)

1





eraldine had spent many long hours giving Cal a working knowledge of her family tree, so that come Teresa’s wedding he’d know who was who. It was a difficult business. The Kellaway family was heroically fecund, and Cal had a poor memory for names, so it wasn’t surprising that many of the hundred and thirty guests who packed the reception hall this balmy Saturday evening were unknown to him. He didn’t much mind. He felt safe amongst such numbers, even if he didn’t know who they were; and the drink, which had flowed freely since four in the afternoon, further allayed his anxieties. He didn’t even object when Geraldine presented him before a parade of admiring aunts and uncles, every one of whom asked him when he was going to make an honest woman of her. He played the game; smiled; charmed; did his best to seem sane.

Not that a little lunacy would have been noticeable in such a heady atmosphere. Norman Kellaway’s ambition for his daughter’s wedding day seemed to have been upped a notch for every inch her waist-line had swelled. The ceremony had been grand, but necessarily decorous; the reception, however, was a triumph of excess over good taste. The hall had been decorated from floor to ceiling with streamers and paper lanterns; ropes of coloured lights were looped along the walls and in the trees out at the back of the hall. The bar was supplied with beer, spirits and liqueurs sufficient to intoxicate a modest army; food was in endless supply, carried to the tables of those content to sit and gorge by a dozen harassed waitresses.

Even with all the doors and windows open, the hall soon grew hot as Hell, the heat in part generated by those guests who’d thrown inhibitions to the wind and were dancing to a deafening mixture of country and western and rock and roll, the latter bringing comical exhibitions from several of the older guests, applauded ferociously from all sides.

At the edge of the crowd, lingering by the door that led out behind the hall, the groom’s younger brother, accompanied by two young bucks who’d both at some point courted Teresa, and a fourth youth whose presence was only countenanced because he had cigarettes, stood in a litter of beer cans and surveyed the talent available. The pickings were poor; those few girls who were of beddable age were either spoken for or judged so unattractive that any approach would have been evidence of desperation.

Only Elroy. Teresa’s penultimate boy-friend, could lay claim to any hint of success tonight. Since the ceremony he’d had his eyes on one of the bridesmaids, whose name he’d yet to establish but who’d twice chanced to be at the bar while he was there: a significant statistic. Now he leaned against the door and watched the object of his lust across the smoky room.

The lights had been dimmed inside the hall, and the mood of the dancing had changed from cavortings to slow, smoochy embraces.

This was the moment, he judged, to make his approach. He’d invite the woman onto the dance floor, then, after a song or two, take her out for a breath of fresh air. Several couples had already retired to the privacy of the bushes, there to do what weddings were made to celebrate. Beneath the pretty vows and the flowers they were here in the name of fucking, and he was damned if he was going to be left out.

He’d caught sight of Cal chatting with the girl earlier on; it’d be simplest, he thought, to have Cal to introduce them. He pressed through the crush of dancers to where Cal was standing.

‘How you doin’, mate?’

Cal looked at Elroy blearily. The face before him was flushed with alcohol.

‘I’m doing fine.’

‘Didn’t much like the ceremony,’ Elroy said. ‘I think I’m allergic to churches. Do us a favour, will yer?’

‘What is it?’

‘I’m in lust.’

‘Who with?’

‘One of the bridesmaids. She was over by the bar. Long blonde hair.’

‘You mean Loretta?’ Cal said. ‘She’s a cousin of Geraldine’s.’

It was odd, but the drunker he got the more of his lessons on the Kellaway family he remembered.

‘She’s a fucking cracker. And she’s been giving me the eye all night.’

‘Is that right?’

‘I was wondering … will you introduce us?’

Cal looked at Elroy’s panting eyes. ‘I think you’re too late,’ he said.

‘Why?’

‘She went outside –’

Before Elroy could voice his irritation Cal felt a hand on his shoulder. He turned. It was Norman, the father of the bride.

‘A word, Cal, m’boy?’ he said, glancing across at Elroy.

‘I’ll catch you later,’ Elroy said, retreating in case Norman nabbed him too.

‘Are you enjoying yourself?’

‘Yes, Mr Kellaway.’

‘Less of this Mr Kellaway shit, Cal. Call me Norm.’

He poured a generous measure of whisky from the bottle he was armed with into Cal’s lager glass, then drew on his cigar.

‘So tell me,’ he said. ‘How long before I have to give my other little girl away? Don’t think I’m pushing, son. I’m not. But one bride in labour’s enough.’

Cal swilled the whisky around the bottom of his glass, hoping for a prompt from the poet. None came.

‘I’ve got a job for you at the works,’ Norm went on, unfazed by Cal’s silence. ‘I want to see my baby live in a little style. You’re a good lad, Cal. Her mother likes you a lot, and I always trust her judgment. So you think on it …’

He transferred the bottle to his cigar-wielding right hand, and reached into his jacket.

The gesture, innocent as it was, brought a chill of recognition. For an instant Cal was back in Rue Street, gazing into the enchanted cave of Shadwell’s jacket. But Kellaway had simpler gifts to give.

‘Have a cigar,’ he said, and went off to his duties as host.




2


Elroy picked up another can of beer from the bar then headed out into the garden in search of Loretta. The air was considerably cooler than inside, and as soon as it hit him he felt sick as a flea in a leper’s jock strap. He tossed the beer aside and headed towards the bottom of the garden, where he could throw up unseen.

The coloured lights stopped a few yards from the hall, where the cable petered out. Beyond was a welcoming darkness, which he plunged into. He was used to vomiting; a week in which his stomach didn’t rebel through some excess or other was poorly spent. He efficiently discharged the contents of his belly over a rhododendron bush, then turned his thoughts back to the lovely Loretta.

A little way from where he stood the leaf-shadow, or something concealed by it, moved. He peered more closely, trying to interpret what he saw, but there was not sufficient illumination to make sense of it. He heard a sigh however: a woman’s sigh.

There was a couple in the shelter of the tree, he decided, doing what darkness had been created to conceal. Perhaps it was Loretta, her skirt up and her knickers down. It would break his heart, but he had to see.

Very quietly, he advanced a couple of paces.

On his second step, something grazed his face. He stifled a cry of shock and put his hand up to find strands of matter in the air around his head. For some reason he thought of phlegm – cold, wet threads of phlegm – except that they moved against his flesh as if they were a part of something larger.

A heart-beat later this notion was confirmed, as the matter, which was adhering now to his legs and body, pulled him off his feet. He would have let out a cry, but the filthy stuff had already sealed up his lips. And then, as if this were not preposterous enough, he felt a chill around his lower belly. His trousers were being torn open. He started to fight like fury, but resistance was fruitless. There was a weight bearing down on his abdomen and hips, and he felt his manhood drawn up into a channel that might have been flesh, but that it was corpse cold.

Tears of panic blurred his vision, but he could see that the thing astride him had a human form. He could see no face, but the breasts were heavy the way he liked them, and though this was far from the scene he’d pictured with Loretta his lust ignited, his little length responding to the chilly ministrations of the body that contained him.

He raised his head slightly, wanting a better view of those sumptuous breasts, but in doing so he caught sight of another figure behind the first. She was the antithesis of the ripe, gleaming woman that rode him: a stained, wretched thing, with gaping holes in her body where cunt and mouth and navel should have been, so large the stars showed through from the other side.

He started to fight afresh, but his thrashings did nothing to slow his mistress’ rhythm. Despite his panic he felt the familiar tremor in his balls.

In his head half a dozen pictures collided, becoming one monstrous beauty: the ragged woman, a necklace of coloured lights hanging between her sister’s breasts, raised her skirts, and the mouth between her legs was Loretta’s mouth, flicking its tongue. He could not resist this pornography: his prick spat its load. He howled against the seal at his mouth. The pleasure was short, the pain that followed, agonizing.

‘What’s your fuckin’ problem?’ somebody said in the darkness. It took him a moment to realize that his cry for help had been heard. He opened his eyes. The silhouettes of the trees loomed over him, but that was all.

He started to shout again; not caring that he was lying in the muck with his trousers around his ankles. Just needing to know he was still in the land of the living –




3


The first glimpse Cal had of trouble was through the bottom of his glass, as he upped it to drain the last of Norman’s malt whisky. At the door two of the printers from the Kellaway factory, who were acting as bouncers for the night, were engaged in friendly conversation with a man in a well-cut suit. Laughing, the man glanced into the hall. It was Shadwell.

The jacket was closed and buttoned. There was no need, it seemed, for supernatural seductions; the Salesman was buying his entrance with charm alone. Even as Cal watched he patted one of the men on the shoulder as if they’d been bosom-buddies since childhood, and stepped inside.

Cal didn’t know whether to stay still and hope that the crowd would conceal him, or make a move to escape and so risk drawing the enemy’s attention. As it was he had no choice in the matter, A hand was over his, and at his side stood one of the aunts Geraldine had introduced him to.

‘So tell me,’ she said, apropos of nothing, ‘have you been to America?’

‘No,’ he said, looking away from her powdered face towards the Salesman. He was entering the hall with flawless confidence, bestowing smiles hither and thither. His appearance won admiring eyes on all sides. Somebody extended a hand to be shaken; another asked him what he was drinking. He played the crowd with ease, a smiling word offered to every ear, all the while his eyes ranging back and forth as he sought out his quarry.

As the distance between them narrowed Cal knew he couldn’t long avoid being seen. Claiming his hand from the grip of the aunt he headed off into the thickest pan of the crowd. A hubbub drew his attention to the far end of the hall, where he saw somebody – it looked to be Elroy – being carried in from the garden, his clothes in filthied disarray, his jaw slack. Nobody seemed much bothered by his condition – every gathering had its share of professional drunkards. There was laughter, and some disapproving looks, then a rapid return to jollification.

Cal glanced back over his shoulder. Where was Shadwell? Still close to the door, pressing the flesh like an aspirant politician? No; he’d moved. Cal scanned the room nervously. The noise and the dancing went on unabated, but now the sweating faces seemed a mite too hungry for happiness; the dancers only dancing because it put the world away for a little time. There was a desperation in this jamboree, and Shadwell knew how to exploit it, with his stale bonhomie and that air he pretended of one who’d walked with the great and the good.

Cal itched to get up onto a table and tell the revellers to stop their cavortings; to see for themselves how foolish their revels looked, and how dangerous the shark they’d invited into their midst.

But what would they do, when he’d shouted himself hoarse? Laugh behind their hands, and quietly remind each other that he had a madman’s blood in his veins?

He’d find no allies here. This was Shadwell’s territory. The safest thing would be to keep his head down, and negotiate a route to the door. Then get away, as far as possible as fast as possible.

He acted upon the plan immediately. Thanking God for the lack of light, he began to slip between the dancers, keeping his eyes peeled for the man with the coat of many colours.

There was a shout behind him. He glanced round, and through the milling figures caught sight of Elroy, who was thrashing about like an epileptic, yelling blue murder. Somebody was calling for a doctor.

Cal turned back towards the door, and the shark was suddenly at his side.

‘Calhoun.’ said Shadwell, soft and low. ‘Your father told me I’d find you here.’

Cal didn’t reply to Shadwell’s words, merely pretended he hadn’t heard. The Salesman wouldn’t dare do anything violent in such a crowd, surely, and he was safe from the man’s jacket as long as he kept his eyes off the lining.

‘Where are you going?’ Shadwell said, as Cal moved off. ‘I want a word with you’

Cal kept walking.

‘We can help each other …’

Somebody called Cal’s name, asking him if he knew what was wrong with Elroy. He shook his head, and forged on through the crowd towards the door. His plan was simple. Tell the bouncers to find Geraldine’s father, and have Shadwell thrown out.

‘… tell me where the carpet is,’ the Salesman was saying, ‘and I’ll make sure her sisters never get their hands on you.’ His manner was placatory. ‘I’ve no argument with you,’ he said. ‘I just want some information.’

‘I told you,’ said Cal, knowing even as he spoke that any appeal was a lost cause. ‘I don’t know where the carpet went.’

They were within a dozen yards of the vestibule now, and with every step they took Shadwell’s courtesy decayed further.

‘They’ll drain you dry,’ he warned. ‘Those sisters of hers. And I won’t be able to stop them, not once they’ve got their hands on you. They’re dead, and the dead don’t take discipline.’

‘Dead?’

‘Oh yes. She killed them herself, while the three of them were still in the womb. Strangled them with their own cords.’

True or not, the image was sickening. And more sickening still, the thought of the sisters’ touch. Cal tried to put both from his mind as he advanced, Shadwell still at his side. All pretence to negotiation had vanished; there were only threats now.

‘You’re a dead man. Mooney, if you don’t confess. I won’t lift a finger to help you –’

Cal was within hailing distance of the men.

He shouted across to them. They broke off their drinking, and turned in his direction.

‘What’s the problem?’

‘This man –’ Cal began, looking towards Shadwell.

But the Salesman had gone. In the space of seconds he’d left Cal’s side and melted into the crowd, an exit as skilful as his entrance.

‘Got some trouble?’ the bigger of the two men wanted to know.

Cal glanced back at the man, fumbling for words. There was no use his trying to explain, he decided.

‘No …’ he said, ‘… I’m all right. I just need some air.’

‘Too much to drink?’ said the other man, and stood aside to let Cal step out into the street.

It was chilly after the suffocation of the hall, but that was fine by Cal. He breathed deeply, trying to clear his head. Then, a familiar voice.

‘Do you want to go home?’

It was Geraldine. She was standing a short way from the door, a coat draped over her shoulders.

‘I’m all right,’ he told her. ‘Where’s your father?’

‘I don’t know. Why do you want him?’

‘There’s somebody in there who shouldn’t be,’ said Cal, crossing to where she stood. To his drunken gaze she seemed more glamorous than he’d ever seen her; eyes shining like dark gems.

‘Why don’t we walk together a little way?’ she said.

‘I have to speak to your father,’ he insisted, but she was already turning from him, laughing lightly. Before he could voice a protest she was away around the corner. He followed. There were a number of lamps not working along the street, and the silhouette he dogged was fitful. But she trailed her laughter still, and he went after it.

‘Where are you going?’ he wanted to know.

She only laughed again.

Above their heads the clouds were moving quickly, stars glimmering between, their fires too feeble to illuminate much below. They caught Cal’s eye for an instant, and when he looked back at Geraldine she was turning to him, making a sound somewhere between a sigh and a word.

The shadows that embraced her were dense, but they unfolded even as he watched, and what they revealed made his gut somersault. Geraldine’s face had dislodged somehow, her features running like heated wax. And now, as the facade fell away, he saw the woman beneath. Saw, and knew: the browless face, the joyless mouth. Who else but Immacolata?

He would have run then, but that he felt the cold muzzle of a gun against his temple, and the Salesman’s voice said:

‘Make a sound and it’s going to hurt.’

He kept his silence.

Shadwell gestured towards the black Mercedes that was parked at the next intersection.

‘Move,’ he said.

Cal had no choice, scarcely believing, even as he walked, that this scene was taking place on a street whose paving cracks he’d counted since he was old enough to know one from two.

He was ushered into the back of the car, separated from his captors by a partition of heavy glass. The door was locked. He was powerless. All he could do was watch the Salesman slide into the driver’s seat, and the woman get in beside.

There was little chance he’d be missed from the party, he knew, and littler chance still that anyone would come looking for him. It would simply be assumed that he’d tired of the festivities and headed off home. He was in the hands of the enemy, and helpless to do anything about it.

What would Mad Mooney do now, he wondered.

The question vexed him only a moment, before the answer came. Taking out the celebratory cigar Norman had given him, he leaned back in the leather seat, and lit up.

Good, said the poet; take what pleasure you can, while there’s still pleasure to be had. And breath to take it with.




V (#litres_trial_promo)






IN THE ARMS OF MAMA PUS (#litres_trial_promo)





n the haze of fear and cigar smoke he soon lost track of their route. His only clue to their whereabouts, when they finally came to a halt, was that the air smelt sharply of the river. Or rather, of the acreage of black mud that was exposed at low tide; expanses of muck which he’d had a terror of as a child. It wasn’t until he’d reached double figures that he’d been able to walk along Otterspool Promenade without an adult between him and the railings.

The Salesman ordered him from the car. He got out obediently – it was difficult not to be obedient with a gun in his face. Shadwell immediately snatched the cigar from Cal’s mouth, grinding it beneath his heel, then escorted him through a gate into a walled compound. Only now, as he laid eyes on the canyons of household refuse ahead did Cal realize where they’d brought him: the Municipal Rubbish Tip. In former years, acres of parkland had been built on the city’s detritus, but there was no longer the money to transform trash into lawns. Trash it remained. Its stench – the sweet and sour of rotting vegetable matter – even overpowered the smell of the river.

‘Stop,’ said Shadwell, when they reached a place that seemed in no way particular.

Cal looked round in the direction of the voice. He could see very little, but it seemed Shadwell had pocketed his gun. Seizing the instant, he began to run, not choosing any particular direction, merely seeking escape. He’d covered maybe four paces when something tangled with his legs, and he fell heavily, the breath knocked from him. Before he had a chance to get to his feet forms were converging on him from every side, an incoherent mass of limbs and snarls that could only be the wraith-sister’s children. He was glad of the darkness; at least he couldn’t see their deformities. But he felt their limbs upon him; heard their teeth snapping at his neck.

They didn’t intend to devour him, however. At some cue he neither saw nor heard, their violence dwindled to mere bondage. He was held fast, his body so knotted up his joints creaked, while a terrible spectacle unfolded a few yards in front of him.

It was one of Immacolata’s sisters, he had no doubt of that: a naked woman whose substance flickered and smoked as though her marrow was on fire, except that she could have no marrow, for surely she had no bones. Her body was a column of grey gas, laced with strands of bloody tissue, and from this flux fragments of finished anatomy emerged: a seeping breast, a belly swollen as if by a pregnancy months beyond its term, a smeared face in which the eyes were sewn-up slits. That explained, no doubt, her hesitant advance, and the way her smoky limbs extended from her body to test the ground ahead: the ghost was blind.

By the light this unholy mother gave off, Cal could see the children more clearly. No perversion of anatomy had been overlooked amongst them: bodies turned inside out to parade the bowel and stomach; organs whose function seemed simply to seep and wheeze lining the belly of one like teats, and mounted like a coxcomb on another’s head. Yet despite their corruptions, their heads were all turned adoringly upon Mama Pus, their eyes unblinking so as not to miss a moment of her presence. She was their mother; they her loving children.

Suddenly, she started to shriek. Cal turned to look at her again. She’d taken up a squatting posture, her legs splayed, her head thrown back as she voiced her agony.

Behind her there now stood a second ghost, as naked as the first. More so perhaps, for she could scarcely lay claim to flesh. She was obscenely withered, her dugs like empty purses, her face collapsed upon itself in a jumble of tooth-shard and hair. She’d taken hold of her squatting sister, whose scream had now reached a nerve-shredding height. As the swollen belly came close to bursting, there was an issue of smouldering matter from between the mother’s legs. The sight was greeted with a chorus of welcomes from the children. They were entranced. So, in his horrified way, was Cal.

Mama Pus was giving birth.

The scream became a series of smaller, rhythmic shouts as the child began its journey into the living world. It was less born than shat, dropping from between its parent’s legs like a vast mewling turd. No sooner had it hit the ground than the withered midwife was about her business, coming between mother and spectators to draw away veils of redundant matter from the child’s body. The mother, her labours over, stood up, the flame in her flesh dying, and left the child to her sister’s ministrations.

Now Shadwell came back into view. He looked down at Cal.

‘Do you see?’ he said, his voice all but a whisper, ‘what kind of horrors these are? I warned you. Tell me where the carpet is and I’ll try to make sure the child doesn’t touch you.’

‘I don’t know. I swear I don’t.’

The midwife had withdrawn. Shadwell, a sham of pity on his face, now did the same.

In the dirt a few yards from Cal the child was already standing up. It was the size of a chimpanzee, and shared with its siblings the appearance of something traumatically wounded. Portions of its inner workings were teased out through its skin, leaving its torso to collapse upon itself in places and in others sport ludicrous appendages of gut. Twin rows of dwarf limbs hung from its belly, and between its legs a sizeable scrotum depended, smoking like a censer, uncompanioned by any organ to discharge what boiled within.

The child knew its business from its first breath: to terrorize.

Though its face was still wreathed with afterbirth, its gummy eyes found Cal, and it began to shamble towards him.

‘Oh Jesus …’

Cal began looking for the Salesman, but the man had vanished.

‘I told you,’ he yelled into the darkness, ‘I don’t know where the fucking carpet is.’

Shadwell didn’t respond. Cal shouted again. Mama Pus’ bastard was almost upon him.

‘Jesus, Shadwell, listen to me, will you?’

Then, the by-blow spoke.

‘Cal …’ it said.

He stopped struggling against his restraints a moment, and looked at it in disbelief.

It spoke again. The same syllable.

‘Cal …’

Even as it pronounced his name its fingers pulled at the muck about its head. The face that appeared from beneath lacked a complete skull, but it was recognizably that of its father: Elroy. Seeing familiar features in the midst of such deformity was the crowning horror. As Elroy’s child reached to touch him Cal started yelling again, scarcely aware of what he was saying, only begging Shadwell to keep the thing from touching him.

The only reply was his own voice, echoing back and forth until it died. The child’s arms jerked forward, and its long fingers latched onto Cal’s face. He tried to fight it off, but it drew closer to him, its sticky body embracing him. The more he struggled the more he was caught.

The rest of the by-blows loosed their hold on him now, leaving him to the new child. It was only minutes old, but its strength was phenomenal, the vestigial hands on its belly raking Cal’s skin, its grip so tight his lungs laboured for breath.

With its face inches from Cal’s, it spoke again, but the voice that came from the ruined mouth was not its father’s this time, but that of Immacolata.

‘Confess.’ she demanded. ‘Confess what you know.’

‘I just saw a place –’ he said, trying to avoid the trail of spittle that was about to fall from the beast’s chin. He failed. It hit his cheek, and burned like hot fat.

‘Do you know what place?’ the Incantatrix demanded.

‘No …’ he said. ‘No, I don’t –’

‘But you’ve dreamt it, haven’t you? Wept for it …’

Yes, was the answer; of course he’d dreamt it. Who hadn’t dreamt of paradise?

Momentarily his thoughts leapt from present terror to past joy. To his floating over the Fugue. The sight of that Wonderland kindled a sudden will to resist in him. The glories he saw in his mind’s eye had to be preserved from the foulness that embraced him, from its makers and masters, and in such a struggle his life was not so hard to forfeit. Though he knew nothing about the carpet’s present whereabouts he was ready to perish rather than risk letting anything slip that Shadwell might profit by. And while he had breath, he’d do all in his power to confound them.

Elroy’s child seemed to read this new-found resolution. It drew its arms more tightly about him.

‘I’ll confess!’ he yelled in its face. ‘I’ll tell you everything you want to know.’

Immediately, he began to talk.

The substance of his confession was not, however, what they wanted to hear. Instead he began to recite the train timetable out of Lime Street, which he knew by heart. He’d first started learning it at the age of eleven, having seen a Memory Man on television who’d demonstrated his skills by recalling the details of randomly chosen football matches – teams, scores, scorers – back to the 1930s. It was a perfectly useless endeavour, but its heroic scale had impressed Cal mightily, and he’d spent the next few weeks committing to memory any and every piece of information he could find, until it struck him that his magnum opus was passing to and fro at the bottom of the garden: the trains. He’d begun that day, with the local lines, his ambition elevated each time he successfully remembered a day’s times faultlessly. He’d kept his information up to date for several years, as services were cancelled or stations closed. And his mind, which had difficulty putting names to faces, could still spew this perfectly redundant information out upon request.

That’s what he gave them now. The services to Manchester, Crewe, Stafford, Wolverhampton, Birmingham, Coventry, Cheltenham Spa, Reading, Bristol, Exeter, Salisbury, London, Colchester; all the times of arrival and departure, and footnotes as to which services only operated on Saturdays, and which never ran on Bank Holidays.

I’m Mad Mooney, he thought, as he delivered this filibuster, listing the services with a bright, clear voice, as if to an imbecile. The trick confounded the monster utterly. It stared at Cal while he talked, unable to understand why the prisoner had forsaken fear.

Immacolata cursed Cal through her nephew’s mouth, and offered up new threats, but he scarcely heard them. The timetables had their own rhythm, and he was soon carried along by it. The beast’s embrace grew tighter; it could not be long before Cal’s bones began to break. But he just went on talking, drawing in gulps of breath to start each day, and letting his tongue do the rest.

It’s poetry, my boy, said Mad Mooney. Never heard its like. Pure poetry.

And maybe it was. Verses of days, and lines of hours, transmuted into the stuff of poets because it was all spat into the face of death.

They’d kill him for this defiance, he knew, when they finally realized that he’d never exchange another meaningful word with them. But Wonderland would have a gate for ghosts.

He had just begun the Scottish services – to Edinburgh, Glasgow, Perth, Inverness, Aberdeen and Dundee – when he caught sight of Shadwell from the corner of his eye. The Salesman was shaking his head, and now exchanged some words with Immacolata – something about having to ask the old woman. Then he turned, and walked into the darkness. They’d given up on their prisoner. The coup de grace could only be seconds away.

He felt the grip relax. His recitation faltered for an instant, in anticipation of the fatal blow. It didn’t come. Instead, the creature withdrew its arms from around him, and followed behind Shadwell, leaving Cal lying on the ground. Though released, he could scarcely move; his bruised limbs were rigid with cramp after being held fast for so long.

And now he realized that his troubles were not over. He felt the sweat on his face turning cold, as the mother of Elroy’s terrible infant drew herself towards him. He could not escape her. She straddled his body, then reached down and drew his face up towards her breasts. His muscles complained at this contortion, but the pain was forgotten an instant after, as she put her nipple to his lips. A long-neglected instinct made him accept it. The breast spurted a bitter fluid down his throat. He wanted to spit it out, but his body lacked the strength to reject it. Instead he felt his consciousness flee from this last degeneracy. A dream eclipsed the horror.

He was lying in darkness on a scented bed, while a woman’s voice sang to him, some wordless lullaby whose cradle rhythms were shared by a feather-light touch upon his body. Fingers were playing on his abdomen and groin. They were cold, but they knew more tricks than a whore. He was hard in a heart-beat; gasping in two. He’d never felt such caresses, coaxed by agonizing degrees to the point of no return. His gasps became cries, but the lullaby drowned them out, mocking his manhood with its nursery lilt. He was a helpless infant, despite his erection; or perhaps because of it. The touch grew more demanding, his cries more urgent.

For an instant his thrashings shook him from his dream, and his eyes flickered open long enough to see that he was still in the sister’s sepulchral embrace. Then the smothering slumber claimed him again, and he discharged into an emptiness so profound it devoured not only his seed but the lullaby and its singer; and, finally, the dream itself.

He woke alone, and weeping. Every ligament tender, he untied the knot he’d made of himself, and stood up.

His watch read nine minutes after two. The last train of the night had left Lime Street long ago; and the first of Sunday morning would not run for many hours yet.





VI (#litres_trial_promo)






SICK SOULS (#litres_trial_promo)

1





ometimes Mimi woke; sometimes she slept. But one was much like the other now: sleep marred by distress and discomfort – wakefulness full of unfinished thoughts that faded into scraps of nonsense, like dreams. One moment she was certain there was a small child crying in the corner of the room, until the night nurse came in, and wiped the tears from her patient’s eyes. Another moment she could see, as if through a dirtied window, some place she knew, but had lost, and her old bones ached with wanting to be there.

But then came another vision, and this one she hoped against hope was a dream. It was not.

‘Mimi?’ said the dark woman.

The stroke that had crippled Mimi had dimmed her eyes, but she had sight enough to recognize the figure standing at the bottom of her bed. After years of being alone with her secret, somebody from the Fugue had finally found her. But there would be no tearful reunions tonight, not with this visitor, nor her dead sisters.

The Incantatrix Immacolata had come here to fulfil a promise she’d made before the Fugue had been hidden: that, if she could not rule the Seerkind, she’d destroy them. She was Lilith’s descendant, she’d always claimed: the last pure line from the first state of magic. Her authority over them was therefore unquestionable. They’d laughed at her for her presumption. It wasn’t their nature to be ruled, nor to count much on genealogy. Immacolata had been humiliated; a fact a woman like her – possessed, it had to be admitted, of powers that were purer than most – would not easily forget. Now she’d found the carpet’s last Custodian, and she’d have blood if she could get it.

An age ago the Council had bequeathed Mimi some of the tactics of the Old Science to arm her against a situation such as this. They were minor raptures, no more; devices to distract an enemy. Nothing fatal. That took more time to learn than they’d had. She’d been grateful for them at the time, however: they’d offered some smidgen of comfort as she faced life in the Kingdom without her beloved Romo. But the years had gone by and nobody had come, either to tell her that the waiting was over and the Weave could give up its secrets, or to try and take the Fugue by force. The excitement of the early years, knowing she stood between magic and its destruction, dwindled to a weary watchfulness. She became lazy and forgetful; they all did.

Only towards the end, when she was alone, and she realized just how frail she was becoming, did she shake off the stupor that living amongst the Cuckoos had brought on, and try to set her beleaguered mental powers to the problem of the secret she’d protected for so long. But by that time her mind was wandering – the first symptoms of the stroke that would incapacitate her. It took her a day and a half to compose the short letter she’d written to Suzanna, a letter in which she’d risked saying more than she wanted to, because time was getting short, and she sensed danger close.

She’d been right; here it was. Immacolata had probably sensed the signal Mimi had sent up at the very last: a summons to any Kingdom-bound Seerkind who might have come to her aid. That, with hindsight, had probably been her greatest error. An incantatrix of Immacolata’s strength would not have missed such alarms.

Here she was, come to visit Mimi like a dispossessed child, eager to make good at the death-bed, and so claim her inheritance, it was an analogy not lost on the creature.

‘I told the nurse I was your daughter,’ she said, ‘and that I needed some time with you. Alone.’

Mimi would have spat in disgust, had she had the strength or the spittle.

‘– I know you’re going to die, so I’ve come to say goodbye, after all these years. You’ve lost the power of speech, I hear; so I’m not to expect you to babble your confession. There are other ways. We know how the mind can be laid bare without words, don’t we?’

She stepped a little closer to the bed.

Mimi knew what the Incantatrix said was true; there were ways a body – even one as wretched and close to death as her own – could be made to give up its secrets, if the interrogator knew the methods. And Immacolata did. She, the slaughterer of her own sisters; she, the eternal virgin, whose celibacy gave her access to powers lovers were denied: she had ways. Mimi would have to turn some final trick, or all would be lost.

From the corner of her eye Mimi saw the Hag, the withered sister, hunched up beside the wall, her toothless maw wide. The Magdalene, Immacolata’s second sister, was occupying the visitor’s chair, her legs splayed. They were waiting for the fun to begin.

Mimi opened her mouth, as if to speak.

‘Something to say?’ Immacolata asked.

As the Incantatrix spoke Mimi used what little strength she had to turn her left hand palm up. There, amid the grid of her life and love lines, was a symbol, drawn in henna, and reworked so often that her skin was now irredeemably stained; a symbol taught to her hours before the great weaving by a Babu in the Council.

She’d long ago forgotten what it meant or did – if she’d ever been told – but it was one of the few defences they’d given her that she was in any condition to use.

The raptures of the Lo were physical, and her body was too paralysed to perform them; those of the Aia were musical, and, being tone deaf, had been the first she’d forgotten. The Ye-me, the Seerkind whose genius was weaving, hadn’t given her raptures at all. They’d been too busy, during those last, hectic days, with the business of their magnum opus: the carpet that was soon to conceal the Fugue from sight for an age.

Indeed, most of what that Babu had taught her was beyond her present power to use – word raptures were valueless if your lips couldn’t shape them. All she had left was this obscure sign – little more than a dirt-mark on her palsied hand – to keep the Incantatrix at bay.

But nothing happened. There was no release of power; not even a breath. She tried to recall if the Babu had given her some specific instruction about activating the rapture, but all her mind would conjure was his face; and a smile he’d given her; and the trees behind his head sieving sunlight through their branches. What days they’d been; and she so young; and it all an adventure.

No adventure now. Just death on a stale bed.

Suddenly, a roar. And from her palm – released by the memory, perhaps – the rapture broke.

A ball of energy leapt from her hand. Immacolata stepped back as a humming net of light came down around the bed, keeping malice at bay.

The Incantatrix was quick to respond. The menstruum, that stream of bright darkness which was the blood of her subtle body, spilled from her nostrils. It was a power Mimi had seen manifested no more than a dozen times, always and only by women: an etheric solution in which it was said the wielder could dissolve all experience, and make it again in the image of her desire. While the Old Science was a democracy of magic, available to all – independent of gender, age or moral standing – the menstruum seemed to choose those it favoured. It had driven a fair number of those chosen to suicide with its demands and its visions; but it was undeniably a power – perhaps even a condition of the flesh – that knew no bounds.

It took a few droplets only, their spheres becoming barbed in the air, to lacerate the net that the Babu rapture had created, leaving Mimi utterly vulnerable.

Immacolata stared down at the old woman, fearful of what would come next. Doubtless the Council had left the Custodian with some endgame rapture which, in extremis, she’d unleash. That was why she’d counselled Shadwell that they try other routes of investigation first: in order to avoid this potentially lethal confrontation. But those routes had all been cul-de-sacs. The house in Rue Street had been robbed of its treasure. The sole witness, Mooney, had lost his wits. She’d been obliged to come here and face the Custodian, not fearing Mimi herself, but rather the scale of the defences the Council had surely lodged with her.

‘Go on …’ she said, ‘… do your worst.’

The old woman just lay there, her eyes full of anticipation.

‘We haven’t got forever,’ Immacolata said. ‘If you’ve got raptures, show them.’

Still she just lay there, with the arrogance of one who had power in plentiful supply.

Immacolata could bear the waiting no longer. She took a step towards the bed, in the hope of making the bitch show her powers; whatever they were. There was still no response.

Was it possible that she’d misread the signs? Was it perhaps not arrogance that made the woman lie so still, but despair? Dare she hope that the Custodian was somehow, miraculously, defenceless?

She touched Mimi’s open palm, brushing the spent calligraphy. The power there was defunct; and nothing further came to meet her from the woman on the bed.

If Immacolata knew pleasure, she knew it then. Unlikely as it seemed, the Custodian was unarmed. She possessed no final, devastating rapture. If she’d ever had such authority, age had decayed it.

‘Time to unburden yourself,’ she said, and let a dribble of torment climb into the air above Mimi’s trembling head.




2


The night nurse consulted the clock on the wall. It was thirty minutes since she’d left the tearful daughter with Mrs Laschenski. Strictly speaking she should have told the visitor to return the following morning, but the woman had travelled through the night, and besides there was every chance the patient would not make it to first light. Rules had to be tempered with compassion; but half an hour was enough.

As she started down the corridor, she heard a cry issuing from the old lady’s room, and the sound of furniture being overturned. She was at the door in seconds. The handle was clammy, and refused to turn. She rapped on the door, as the noise within grew louder still.

‘What’s going on?’ she demanded.

Inside, the Incantatrix looked down at the bag of dry bones and withered flesh on the bed. Where did this woman find the will-power to defy her?; to resist the needles of interrogation the menstruum had driven up through the roof of her mouth, into her very thoughts?

The Council had chosen well, electing her as one of the three guardians of the Weaveworld. Even now, with the menstruum probing the seals of her brain, she was preparing a final and absolute defence. She was going to die. Immacolata could see her willing death upon herself before the needles pricked her secrets out.

On the other side of the door the nurse’s enquiries rose in pitch and volume.

‘Open the door! Please, will you open the door!’

Time was running out. Ignoring the nurse’s calls, Immacolata closed her eyes and dug into the past for a marriage of forms that she hoped would unseat the old woman’s reason long enough for the needles to do their work. One part of the union was easily evoked: an image of death plucked from her one true refuge in the Kingdom, the Shrine of the Mortalities. The other was more problematic, for she’d only seen the man Mimi had left behind in the Fugue once or twice. But the menstruum had its way of dredging the memory up, and what better proof of the illusion’s potency than the look that now came over the old woman’s face, as her lost love appeared to her at the bottom of the bed, raising his rotting arms? Taking her cue. Immacolata pressed the points of her enquiry into the Custodian’s cortex, but before she had a chance to find the carpet there, Mimi – with one last gargantuan effort – seized hold of the sheet with her good hand and flung it towards the phantom, a punning call on the Incantatrix’s bluff.

Then she fell sideways from the bed, dead before she hit the floor.

Immacolata shrieked her fury; and as she did so, the nurse flung the door open.

What the woman saw in Room Six she would never tell, not for the rest of her long life. In part because she feared the derision of her peers; in part because if her eyes told the truth, and there were in the living world such terrors as she glimpsed in Mimi Laschenski’s room, to talk of them might invite their proximity, and she, a woman of her times, had neither prayers nor wit enough to keep such darkness at bay.

Besides, they were gone even as her eyes fell upon them – the naked woman and the dead man at the foot of the bed – gone as if they’d never been. And there was just the daughter, saying: ‘No … no …’ and her mother dead on the floor.

‘I’ll get the Doctor,’ said the nurse. ‘Please stay here.’

But when she got back to the room, the grieving woman had made her final farewells, and left.




3


‘What happened?’ said Shadwell, as they drove from the hospital.

‘She’s dead,’ said Immacolata, and said no more until they’d driven two miles from the gates.

Shadwell knew better than to press her. She would tell what she had to tell in her own good time.

Which she did, saying:

‘She had no defence, Shadwell, except some poxy trick I learned in my cot.’

‘How’s that possible?’

‘Maybe she just grew old.’ came Immacolata’s reply. ‘Her mind rotted.’

‘And the other Custodians?’

‘Who knows? Dead, maybe. Wandered off into the Kingdom. She was on her own, at the last.’ The Incantatrix smiled; an expression her face was not familiar with. ‘There was I, being cautious and calculating, afraid she’d have raptures that’d undo me, and she had nothing. Nothing. Just an old woman dying in a bed.’

‘If she’s the last, there’s no-one to stop us, is there? No-one to keep us from the Fugue.’

‘So it’d seem,’ Immacolata replied, then lapsed into silence again, content to watch the sleeping Kingdom slide past the window.

It still amazed her, this woeful place. Not in its physical particulars, but in its unpredictability.

They’d grown old here, the Keepers of the Weave. They – who’d loved the Fugue enough to give their lives to keep it from harm – they’d finally wearied of their vigil, and withered into forgetfulness.

Hate remembered though; hate remembered long after love had forgotten. She was living proof of that. Her purpose – to find the Fugue and break its bright heart – was undimmed after a search that had occupied a human life-time.

And that search would soon be over. The Fugue found and put up for auction, its territories playgrounds for the Cuckoos, its peoples – the four great families – sold into slavery or left to wander in this hopeless place. She looked out at the city. A fidgety light was washing brick and concrete, frightening off what little enchantment the night might have lent.

The magic of the Seerkind could not survive long in such a world. And, stripped of their raptures, what were they? A lost people, with visions behind their eyes, and no power to make them true.

They and this tarnished, forsaken city would have much to talk about.




VII (#litres_trial_promo)






THE TALL-BOY (#litres_trial_promo)

1





ight hours before Mimi’s death in the hospital, Suzanna had returned to the house in Rue Street. Evening was falling, and the building, pierced from front to back with shafts of amber light, was almost redeemed from its dreariness. But the glory didn’t last for long, and when the sun took itself off to another hemisphere she was obliged to light the candles, many of which remained on the sills and the shelves, set in the graves of their predecessors. The illumination they offered was stronger than she’d expected, and more glamorous. She moved from room to room accompanied everywhere by the scent of melting wax, and could almost imagine Mimi might have been happy here, in this cocoon.

Of the design which her grandmother had shown her, she could find no sign. It was not in the grain of the floorboards, nor in the pattern of the wallpaper. Whatever it had been, it was gone now. She didn’t look forward to the melancholy task of breaking that news to the old lady.

What she did find, however, all but concealed behind the stack of furniture at the top of the stairs, was the tall-boy. It took a little time to remove the items piled in front of it, but there was a revelation waiting when she finally set the candle on the floor before it, and opened the doors.

The vultures who’d picked the household clean had forgotten to rifle the contents of the tall-boy. Mimi’s clothes still hung on the rails, coats and furs and ball-gowns, all, most likely, unworn since last Suzanna had opened this treasure trove. Which thought reminded her of what she’d sought on that occasion She went down on her haunches, telling herself that it was folly to think her gift would still be there, and yet knowing indisputably that it was.

She was not disappointed. There, amongst the shoes and tissue, she found a package wrapped in plain brown paper and marked with her name. The gift had been postponed, but not lost.

Her hands had begun to tremble. The knot in the faded ribbon defied her for half a minute, and then came free. She pulled the paper off.

Inside: a book. Not new, to judge by its scuffed corners, but finely bound in leather. She opened it. To her surprise, she found it was in German. Geschichten der Geheimen Orte the title read, which she hesitatingly translated as Stories of the Secret Maces. But even if she hadn’t had a smattering of the language, the illustrations would have given the subject away: it was a book of faery-tales.

She sat down at the top of the stairs, candle at her side, and began to study the volume more closely. The stories were familiar, of course: she’d encountered them, in one form or another, a hundred times. She’d seen them re-interpreted as Hollywood cartoons, as erotic fables, as the subject of learned theses and feminist critiques. But their bewitchment remained undiluted by commerce or academe. Sitting there, the child in her wanted to hear these stories told again, though she knew every twist and turn, and had the end in mind before the first line was spoken. That didn’t matter, of course. Indeed their inevitability was part of their power. Some tales could never be told too often.

Experience had taught her much: and most of the news was bad. But these stories taught different lessons. That sleep resembled death, for instance, was no revelation; but that death might with kisses be healed into mere sleep … that was knowledge of a different order. Mere wish-fulfilment, she chided herself. Real life had no miracles to offer. The devouring beast, if cut open, did not disgorge its victims unharmed. Peasants were not raised overnight to princedom, nor was evil ever vanquished by a union of true hearts. They were the kind of illusions that the pragmatist she’d striven so hard to be had kept at bay.

Yet the stories moved her. She couldn’t deny it. And they moved her in a way only true things could. It wasn’t sentiment that brought tears to her eyes. The stories weren’t sentimental. They were tough, even cruel. No, what made her weep was being reminded of an inner life she’d been so familiar with as a child; a life that was both an escape from, and a revenge upon, the pains and frustrations of childhood; a life that was neither mawkish nor unknowing; a life of mind-places – haunted, soaring – that she’d chosen to forget when she’d took up the cause of adulthood.

More than that; in this reunion with the tales that had given her a mythology, she found images that might help her fathom her present confusion.

The outlandishness of the story she’d entered, coming back to Liverpool, had thrown her assumptions into chaos. But here, in the pages of the book, she found a state of being in which nothing was fixed: where magic ruled, bringing transformations and miracles. She’d walked there once, and far from feeling lost, could have passed for one of its inhabitants. If she could recapture that insolent indifference to reason, and let it lead her through the maze ahead, she might comprehend the forces she knew were waiting to be unleashed around her.

It would be painful to relinquish her pragmatism, however: it had kept her from sinking so often. In the face of waste and sorrow she’d held on by staying cool; rational. Even when her parents had died, separated by some unspoken betrayal which kept them, even at the last, from comforting each other, she’d coped; simply by immersing herself in practicalities until the worst was over.

Now the book beckoned, with its chimeras and its sorceries; all ambiguity; all flux; and her pragmatism would be worthless. No matter. Whatever the years had taught her about loss, and compromise, and defeat she was here invited back into a forest in which maidens tamed dragons; and one of those maidens still had her face.

Having scanned three or four of the stories, she turned to the front of the book, in search of an inscription. It was brief.

‘To Suzanna.’ it read. ‘Love from M.L.’

It shared the page with an odd epigram:

Das, was man sick vorstellt, braucht man nie zu verlieren.

She struggled with this, suspecting that her rusty German might be missing the felicities. The closest approximation she could make was:

That which is imagined need never be lost.

With this oblique wisdom in mind, she returned to the stories, lingering over the illustrations, which had the severity of woodcuts but on closer inspection concealed all manner of subtleties. Fish with human faces gazed up from beneath the pristine surface of a pool; two strangers at a banquet exchanged whispers that had taken solid form in the air above their heads; in the heart of a wild wood figures all but hidden amongst the trees showed pale, expectant faces.

The hours came and went, and when, having been through the book from cover to cover, she briefly closed her eyes to rest them, sleep overcame her.

When she woke she found her watch had stopped a little after two. The wick at her side flickered in a pool of wax, close to drowning. She got to her feet, limping around the landing until the pins and needles had left her foot, and then went into the back bedroom in search of a fresh candle.

There was one on the window ledge. As she picked it up, her eye caught a movement in the yard below. Her heart jumped; but she stood absolutely still so as not to draw attention to herself, and watched. The figure was in shadow, and it wasn’t until he forsook the corner of the yard that the starlight showed her the young man she’d seen here the day before.

She started downstairs, picking up a fresh flame on the way. She wanted to speak to the man; wanted to quiz him on the reasons for his flight, and the identity of his pursuers.

As she stepped out into the yard he rose from his hiding place and made a dash for the back gate.

‘Wait!’ she called after him. ‘It’s Suzanna.’

The name could mean little to him, but he halted nevertheless.

‘Who?’ he said.

‘I saw you yesterday. You were running –’

The girl in the hall, Cal realized. The one who’d come between him and the Salesman.

‘What happened to you?’ she said.

He looked terrible. His clothes were ripped, his face dirtied; and, though she couldn’t be sure, bloodied too.

‘I don’t know,’ he said, his voice scraping gravel. ‘I don’t know anything any longer.’

‘Why don’t you come inside?’

He didn’t move.

‘How long have you been here?’ he said.

‘Hours.’

‘And the house is empty?’

‘Except for me, yes.’

With this ascertained, he followed her through the back door. She lit several more candles. The light confirmed her suspicions. There was blood on him; and a cess-pit smell.

‘Is there any running water?’ he said.

‘I don’t know; we can try.’

They were in luck; the Water Board had not turned off the supply. The kitchen tap rattled and the pipes roared but finally a stream of icy water was spat forth. Cal slung off his jacket and doused his face and arms.

‘I’ll see if I can find a towel,’ said Suzanna. ‘What’s your name, by the way?’

‘Cal.’

She left him to his ablutions. With her gone he stripped off his shirt and sluiced down his chest, neck and back with chilly water. She was back before he was done, with a pillow-slip.

‘Nearest thing I can find to a towel,’ she said.

She had set two chairs in the lower front room, and lit several candles there. They sat together, and talked.

‘Why did you come back?’ she wanted to know. ‘After yesterday.’

‘I saw something here.’ he said, cautiously. ‘And you? Why are you here?’

‘This is my grandmother’s house. She’s in hospital. Dying. I came back to look around.’

‘The two I saw yesterday,’ Cal said. ‘Were they friends of your grandmother’s?’

‘I doubt it. What did they want with you?’

Here Cal knew he got into sticky ground. How could he begin to tell her what joys and fears the last few days had brought?

‘It’s difficult …’ he said. ‘I mean, I’m not sure anything that’s happened to me recently makes much sense.’

‘That makes two of us,’ she replied.

He was looking at his hands, like a palmist in search of a future. She studied him; his torso was covered in scratches, as though he’d been wrestling wolves.

When he looked up his pale blue eyes, fringed with black lashes, caught her scrutiny. He blushed slightly.

‘You said you saw something here,’ she said. ‘Can you tell me what?’

It was a simple question, and he saw no reason not to tell her. If she disbelieved him, that was her problem, not his. But she didn’t. Indeed, as soon as he described the carpet her eyes grew wide and wild.

‘Of course,’ she said. ‘A carpet. Of course.’

‘You know about it?’ he said.

She told him what had happened at the hospital; the design Mimi had tried to show her.

Now any lingering doubts about telling the whole story were forgotten. He gave her the adventure from the day the bird had escaped. His vision of the Fugue; Shadwell and his coat; Immacolata; the by-blows; their mother and the midwife; events at the wedding, and after. She punctuated his narrative with insights of her own, about Mimi’s life here in the house, the doors bolted, the windows nailed down, living in a fortress as if awaiting siege.

‘She must have known somebody would come for the carpet sooner or later.’

‘Not for the carpet,’ said Cal. ‘For the Fugue.’

She saw his eyes grow dreamy at the word, and envied him his glimpse of the place: its hills, its lakes, its wild woods. And were there maidens amongst those trees, she wanted to ask, who tamed dragons with their song? That was something she would have to discover for herself.

‘So the carpet’s a doorway, is it?’ she said.

‘I don’t know.’ he replied.

‘I wish we could ask Mimi. Maybe she –’

Before the sentence was out, Cal was on his feet.

‘Oh my God.’ Only now did he recall Shadwell’s words on the rubbish tip, about going to speak to the old woman.

He’d meant Mimi, who else? As he pulled on his shirt he told Suzanna what he’d heard.

‘We have to go to her,’ he said. ‘Christ! Why didn’t I think?’

His agitation was infectious. Suzanna blew out the candles, and was at the front door before him.

‘Surely Mimi’ll be safe in a hospital,’ she said.

‘Nobody’s safe,’ he replied, and she knew it was true.

On the step, she about-faced and disappeared into the house again, returning seconds later with a battered book in her hands.

‘Diary?’ he said.

‘Map,’ she replied.





VIII (#litres_trial_promo)






FOLLOWING THE THREAD (#litres_trial_promo)

1





imi was dead.

Her killers had come and gone in the night, leaving an elaborate smoke-screen to conceal their crime.

‘There’s nothing mysterious about your grandmother’s death.’ Doctor Chai insisted. ‘She was failing fast.’

‘There was somebody here last night.’

‘That’s right. Her daughter.’

‘She only had one daughter; my mother. And she’s been dead for two and a half years.’

‘Whoever it was, she did Mrs Laschenski no harm. Your grandmother died of natural causes.’

There was little use in arguing, Suzanna realized. Any further attempt to explain her suspicions would end in confusion. Besides, Mimi’s death had begun a new spiral of puzzles. Chief amongst them: what had the old woman known, or been, that she had to be dispatched?; and how much of her part in this puzzle would Suzanna now be obliged to assume? One question begged the other, and both, with Mimi silenced, would have to go unanswered. The only other source of information was the creature who’d stooped to kill the old woman on her death-bed: Immacolata. And that was a confrontation Suzanna felt far from ready for.

They left the hospital, and walked. She was badly shaken.

‘Shall we eat?’ Cal suggested.

It was still only seven in the morning, but they found a cafe that served breakfast and ordered glutton’s portions. The eggs and bacon, toast and coffee restored them both somewhat, though the price of a sleepless night still had to be paid.

‘I’ll have to ’phone my uncle in Canada,’ said Suzanna. Tell him what happened.’

‘All of it?’ said Cal.

‘Of course not,’ she said. That’s between the two of us.’

He was glad of that. Not just because he didn’t like the thought of the story spreading, but because he wanted the intimacy of a secret shared. This Suzanna was like no woman he had ever met before. There was no facade, no games-playing. They were, in one night of confessionals – and this sad morning – suddenly companions in a mystery which, though it had brought him closer to death than he’d ever been, he’d happily endure if it meant he kept her company.

‘There won’t be many tears shed over Mimi,’ Suzanna was saying. ‘She was never loved.’

‘Not even by you?’

‘I never knew her,’ she said, and gave Cal a brief synopsis of Mimi’s life and times. ‘She was an outsider,’ Suzanna concluded. ‘And now we know why.’

‘Which brings us back to the carpet. We have to trace the house cleaners.’

‘You need some sleep first.’

‘No. I’ve got my second wind. But I do want to go home. Just to feed the pigeons.’

‘Can’t they survive without you for a few hours?’

Cal frowned. ‘If it weren’t for them,’ he said, ‘I wouldn’t be here.’

‘Sorry. Do you mind if I come with you?’

‘I’d like that. Maybe you can give Dad something to smile about.’




2


As it was, Brendan had smiles aplenty today; Cal had not seen his father so happy since before Eileen’s illness. The change was uncanny. He welcomed them both into the house with a stream of banter.

‘Coffee, anybody?’ he offered, and went off into the kitchen. ‘By the way Cal, Geraldine was here.’

‘What did she want?’

‘She brought some books you’d given her; said she didn’t want them any longer.’ He turned from the coffee-brewing and stared at Cal. ‘She said you’ve been behaving oddly.’

‘Must be in the blood,’ said Cal, and his father grinned. ‘I’m going to look at the birds.’

‘I’ve already fed them today. And cleaned them out.’

‘You’re really feeling better.’

‘Why not?’ said Brendan. ‘I’ve got people watching over me.’

Cal nodded, not quite comprehending. Then he turned to Suzanna.

‘Want to see the champions?’ he said, and they stepped outside. The day was already balmy.

‘There’s something off about Dad,’ said Cal, as he led the way down the clogged path to the loft. ‘Two days ago he was practically suicidal.’

‘Maybe the bad times have just run their course,’ she said.

‘Maybe,’ he replied, as he opened the loft door. As he did so, a train roared by, making the earth tremble.

‘Nine-twenty-five to Penzance,’ Cal said, as he led her inside.

‘Doesn’t it disturb the birds?’ she asked. ‘Being so close to the tracks?’

‘They got used to it when they were still in their shells,’ he replied, and went to greet the pigeons.

She watched him talking to them, paddling his fingers against the wire mesh. He was a strange one, no doubt of that; but no stranger than she, probably. What surprised her was the casual way they dealt with the imponderables which had suddenly entered their lives. They stood, she sensed, on a threshold; in the realm beyond a little strangeness might be a necessity.

Cal suddenly turned from the cage.

‘Gilchrist.’ he said, with a fierce grin. ‘I just remembered. They talked about a guy called Gilchrist.’

‘Who did?’

‘When I was on the wall. The removal men. God, yes! I looked at the birds and it all came back. I was on the wall and they were talking about selling the carpet to someone called Gilchrist.’

‘That’s our man then.’

Cal was back in the house in moments.

‘I don’t have any cake –’ Brendan said as his son made for the telephone in the hallway. ‘What’s the panic?’

‘It’s nothing much,’ said Suzanna.

Brendan poured her a cup of coffee, while Cal rifled through the directory. ‘You’re not a local lass, are you?’ Brendan said.

‘I live in London.’

‘Never liked London,’ he commented. ‘Soulless place.’

‘I’ve got a studio in Muswell Hill. You’d like it.’ When Brendan looked puzzled at this, she added: ‘I make pottery.’

‘I’ve found it,’ said Cal, directory in hand. ‘K. W. Gilchrist,’ he read,‘Second-Hand Retailer.’

‘What’s all this about?’ said Brendan.

‘I’ll give them a call,’ Cal said.

‘It’s Sunday,’ said Suzanna.

‘Lot of these places are open Sunday morning,’ he replied, and returned to the hallway.

‘Are you buying something?’ Brendan said.

‘In a manner of speaking,’ Suzanna replied.

Cal dialled the number. The receiver at the other end was picked up promptly. A woman said:

‘Gilchrist’s?’

‘Hello,’ said Cal. ‘I’d like to speak to Mr Gilchrist please.’

There was a beat’s silence, then the woman said:

‘Mr Gilchrist’s dead.’

Jesus, Shadwell was fast. Cal thought.

But the telephonist hadn’t finished:

‘He’s been dead eight years,’ she said. Her voice had less colour than the speaking clock. ‘What’s your enquiry concerning?’

‘A carpet,’ said Cal.

‘You want to buy a carpet?’

‘No. Not exactly. I think a carpet was brought to your saleroom by mistake –’

‘By mistake?’

‘That’s right. And I have to have it back. Urgently.’

‘I’m afraid you’ll have to speak to Mr Wilde about that.’

‘Could you put me through to Mr Wilde then, please?’

‘He’s in the Isle of Wight.’

‘When will he be back?’

‘Thursday morning. You’ll have to ring back then.’

‘Surely that must be –’

He stopped, realizing the line was dead.

‘Damn,’ he said. He looked up to see Suzanna standing at the kitchen door. ‘Nobody there to talk to.’ He sighed. ‘Where does that leave us?’

‘Like thieves in the night,’ she replied softly.




3


When Cal and the woman had gone, Brendan sat awhile watching the garden. He’d have to get to work on it soon: Eileen’s letter had chastized him for being so lax in its upkeep.

Musing on the letter inevitably led him back to its carrier, the celestial Mr Shadwell.

Without analysing why, he got up and went to the ’phone, consulting the card the angel had given him, then dialled. His memory of the encounter with Shadwell had almost been burned away by the brightness of the gift the Salesman had brought, but there’d been a bargain made, that he did remember, and it somehow concerned Cal.

‘Is that Mr Shadwell?’

‘Who is this please?’

‘It’s Brendan Mooney.’

‘Oh Brendan. How good to hear your voice. Do you have something to tell me? About Cal?’

‘He went to a warehouse, for furniture and such …’

‘Did he indeed. Then we shall find him, and make him a happy man. Was he alone?’

‘No. There was a woman with him. A lovely woman.’

‘Her name?’

‘Suzanna Parrish.’

‘And the warehouse?’

A vague twinge of doubt touched Brendan. ‘Why is it you need Cal?’

‘I told you. A prize.’

‘Oh yes. A prize.’

‘Something to take his breath away. The warehouse, Brendan. We have a deal, after all. Fair’s fair.’

Brendan put his hand into his pocket. The letter was still warm. There was no harm in making bargains with angels, was there? What could be safer?

He named the warehouse.

‘They only went for a carpet –’ Brendan said.

The receiver clicked.

‘Are you still there?’ he said.

But the divine messenger was probably already winging his way.





IX (#litres_trial_promo)






FINDERS KEEPERS (#litres_trial_promo)

1





ilchrist’s Second-Hand Furniture Warehouse had once been a cinema, in the years when cinemas were still palatial follies. A folly it remained, with its mock-rococo facade, and the unlikely dome perched on its roof; but there was nothing remotely palatial about it now. It stood within a stone’s throw of the Dock Road, the only property left in its block that remained in use. The rest were either boarded up or burned out.

Standing at the corner of Jamaica Street, staring across at the dereliction, Cal wondered if the late Mr Gilchrist would have been proud to have his name emblazoned across such a decayed establishment. Business could not flourish here, unless they were the kind of dealings best done out of the public eye.

The opening times of the warehouse were displayed on a weather-beaten board, where the cinema had once announced its current fare. Sundays, it was open between nine-thirty and twelve. It was now one-fifteen. The double-doors were closed and bolted, and a pair of huge ironwork gates, a grotesque addition to the facade, padlocked in front of the doors.

‘What are your house-breaking skills like?’ Cal asked Suzanna.

‘Under-developed,’ she replied. ‘But I’m a fast learner.’

They crossed Jamaica Street for a closer inspection. There was little need to pretend innocence; there had been no pedestrians on the street since they’d arrived, and traffic was minimal.

‘There must be some way in,’ said Suzanna. ‘You head round the far side. I’ll go this way.’

‘Right. Meet you at the back.’

They parted. Whereas Cal’s route had taken him into shadow, Suzanna’s left her in bright sunlight. Oddly, she found herself longing for some clouds. The heat was making her blood sing, as though she was tuned in to some alien radio-station, and its melodies were whining around her skull.

As she listened to them Cal stepped around the corner, startling her.

‘I’ve found a way,’ he said, and led her round to what had once been the cinema’s emergency exit. It too was padlocked, but both chain and lock were well rusted. He had already found himself half a brick, with which he now berated the lock. Brick-shards flew off in all directions, but after a dozen blows the chain surrendered, Cal put his shoulder to the door, and pushed. There was a commotion from inside, as a mirror and several other items piled against the door toppled over; but he was able to force a gap large enough for them to squeeze through.




2


The interior was a kind of Purgatory, in which thousands of household items – armchairs, wardrobes, lamps large and small, curtains, rugs – awaited Judgment, piled up in dusty wretchedness. The place stank of its occupants; of things claimed by woodworm and rot and sheer usage; of once fine pieces now so age-worn even their makers would not have given them house room.

And beneath the smell of decrepitude, something more bitter and more human. The scent of sweat perhaps, soaked up by the boards of a sick bed, or in the fabric of a lamp that had burned through a night whose endurer had known no morning. Not a place to linger too long.

They separated once more, for speed’s sake.

‘Anything that looks promising,’ Cal said, ‘holler.’

He was now eclipsed by piles of furniture.

The whine in Suzanna’s skull did not die down once she was out of the sun; it worsened. Maybe it was the enormity of the task before them that made her head spin, like an impossible quest from some faery-tale, seeking a particle of magic in the wilderness of decay.

The same thought, though formulated differently, was passing through Cal’s mind. The more he searched, the more he doubted his memory. Maybe it hadn’t been Gilchrist they’d named; or perhaps the removal men had decided the profit made bringing the carpet here would not repay their effort.

As he turned a corner, he heard a scraping sound from behind a stack of furniture.

‘Suzanna?’ he said. The word went out and returned unanswered. The noise had already faded behind him, but it had sent adrenalin rushing through his system, and it was with speedier step that he made his way to the next mountain of goods and chattels. Even before he came within five yards of it his eyes had alighted upon the rolled carpet that was all but concealed beneath half a dozen dining chairs and a chest of drawers. All of these items lacked price-tags, which suggested they were recent, unsorted acquisitions.

He went down on his knees and pulled at the edge of the carpet, in an attempt to see the design. The border was damaged, the weave weak. When he pulled he felt strands snap. But he could see enough to confirm what his gut already knew: that this was the carpet from Rue Street, the carpet which Mimi Laschenski had lived and died protecting; the carpet of the Fugue.

He stood up and started to unpile the chairs, deaf to the sound of approaching footsteps at his back.




3


The first thing Suzanna saw was a shadow on the ground. She looked up.

A face appeared between two wardrobes, only to move off again before she could call it by its name.

Mimi! It was Mimi.

She walked over to the wardrobes. There was no sign of anyone. Was she losing her sanity? First the din in her head, now hallucinations?

And yet, why were they here if they didn’t believe in miracles? Doubt was drowned in a sudden rush of hope – that the dead might somehow break the seal on the invisible world and come amongst the living.

She called her grandmother’s name, softly. And she was granted an answer. Not in words, but in the scent of lavender water. Off to her left, down a corridor of piled tea-chests, a ball of dust rolled and came to rest. She went towards it, or rather towards the source of the breeze that had carried it, the scent getting stronger with every step she took.




4


‘That’s my property, I believe,’ said the voice at Cal’s back. He turned. Shadwell was standing a few feet from him. His jacket was unbuttoned.

‘Perhaps you’d stand aside, Mooney, and let me claim what’s mine.’

Cal wished he’d had the presence of mind to come here armed. At that moment he’d have had no hesitation in stabbing Shadwell through his gleaming eye and calling himself a hero for it. As it was, all he had were his bare hands. They’d have to suffice.

He took a step towards Shadwell, but as he did so the man stood aside. There was somebody standing behind him. One of the sisters, no doubt; or their bastards.

Cal didn’t wait to see, but turned and picked up one of the chairs from those dumped on the carpet. His action brought a small avalanche; chairs spilling between him and the enemy. He threw the one he held towards the shadowy form that had taken Shadwell’s place. He picked up a second, and threw it the way of the first, but now the target had disappeared into the labyrinth of furniture. So had the Salesman.

Cal turned, his muscles fired, and put his back into shifting the chest of drawers. He succeeded; the chest toppled backwards, knocking over several other pieces as it fell. He was glad of the commotion; perhaps it would draw Suzanna’s attention. Now he reached to take possession of the carpet, but as he did so something seized him from behind. He was dragged bodily from his prize, a small section of the carpet coming away in his hand, then he was flung across the floor.

He came to a halt against a pile of ornately framed paintings and photographs, several of which toppled and smashed. He lay amid the litter of glass for a moment to catch his breath, but the next sight snatched it from him again.

The by-blow was coming at him out of the gloom.

‘Get up!’ it told him.

He was dead to its instruction, his attention claimed by the face before him. It wasn’t Elroy’s off-spring, though this monstrosity also had its father’s features. No; this child was his.

The horror he’d glimpsed, stirring from the lullaby he’d heard lying in the dirt of the rubbish tip, had been all too real. The sisters had squeezed his seed from him, and this beast with his face was the consequence.

It was not a fine likeness. Its naked body was entirely hairless, and there were several horrid distortions – the fingers of one hand were twice their natural length, and those of the other half-inch stumps, while from the shoulder blades eruptions of matter sprang like malformed wings – parodies, perhaps, of the creatures his dreams envied.

It was made in more of its father’s image than the other beasts had been, however, and faced with himself, he hesitated.

It was enough, that hesitation, to give the beast the edge. It leapt at him, seizing his throat with its long-fingered hand, its touch without a trace of warmth, its mouth sucking at his as if to steal the breath from his lips.

It intended patricide, no doubt of that; its grip was unconditional. He felt his legs weaken, and the child allowed him to collapse to his knees, following him down. The knuckles of his fingers brushed against the glass shards, and he made a fumbling attempt to pick one up, but between mind and hand the instruction lost urgency. The weapon dropped from his hand.

Somewhere, in that place of breath and light from which he was outcast, he heard Shadwell laughing. Then the sound stopped, and he was staring at his own face, which looked back at him as if from a corrupted mirror. His eyes, which he’d always liked for the paleness of their colour; the mouth, which though it had been an embarrassment to him as a child because he’d thought it too girlish, he’d now trained into a modicum of severity when the occasion demanded, and which was, he was told, capable of a winning smile. The ears, large and protuberant: a comedian’s ears on a face that warranted something sleeker …

Probably most people slip out of the world with such trivialities in their heads. Certainly it was that way for Cal.

Thinking of his ears, the undertow took hold of him and dragged him down.




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THE MENSTRUUM (#litres_trial_promo)





uzanna knew the instant before she stepped into what had once been the cinema foyer that this was an error. Even then, she might have retreated, but that she heard Mimi’s voice speak her name and before any argument could stay her step her feet had carried her through the door.

The foyer was darker than the main warehouse, but she could see the vague figure of her grandmother standing beside the boarded-up box-office.

‘Mimi?’ she said, her mind a blur of contrary impressions.

‘Here I am,’ said the old lady, and opened her arms to Suzanna.

The proffered embrace was also an error of judgment, but on the part of the enemy. Gestures of physical affection had not been Mimi’s forte in life, and Suzanna saw no reason to suppose her grandmother would have changed her habits upon expiring.

‘You’re not Mimi,’ she said.

‘I know it’s a surprise, seeing me,’ the would-be ghost replied. The voice was soft as a feather-fall. ‘But there’s nothing to be afraid of.’

‘Who are you?’

‘You know who I am,’ came the response.

Suzanna didn’t linger for any further words of seduction, but turned to retrace her path. There were perhaps three yards between her and the exit, but now they seemed as many miles. She tried to take a step on that long road, but the commotion in her head suddenly rose to deafening proportions.

The presence behind her had no intention of letting her escape. It sought a confrontation, and it was a waste of effort to defy it. So she turned and looked.

The mask was melting, though there was ice in the eyes that emerged from behind it, not fire. She knew the face, and though she’d not thought herself ready to brave its fury yet, she was strangely elated by the sight. The last shreds of Mimi evaporated, and Immacolata stood revealed.

‘My sister …’ she said, the air around her dancing to her words. ‘… my sister the Hag had me play that part. She thought she saw Mimi in your face. She was right, wasn’t she? You’re her child.’

‘Grandchild,’ Suzanna murmured.

‘Child,’ came the certain reply.

Suzanna stared at the woman before her, fascinated by the masterwork of grief half-concealed in those features. Immacolata flinched at her scrutiny.

‘How dare you pity me?’ she said, as if she’d read Suzanna’s thought, and on the words something leapt from her face.

It came too fast for Suzanna to see what it was; she had time only to throw herself out of its whining path. The wall behind her shook as it was struck. The next instant the face was spilling more brightness towards her.

Suzanna was not afraid. The display only elated her further. This time, as the brightness came her way, her instinct overruled all constraints of sanity, and she put her hand out as if to catch the light.

It was like plunging her arm into a torrent of ice-water. A torrent in which innumerable fish were swimming, fast, fast, against the flood; swimming to spawn. She closed her fist, snatching at this brimming tide, and pulled.

The action had three consequences. One, a cry from Immacolata. Two, the sudden cessation of the din in Suzanna’s head. Three, all that her hand had felt – the chill, the torment and the shoal it contained – all of that was suddenly within her. Her body was the flood. Not the body of flesh and bone, but some other anatomy, made more of thought than of substance, and more ancient than either. Somehow it had recognized itself in Immacolata’s assault, and thrown off its sleep.

Never in her life had she felt so complete. In the face of this feeling all other ambition – for happiness, for pleasure, for power – all others faded.

She looked back at Immacolata, and her new eyes saw not an enemy but a woman possessed of the same torrent that ran in her own veins. A woman twisted and full of anguish but for all that more like her than not.

‘That was stupid,’ said the Incantatrix.

‘Was it?’ said Suzanna. She didn’t think so.

‘Better you remained unfound. Better you never tasted the menstruum.’

‘The menstruum?’

‘Now you’ll know more than you wish to know, feel more than you ever wanted to feel.’ There seemed to be something approximating pity in Immacolata’s voice. ‘So the grief begins,’ she said. ‘And it will never end. Believe me. You should have lived and died a Cuckoo.’

‘Is that how Mimi died?’ said Suzanna.

The ice eyes flickered. ‘She knew what risks she took. She had Seerkind blood, and that’s always run freely. You’re of their blood too, through that bitch grand-dam of yours.’

‘Seerkind?’ So many new words. ‘Are they the Fugue people?’

‘They’re dead people,’ came the reply. ‘Don’t look to them for answers. They’re dust soon enough. Gone the way everything in this stinking Kingdom goes. To dirt and mediocrity. We’ll see to that. You’re alone. Like she was.’

That ‘we’ reminded her of the Salesman, and the potency of the coat he wore.

‘Is Shadwell a Seerkind?’ she asked.

‘Him?’ The thought was apparently preposterous. ‘No. Any power he’s got’s my gift.’

‘Why?’ said Suzanna. She understood little of Immacolata, but enough to know that she and Shadwell were not a perfect match.

‘He taught me …’ the Incantatrix began, her hand moving up to her face, ‘… he taught me, the show.’ The hand passed across her features, and upon reappearing she was smiling, almost warmly. ‘You’ll need that now.’

‘And for that you’re his mistress?’

The sound that came from the woman might have been a laugh; but only might. ‘I leave love to the Magdalene, sister. She’s an appetite for it. Ask Mooney –’

Cal. She’d forgotten Cal.

‘– if he has the breath to answer.’

Suzanna glanced back towards the door.

‘Go on …’ said Immacolata, ‘… go find him. I won’t stop you.’

The brightness in her, the menstruum, knew the Incantatrix was telling the truth. That flood was part of them both now. It bonded them in ways Suzanna could not yet guess at.

‘The battle’s already lost, sister.’ Immacolata murmured as Suzanna reached the threshold. ‘While you indulged your curiosity, the Fugue’s fallen into our hands.’

Suzanna stepped back into the warehouse, fear beginning for the first time. Not for herself, but for Cal. She yelled his name into the murk.

‘Too late …’ said the woman behind her.

‘Cal!’

There was no reply. She started to search for him, calling his name at intervals, her anxiety growing with each unanswered shout. The place was a maze; twice she found herself in a location she’d already searched.

It was the glitter of broken glass that drew her attention; and then, lying face down a little way from it, Cal. Before she got close enough to touch him she sensed the profundity of his stillness.

He was too brittle, the menstruum in her said. You know how these Cuckoos are.

She rejected the thought. It wasn’t hers.

‘Don’t be dead.’

That was hers. It slipped from her as she knelt down beside him, a plea to his silence.

‘Please God, don’t be dead.’

She was frightened to touch him, for fear of discovering the worst, all the while knowing that she was the only help he had. His head was turned towards her, his eyes closed, his mouth open, trailing blood-tinged spittle. Instinctively, her hand went to his hair, as if she might stroke him awake, but pragmatism had not entirely deserted her, and instead her fingers sought the pulse in his neck. It was weak.

So the grief begins, Immacolata had said, mere minutes before. Had she known, even as she offered that prophecy, that Cal was half way to dying already?

Of course she’d known. Known, and welcomed the grief this would bring, because she wanted Suzanna’s pleasure in the menstruum soured from its discovery; wanted them sisters in sorrow.

Distracted by the realization she focused again on Cal to find that her hand had left his neck and was once again stroking his hair. Why was she doing this? He wasn’t a sleeping child. He was hurt; he needed more concrete help. But even as she rebuked herself she felt the menstruum start to rise from her lower abdomen, washing her entrails, and lungs and heart, and moving – without any conscious instruction – down her arm towards Cal. Before, it had been indifferent to his wounding; you know how these Cuckoos are, it had said to her. But her rage, or perhaps her sadness, had chastened it. Now she felt its energies carry her need to wake him, to heal him, through the palm of her hand and into his sealed head.

It was both an extraordinary sensation, and one she felt perfectly at ease with. When, at the last moment, it seemed not to want to go, she pressed it forward and it obeyed her, its stream flowing into him. It was hers to control, she realized, with a rush of exhilaration, which was followed immediately by an ache of loss as the body below her drank the torment down.

He was greedy for healing. Her joints began to jitter as the menstruum ran from her, and in her skull that alien song rose like a dozen sirens. She tried to take her hand from his head, but her muscles wouldn’t obey the imperative. The menstruum had taken charge of her body, it seemed. She’d been too hasty, assuming control would be easy. It was deliberately depleting itself, to teach her not to press it.

An instant before she passed out, it decided enough was enough, and removed her hand. The flow was abruptly stemmed. She put her shaking hands up to her face, Cal’s scent on her fingertips. By degrees the whine in her skull wound down. The faintness began to pass.

‘Are you all right?’ Cal asked her.

She dropped her hands and looked across at him. He’d raised himself from the ground, and was now gingerly investigating his bloodied mouth.

‘I think so,’ she said. ‘You?’

‘I’ll do,’ he replied. ‘I don’t know what happened …’ The words trailed away as the memory came back, and a look of alarm crossed his face.

‘The carpet –’

He hauled himself to his feet, looking all around.

‘– I had it in my hand,’ he said. ‘Jesus, I had it in my hand!’

‘They’ve taken it!’ she said.

She thought he was going to cry, the way his features crumpled up, but it was rage that emerged.

‘Fucking Shadwell!’ he shouted, sweeping a copse of table-lamps off the top of a chest-of-drawers. ‘I’ll kill him! I swear–’

She stood up still feeling giddy, and her downcast eyes caught sight of something in the litter of broken glass beneath their feet – she stooped again; cleared the fragments, and there was a piece of the carpet. She picked it up.

‘They didn’t get it all,’ she said, offering the find to Cal.

The anger melted from his face. He took it from her almost reverentially, and studied it. There were half a dozen motifs worked into the piece, though he could make no sense of them.

Suzanna watched him. He held the fragment so delicately, as though it might bruise. Then he sniffed, hard, and wiped his nose with the back of his hand.

‘Fucking Shadwell,’ he said again, but softly now; numbly.

‘What do we do now?’ she wondered aloud.

He looked up at her. This time there were tears in his eyes.

‘Get out of here,’ he said. ‘See what the sky says.’

‘Huh?’

He offered a tiny smile.

‘Sorry,’ he said. ‘Must be Mad Mooney talking.’




Part Three (#ulink_3c89d071-0a2b-56b2-a67b-87bf2d81e7a8)

The Exiles (#ulink_3c89d071-0a2b-56b2-a67b-87bf2d81e7a8)


‘Wandering between two worlds, one dead, The other powerless to be born.’

Matthew Arnold

The Grande Chartreuse




I (#litres_trial_promo)






THE RIVER (#litres_trial_promo)





he defeat they’d sustained was utter. The Salesman had snatched the Weave from Cal’s very fingers. But, though they had nothing to be jubilant about, they had at least survived the clash. Was it simply that fact that made his spirits rise when they stepped out of the warehouse into the warm air?

It smelt of the Mersey; of silt and salt. And it was there – at Suzanna’s instigation – they went. They walked without exchanging a word, down Jamaica Street to the Dock Road, then followed the high, black wall that bounded the docks until they found a gate that gave them access to the wharfs. The region was deserted. It was years since the last of the big cargo vessels had berthed here to unload. They wandered through a ghost-town of empty warehouses to the river itself, Cal’s gaze creeping back, and back again, to the face of the woman at his side. There was some change in her, he sensed; some freight of hidden feeling which he couldn’t unlock.

The poet had something to say on the subject.

‘Lost for words, boy?’ he piped up in Cal’s head. ‘She’s a strange one, isn’t she?’

That was certainly the truth. From his first sight of her at the bottom of the stairs, she’d seemed haunted. They had that in common. They shared too the same determination, fuelled perhaps by an unspoken fear that they’d lose sight of the mystery they’d dreamt of for so long. Or was he kidding himself, reading lines from his own story into her face? Was it just his eagerness to find an ally that made him see similarities between them?

She was staring into the river, snakes of sunlight from the water playing on her face. He’d known her only a night and a day, but she awoke in him the same contradictions – unease and profound contentment; a sense that she was both familiar and unknown – that his first glimpse of the Fugue had aroused.

He wanted to tell her this, and more, if he could just find the words.

But it was Suzanna who spoke first.

‘I saw Immacolata,’ she said, ‘while you were facing Shadwell …’

‘Yes?’

‘… I don’t quite know how to explain what happened …’

She began haltingly, still staring at the river as though mesmerized by its motion. He understood some of what she was telling him. That Mimi was part of the Seerkind, the occupants of the Fugue; and Suzanna, her granddaughter, had that people’s blood in her. But when she began to talk about the menstruum, the power she’d somehow inherited, or plugged into, or both, he lost any hold on what she was saying. In part because her talk became vaguer, dreamier; in part because staring at her as she struggled to find the words for her feelings gave him the words for his own.

‘I love you,’ he said. She had stopped trying to describe the torrent of the menstruum; just given herself over to the rhythm of the water as it lapped against the wharf.

He wasn’t sure she’d heard him. She didn’t move; didn’t speak.

Finally, she just said his name.

He suddenly felt foolish. She didn’t want professions of love from him; her thoughts were somewhere else entirely. In the Fugue, perhaps, where – after this afternoon’s revelations – she had more right to be than he.

‘I’m sorry,’ he muttered, attempting to cover his faux pas with further fumblings. ‘I don’t know why I said that. Forget I spoke.’

His denial stung her from her trance. Her gaze left the river. and found his face, a look of hurt in her eyes, as though drawing her gaze from its brilliance pained her.

‘Don’t say that,’ she said. ‘Never say that.’

She stepped towards him, and put her arms around him, holding him hard. He answered the demand and hugged her in return. Her face was hot against his neck, wetting him not with kisses but with tears. They didn’t speak, but stood like that for several minutes, while the river flowed on at their side.

Eventually he said:

‘Shall we go back to the house?’

She stepped back and looked at him, seeming to study his face.

‘Is it all over; or just beginning?’ she asked.

He shook his head.

She made a tiny, sideways glance back at the river. But before its liquid life could claim her again he took hold of her hand and led her back towards the concrete and the brick.




II (#litres_trial_promo)






WAKING IN THE DARK (#litres_trial_promo)





hey returned – through a dusk that had autumn in its hollows – to Chariot Street. There they scoured the kitchen for something to placate their growling stomachs – ate – then retired to Cal’s room with a bottle of whisky they’d bought on the way back. The intended debate on what they should do next soon faltered. A mixture of tiredness, and an unease generated by the scene at the river, made the conversation hesitant. They circled the same territory over and over, but there were no inspirations as to how they should proceed.

The only token they had of their adventures to date was the carpet fragment, and it offered up no clues.

The exchange dwindled, half-finished sentences punctuated by longer and still longer silences.

Around eleven, Brendan came home, hailing Cal from below, then retired to bed. His arrival stirred Suzanna.

‘I should go,’ she said. ‘It’s late.’

The thought of the room without her made Cal’s heart sink.

‘Why not stay?’ he said.

‘It’s a small bed,’ she replied.

‘But it’s comfortable.’

She put her hand to his face, and brushed the bruised place around his mouth.

‘We’re not meant to be lovers,’ she said quietly. ‘We’re too much alike.’

It was bluntly put, and it hurt to have it said, but in the same moment as having any sexual ambition dampened he had a different, and finally more profound, hope confirmed. That they belonged together in this enterprise: she the child of the Fugue, he the innocent trespasser. Against the brief pleasure of making love to her he set the grander adventure, and he knew – despite the dissension from his cock – that he had the better of the deal.

‘Then we’ll sleep,’ he said. ‘If you want to stay.’

She smiled. ‘I want to stay,’ she said.

They stripped off their dirty clothing, and slipped beneath the covers. Sleep was upon them before the lamp had cooled.

It was not empty sleep; far from it. There were dreams. Or rather, a particular dream which filled both their heads.

They dreamt a noise. A planet of bees, all buzzing fit to burst their honeyed hearts; a rising swell that was summer’s music.

They dreamt smell. A confusion of scents; of streets after rain, and faded cologne, and wind out of a warm country.

But most of all, they dreamt sight.

It began with a pattern: a knotting and weaving of countless strands, dyed in a hundred colours, carrying a charge of energy which so dazzled the sleepers they had to shield their minds’ eyes.

And then, as if the pattern was becoming too ambitious to hold its present order, the knots began to slide and slip. The colours at each intersection bled into the air, until the vision was obscured in a soup of pigments through which the loosed strands described their liberty in line and comma and dot, like the brushstrokes of some master calligrapher. At first the marks seemed quite arbitrary – but as each trace drew colour to itself, and another stroke was laid upon it, and another upon that, it became apparent that forms were steadily emerging from the chaos.

Where, dream-moments ago, there’d been only warp and weft, there were now five distinct human forms appearing from the flux, the invisible artist adding detail to the portraits with insolent facility.

And now the voices of the bees rose, singing in the sleeper’s heads gave names to these strangers.

The first of the quintet to be called was a young woman in a long, dark dress, her small face pale, her closed eyes fringed with ginger lashes. This, the bees said, is Lilia Pellicia.

As if waking to her name, Lilia opened her eyes.

As she did so a rotund, bearded individual in his fifties, a coat draped over his shoulders and a brimmed hat on his head, stepped forward. Frederick Cammell the bees said, and the eyes behind the coin-sized lenses of his spectacles snapped open. His hand went to his hat immediately, and took it off, to reveal a head of immaculately coiffured hair, oiled to his scalp.

‘So …’ he said, and smiled.

Two more now. One, impatient to be free from this world of dyes, was also dressed as if for a wake. (What happened, the dreamers wondered, to the brilliance that the strands had first bled? Were those colours hidden somewhere beneath this funereal garb: in parrot-bright petticoats?) The dour face of this third visitor did not suggest a taste for such indulgence.

Apolline Dubois the bees announced, and the woman opened her eyes, the scowl that instantly came to her face displaying teeth the colour of old ivory.

The last members of this assembly arrived together. One, a negro whose fine face, even in repose, was shaped for melancholy. The other, the naked baby he held in his arms, drooling on his protector’s shirt.

Jerichau St Louis the bees said, and the negro opened his eyes. He immediately looked down at the child he held, who had begun to bawl even before his name was heard.

Nimrod the bees called, and though the baby was surely not yet a year old, he already knew the two syllables of his name. He raised his lids, to reveal eyes that had a distinctly golden cast to them.

His waking brought the process to an end. The colours, the bees and the threads all retreated, their tide leaving the five strangers stranded in Cal’s room.

It was Apolline Dubois who spoke first.

‘This can’t be right,’ she said, making for the window and pulling back the curtains. ‘Where the Hell are we?’

‘And where are the others?’ said Frederick Cammell. His eyes had found the mirror on the wall, and he was scrutinizing himself in it. Tutting, he took a pair of scissors from his pocket and began to snip at some overlong hairs on his cheek.

‘That’s a point,’ said Jerichau. Then, to Apolline: ‘What does it look like out there?’

‘Deserted,’ said the woman. ‘It’s the middle of the night. And …’

‘What?’

‘Look for yourself,’ she said, sucking spit through her broken teeth, ‘there’s something amiss here.’ She turned from the window. ‘Things aren’t the way they were.’

It was Lilia Pellicia who took Apolline’s place at the sill. ‘She’s right,’ the girl said. ‘Things are different.’

‘And why’s it only us who are here?’ Frederick asked for the second time. ‘That’s the real point.’

‘Something’s happened,’ said Lilia, softly. ‘Something terrible.’

‘No doubt you feel it in your kidneys,’ Apolline remarked. ‘As usual.’

‘Let’s keep it civil. Miss Dubois,’ said Frederick, with the pained expression of a school master.

‘Don’t call me Miss,’ Apolline said. ‘I’m a married woman.’

Immersed in sleep, Cal and Suzanna listened to these exchanges, entertained by the nonsenses their imaginations had conjured up. Yet for all the oddity of these people – their antiquated clothes, their names, their absurd conversations – they were uncannily real; every detail perfectly realized. And as though to confuse the dreamers further, the man the bees had called Jerichau now looked towards the bed, and said:

‘Perhaps they can tell us something.’

Lilia turned her pale gaze towards the slumbering pair.

‘We should wake them,’ she said, and reached to shake the sleepers.

‘This is no dream,’ Suzanna realized, as she pictured Lilia’s hand approaching her shoulder. She felt herself rising from sleep; and as the girl’s fingers touched her, she opened her eyes.

The curtains had been pulled apart as she’d imagined they’d been. The street lamps cast their light into the little room. And there, standing watching the bed, were the five: her dream made flesh. She sat up. The sheet slipped, and the gaze of both Jerichau and the child Nimrod flitted to her breasts. She pulled the sheet over her and in so doing uncovered Cal. The chill stirred him. He peered at her through barely open eyes.

‘What’s going on?’ he asked, his voice slurred by sleep.

‘Wake up,’ she said. ‘We’ve got visitors.’

‘I had this dream … he muttered. Then, ‘Visitors?’ He looked up at her, following her gaze into the room.

‘Oh sweet Jesus …’

The child was laughing in Jerichau’s arms, pointing a stubby finger at Cal’s piss-proud groin. He snatched up a pillow and concealed his enthusiasm.

‘Is this one of Shadwell’s tricks?’ he whispered.

‘I don’t think so,’ said Suzanna.

‘Who’s Shadwell?’ Apolline wanted to know.

‘Another Cuckoo, no doubt,’ said Frederick, who had his scissors at the ready should either of these two prove belligerent.

At the word Cuckoo, Suzanna began to understand. Immacolata had first used the term, speaking of Humankind.

‘… the Fugue …’ she said.

Naming the place had every eye upon her, and Jerichau demanding:

‘What do you know about the Fugue?’

‘Not much,’ she replied.

‘You know where the others are?’ Frederick asked.

‘What others?’

‘And the land?’ said Lilia. ‘Where is it all?’

Cal had taken his eyes off the quintet and was looking at the table beside the bed, where he’d left the fragment of the Weave. It had gone.

‘They came from that piece of carpet,’ he said, not quite believing what he was saying.

‘That was what I dreamt.’

‘I dreamt it too,’ said Suzanna.

‘A piece of the carpet?’ said Frederick, aghast. ‘You mean we’re separated?’

‘Yes,’ Cal replied.

‘Where’s the rest?’ Apolline said. ‘Take us to it.’

‘We don’t know where it is,’ said Cal. ‘Shadwell’s got it.’

‘Damn Cuckoos!’ the woman erupted. ‘You can’t trust any of them. All twisters and cheats!’

‘He’s not alone,’ Suzanna replied. ‘His partner’s one of your breed.’

‘I doubt that,’ said Frederick.

‘It’s true. Immacolata.’

The name brought an exclamation of horror from both Frederick and Jerichau. Apolline, ever the lady, simply spat on the floor.

‘Have they not hanged that bitch yet?’ she said.

‘Twice to my certain knowledge,’ Jerichau replied.

‘She takes it as flattery,’ Lilia remarked.

Cal shuddered. He was cold and tired; he wanted dreams of sun-lit hills and bright rivers, not these mourners, their faces riddled with spite and suspicion. Ignoring their stares, he threw away the pillow, walked over to where his clothes lay on the floor and started to pull on his shirt and jeans.

‘And where are the Custodians?’ said Frederick, addressing the entire room. ‘Does anyone know that?’

‘My grandmother …’ said Suzanna. ‘… Mimi …’

‘Yes?’ said Frederick, homing in, ‘where’s she?’

‘Dead, I’m afraid.’

‘There were other Custodians,’ said Lilia, infected by Frederick’s urgency. ‘Where are they?’

‘I don’t know.’

‘You were right,’ said Jerichau, his expression almost tragic. ‘Something terrible has happened.’

Lilia returned to the window, and threw it open.

‘Can you sniff it out?’ Frederick asked her. ‘Is it nearby?’

Lilia shook her head. ‘The air stinks,’ she said. ‘This isn’t the old Kingdom. It’s cold. Cold and filthy.’

Cal, who’d dressed by now, pushed his way between Frederick and Apolline, and picked up the bottle of whisky.

‘Want a drink?’ he said to Suzanna.

She shook her head. He poured himself a generous measure, and drank.

‘We have to find this Shadwell of yours,’ Jerichau said to Suzanna, ‘and get the weave back.’

‘What’s the hurry?’ said Apolline, with a perverse nonchalance. She waddled over to Cal. ‘Mind if I partake?’ she said. Reluctantly, he handed her the bottle.

‘What do you mean: what’s the hurry?’ Frederick said. ‘We wake up in the middle of nowhere, alone –’

‘We’re not alone,’ said Apolline, swallowing a gulletful of whisky. ‘We’ve got our friends here.’ She cocked a lopsided smile at Cal. ‘What’s your name, sweet?’

‘Calhoun.’

‘And her?’

‘Suzanna.’

‘I’m Apolline. This is Freddy.’

Cammell made a small formal bow.

‘That’s Lilia Pellicia over there, and the brat is her brother, Nimrod –’

‘And I’m Jerichau.’

‘There,’ said Apolline. ‘Now we’re all friends, right? We don’t need the rest of them. Let ’em rot.’

‘They’re our people,’ Jerichau reminded her. ‘And they need our help.’

‘Is that why they left us in the Border?’ she retorted sourly, the whisky bottle hovering at her lips again. ‘No. They put us where we could get lost, and don’t try and make any better of it. We’re the dirt. Bandits and bawds and God knows what else.’ She looked at Cal. ‘Oh yes,’ she said. ‘You’ve fallen amongst thieves. We were a shame to them. Every one of us.’ Then, to the others:

‘It’s better we’re separated. We get to have some wild times.’

As she spoke Cal seemed to see flashes of iridescence ignite in the folds of her widow’s weeds. ‘There’s a whole world out there,’ she said. ‘Ours to enjoy.’

‘Lost is still lost,’ said Jerichau.

Apolline’s reply was a bullish snort.

‘He’s right,’ said Freddy. ‘Without the weave, we’re refugees. You know how much the Cuckoos hate us. Always have. Always will.’

‘You’re damn fools,’ said Apolline, and returned to the window, taking the whisky with her.

‘We’re a little out of touch,’ Freddy said to Cal. ‘Maybe you could tell us what year this is? 1910? 1911?’

Cal laughed. ‘Give or take eighty years,’ he said.

The other man visibly paled, turning his face to the wall. Lilia let out a pained sound, as though she’d been stabbed. Shaking, she sat down on the edge of the bed.

‘Eighty years …’ Jerichau murmured.

‘Why did they wait so long?’ Freddy asked of the hushed room. ‘What happened that they should wait so long?’

‘Please stop talking in riddles –’ Suzanna said, ‘– and explain.’

‘We can’t,’ said Freddy. ‘You’re not Seerkind.’

‘Oh don’t talk such drivel,’ Apolline snapped. ‘Where’s the harm?’

‘Tell them, Lilia,’ said Jerichau.

‘I protest,’ Freddy said.

‘Tell them as much as they need to know,’ said Apolline. ‘If you tell it all we’re here ’til Doomsday.’

Lilia sighed. ‘Why me?’ she said, still shaking. ‘Why should I have to tell it?’

‘Because you’re the best liar,’ Jerichau replied, with a tight smile. ‘You can make it true.’

She threw him a baleful glance.

‘Very well,’ she said; and began to tell.




III (#litres_trial_promo)






WHAT SHE TOLD (#litres_trial_promo)





e weren’t always lost,’ she began. ‘Once we lived in a garden.’

Two sentences in, and Apolline was interrupting.

‘That’s just a story,’ she informed Cal and Suzanna.

‘So let her tell it, damn you!’ Jerichau told her.

‘Believe nothing,’ Apolline advised. ‘This woman wouldn’t know the truth if it fucked her.’

In response, Lilia merely passed her tongue over her lips, and took up where she’d left off.

‘It was a garden,’ she said. ‘That’s where the Families began.’

‘What Families?’ said Cal.

‘The Four Roots of the Seerkind. The Lo; the Ye-me; the Aia and Babu. The Families from which we’re all descended. Some of us came by grubbier roads than others, of course –’ she said, casting a barbed glance at Apolline. ‘– but all of us can trace our line back to one of those four. Me and Nimrod; we’re Ye-me. It was our Root that wove the carpet.’

‘And look where it got us,’ Cammell growled. ‘Serves us right for trusting weavers. Clever fingers and dull minds. Now the Aia – that’s my Root – we have the craft and the grasp.’

‘And you?’ said Cal to Apolline, reaching over and retrieving his bottle. It had at best two swallows of spirits left in it.

‘Aia on my mother’s side,’ the woman replied. That’s what gave me my singing voice. And on my father’s, nobody’s really sure. He could dance a rapture, could my father –’

‘When he was sober,’ said Freddy.

‘What would you know?’ Apolline grimaced. ‘You never met my father.’

‘Once was enough for your mother,’ Freddy replied in an instant. The baby laughed uproariously at this, though the sense of it was well beyond his years.

‘Anyhow,’ said Apolline. ‘He could dance; which meant he had Lo blood in him somewhere.’

‘And Babu too, by the way you talk,’ said Lilia.

Here, Jerichau broke in. ‘I’m Babu,’ he said. ‘Take it from me, breath’s too precious to waste.’

Breath. Dancing. Music. Carpets. Cal tried to keep track of these skills and the Families who possessed them, but it was like trying to remember the Kellaway clan.

‘The point is,’ said Lilia, ‘all the Families had skills that Humankind don’t possess. Powers you’d call miraculous. To us they’re no more remarkable than the fact that bread rises. They’re just ways to delve and summon.’

‘Raptures?’ said Cal. ‘Is that what you called them?’

‘That’s right,’ said Lilia. ‘We had them from the beginning. Thought nothing of it. At least not until we came into the Kingdom. Then we realized that your kind like to make laws. Like to decree what’s what, and whether it’s good or not. And the world, being a loving thing, and not wishing to disappoint you or distress you, indulges you. Behaves as though your doctrines are in some way absolute.’

‘That’s arguable metaphysics,’ Freddy muttered.

‘The laws of the Kingdom are the Cuckoo’s laws,’ said Lilia. ‘That’s one of Capra’s Tenets.’

‘Then Capra was wrong,’ came Freddy’s reply.

‘Seldom,’ said Lilia. ‘And not about this. The world behaves the way the Cuckoos choose to describe it. Out of courtesy. That’s been proved. Until somebody comes up with a better idea –’

‘Wait a minute,’ said Suzanna. ‘Are you saying the earth somehow listens to us?’

‘That was Capra’s opinion.’

‘And who’s Capra?’

‘A great man –’

‘Or woman,’ said Apolline.

‘Who may or may not have lived,’ Freddy went on.

‘But, even if she didn’t –’ Apolline said, ‘– had a great deal to say for herself.’

‘Which answers nothing,’ said Suzanna.

‘That’s Capra for you,’ said Cammell.

‘Go on, Lilia,’ said Cal. ‘Tell the rest of the story.’

She began again:

‘So there’s you. Humankind, with all your laws and your perimeters and your bottomless envy; and there’s us, the Families of the Seerkind. As different from you as day from night.’

‘Not so different,’ said Jerichau. ‘We lived amongst them once, remember that.’

‘And we were treated like filth,’ said Lilia, with some feeling.

‘True,’ said Jerichau.

‘The skills we had,’ she went on. ‘you Cuckoos called magic. Some of them wanted it for themselves. Some were afraid of it. But few loved us for it. Cities were small then, you must understand. It was difficult to hide in them. So we retreated. Into the forests and the hills, where we thought we’d be safe.’

‘There were many of us who’d never ventured amongst the Cuckoos in the first place,’ said Freddy. ‘Especially the Aia. Nothing to sell, you see; no use suffering the Cuckoos if you had nothing to sell. Better be out in the great green.’

‘That’s pretension,’ said Jerichau. ‘You love cities as much as any of us.’

‘True,’ said Freddy. ‘I like bricks and mortar. But I envy the shepherd –’

‘His solitude or his sheep?’

‘His pastoral pleasures, you cretin!’ Freddy said. Then, to Suzanna: ‘Mistress, you must understand that I do not belong with these people. Truly I don’t. He –’ (here he stabbed a finger in Jerichau’s direction) ‘– is a convicted thief. She –’ (now Apolline) ‘– ran a bordello. And this one –’ (Lilia now) ‘– she and her little brother there have so much grief on their hands –’

‘A child?’ said Lilia, looking at the baby. ‘How could you accuse an innocent –’

‘Please spare us the histrionics,’ said Freddy. ‘Your brother may look like a babe in arms, but we know better. Masquers, both of you. Or else why were you in the Border?’

‘I might ask you the same question.’ Lilia retorted.

‘I was conspired against,’ he protested. ‘My hands are clean.’

‘Never did trust a man with clean hands,’ Apolline muttered.

‘Whore!’ said Freddy.

‘Barber!’ said the other, which brought the outburst to a halt.

Cal exchanged a disbelieving look with Suzanna. There was no love lost between these people, that much was apparent.

‘So …’ said Suzanna. ‘You were telling us about hiding in the hills.’

‘We weren’t hiding,’ said Jerichau. ‘We just weren’t visible.’

‘There’s a difference?’ said Cal.

‘Oh certainly. There are places sacred to us which most Cuckoos could stand a yard from and not see –’

‘And we had raptures,’ said Lilia, ‘to cover our tracks, if Humankind came too close.’

‘Which they did, on occasion.’ Jerichau said. ‘Some got curious. Started to poke around in the forests, looking for trace of us.’

‘They knew what you were then?’ said Suzanna.

‘No,’ said Apolline. She’d thrown a pile of clothes off one of the chairs and was straddling it. ‘No, all they knew was rumour and hearsay. Called us all kinds of names. Shades and faeries. All manner of shite. Only a few got really close, though. And that was only because we let them.’

‘Besides, there weren’t that many of us,’ said Lilia. ‘We’ve never been very fertile. Never had much of a taste for copulation.’

‘Speak for yourself,’ said Apolline, and winked at Cal.

‘The point is, we were mostly ignored, and – like Apolline said – when we did make contact it was for our own reasons. Perhaps one of your Kind had some skill we could profit by. Horse-breeders, wine-merchants … but the fact is as the centuries went by you became a lethal breed.’

‘True,’ said Jerichau.

‘What little contact we had with you dwindled to almost nothing. We left you to your bloodbaths, and your envy –’

‘Why do you keep harking on envy?’ said Cal.

‘It’s what your Kind’s notorious for,’ said Freddy. ‘Always after what isn’t yours, just for the having.’

‘You’re a perfect bloody species, are you?’ said Cal. He’d tired of the endless remarks about Cuckoos.

‘If we were perfect,’ said Jerichau, ‘we’d be invisible, wouldn’t we?’ The response fazed Cal utterly. ‘No. We’re flesh and blood like you,’ he went on, ‘so of course we’re imperfect. But we don’t make such a song and dance about it. You people … you have to feel there’s some tragedy in your condition, or you think you’re only half alive.’

‘So why trust my grandmother to look after the carpet?’ said Suzanna. ‘She was a Cuckoo, wasn’t she?’

‘Don’t use that word,’ said Cal. ‘She was human.’

‘She was of mixed blood.’ Apolline corrected him. ‘Seerkind on her mother’s side and Cuckoo on her father’s. I talked with her on two or three occasions. We had something in common you see. Both had mixed marriages. Her first husband was Seerkind, and my husbands were all Cuckoos.’

‘But she was only one of several Custodians. The only woman; the only one with any human blood too, if I remember rightly.’

‘We had to have at least one Custodian who knew the Kingdom, who would seem perfectly unremarkable. That way we hoped we’d be ignored, and finally forgotten.’

‘All this … just to hide from Humankind?’ said Suzanna.

‘Oh no,’ said Freddy. ‘We might have continued to live as we had, on the margins of the Kingdom … but things changed.’

‘I can’t remember the year it began –’ said Apolline.

‘1896.’ said Lilia. ‘It was 1896, the year of the first fatalities.’

‘What happened?’ said Cal.

‘To this day nobody’s certain. But something appeared out of the blue, some creature with only one ambition. To wipe us out.’

‘What sort of creature?’

Lilia shrugged. ‘Nobody ever saw its face and survived.’

‘Human?’ said Cal.

‘No. It wasn’t blind, the way the Cuckoos are blind. It could sniff us out. Even our most vivid raptures couldn’t deceive it for long. And when it had passed by it would be as if those it had looked on had never existed.’

‘We were trapped,’ said Jerichau. ‘On one side, Humankind, growing more ambitious for territory by the day, ’til we had scarcely a place left to hide; and on the other, the Scourge, as we called it, whose sole intention seemed to be genocide. We knew it could only be a matter of time before we were extinct.’

‘Which would have been a pity,’ said Freddy, drily.

‘It wasn’t all gloom and doom,’ said Apolline. ‘Seems odd to say it but I had a fine time those last years. Desperation, you know; it’s the best aphrodisiac,’ she grinned. ‘And we found one or two places where we were safe awhile, where the Scourge never sniffed us out.’

‘I don’t remember being happy,’ said Lilia. ‘I just remember the nightmares.’

‘What about the hill?’ said Apolline, ‘what was it called? The hill where we stayed, the last summer. I remember that as if it was yesterday’

‘Rayment’s Hill.’

‘That’s right. Rayment’s Hill. I was happy there.’

‘But how long would it have lasted?’ said Jerichau. ‘Sooner or later, the Scourge would have found us.’

‘Perhaps,’ said Apolline.

‘We had no choice,’ said Lilia. ‘We needed a hiding place. Somewhere the Scourge would never look for us. Where we could sleep awhile, until we’d been forgotten.’

‘The carpet,’ said Cal.

‘Yes,’ said Lilia. That was the refuge the Council chose.’

‘After endless debate,’ said Freddy. ‘During which time hundreds more died. That final year, when the Loom was at work, there were fresh massacres every week. Terrible stories. Terrible.’

‘We were vulnerable of course.’ said Lilia. ‘Because there were refugees coming from all over … some of them bringing fragments of their territories … things that had survived the onslaught … all converging on this country in the hope of finding a place in the carpet for their properties.’

‘Like what?’

‘Houses. Pieces of land. Usually they’d get a good Babu in, who could put the field or the house or whatever it was, into a screed. That way it could be carried, you see –’

‘No. I don’t see,’ said Cal. ‘Explain.’

‘It’s your Family,’ said Lilia to Jerichau. ‘You explain.’

‘We Babus can make hieroglyphs,’ Jerichau said, ‘and carry them in our heads. A great technician, like my master, Quekett … he could make a screed that could carry a small city, I swear he could, and speak it out again perfect down to the last tile.’ Describing this, his long face brightened. Then a memory brought his joy down. ‘My master was in the Low Countries when the Scourge found him,’ he said. ‘Gone.’ He clicked his fingers. ‘Like that.’

‘Why’d you all gather in England?’ Suzanna wanted to know.

‘It was the safest country in the world. And the Cuckoos of course, were busy with Empire. We could get lost in the crowd, while the Fugue was woven into the carpet.’

‘What is the Fugue?’ said Cal.

‘It’s everything we could save from destruction. Pieces of the Kingdom that the Cuckoos had never truly seen, and so wouldn’t miss when they were gone. A forest, a lake or two, a bend of one river, the delta of another. Some houses, which we’d occupied; some city squares, even a street or two. We put them together, in a township of sorts.’

‘Nonesuch, they called it,’ said Apolline. ‘Damn fool name.’

‘At first there was an attempt to put all this property into some kind of order,’ said Freddy. ‘But that soon fell by the wayside, as refugees kept arriving with more to be woven into the carpel. More every day. There’d be people waiting outside Capra’s House for nights on end, with some little niche they wanted kept from the Scourge.’

‘That’s why it took so long,’ said Lilia.

‘But nobody was turned away,’ said Jerichau. ‘That was understood from the beginning. Anyone who wanted a place in the Weave would be granted it.’

‘Even us,’ said Apolline, ‘who weren’t exactly lily-whites. We were granted our places.’

‘But why a carpet?’ said Suzanna.

‘What’s more easily overlooked than the thing you’re standing on?’ said Lilia. ‘Besides, the craft was one we knew.’

‘Everything has its pattern,’ Freddy put in. ‘If you find it, the great can be contained within the small.’

‘Not everyone wanted to go into the Weave, of course,’ said Lilia. ‘Some decided to stay amongst the Cuckoos, and take their chance. But most went.’

‘And what was it like?’

‘Like sleep. Like dreamless sleep. We didn’t age. We didn’t hunger. We just waited until the Custodians judged that it was safe to wake us again.’

‘What about the birds?’ said Cal.

‘Oh, there’s no end of flora and fauna, woven in –’

‘I don’t mean in the Fugue itself. I mean my pigeons.’

‘What have your pigeons got to do with this?’ said Apolline.

Cal gave them a brief summary of how he’d first come to discover the carpet.

‘That’s the Gyre’s influence,’ said Jerichau.

‘The Gyre?’

‘When you had your glimpse of the Fugue,’ said Apolline. ‘You remember the clouds in its heart? That’s the Gyre. It’s where the Loom’s housed.’

‘How can a carpet contain the Loom it was woven on?’ said Suzanna.

‘The Loom isn’t a machine,’ said Jerichau. ‘It’s a state of making. It drew the elements of the Fugue into a rapture which resembles a common-place carpet. But there’s a good deal there that denies your human assumptions, and the closer you get to the Gyre, the stranger things become. There are places there in which ghosts of the future and past are at play –’

‘We shouldn’t talk about it,’ said Lilia, ‘it’s bad luck.’

‘How much worse can our luck become?’ Freddy observed. ‘So few of us …’

‘We’ll wake the Families, as soon as we recover the carpet,’ said Jerichau. ‘The Gyre must be getting restless, or else how did this man get a look? The Weave can’t hold forever –’

‘He’s right,’ said Apolline. ‘I suppose we’re obliged to do something about it.’

‘But it isn’t safe.’ said Suzanna.

‘Safe for what?’

‘Out here. I mean, in the world. In England.’

‘The Scourge must have given up –’ said Freddy, ‘– after all these years.’

‘So why didn’t Mimi wake you?’

Freddy pulled a face. ‘Maybe she forgot about us.’

‘Forgot?’ said Cal, ‘impossible.’

‘Easy to say,’ Apolline replied. ‘But you have to be strong to resist the Kingdom. Get in too deep and next thing you can’t even remember your name.’

‘I don’t believe she forgot,’ said Cal.

‘Our first priority,’ said Jerichau, ignoring Cal’s protest, ‘is to retrieve the carpet. Then we get out of this city, and find a place where Immacolata will never come looking.’

‘What about us?’ said Cal.

‘What about you?’

‘Don’t we get to see?’

‘See what?’

‘The Fugue, damn you!’ Cal said, infuriated by the lack of anything approaching courtesy or gratitude from these people.

‘It’s not your concern now,’ said Freddy.

‘It damn well is!’ he said, ‘I saw it. Almost got killed for it.’

‘Better you stay away then,’ said Jerichau. ‘If you’re so concerned for your breath.’

‘That’s not what I meant.’

‘Cal,’ said Suzanna, putting her hand on his arm.

Her attempt to calm him merely inflamed him further.

‘Don’t side with them,’ he said.

‘It’s not a question of sides –’ she began, but he wasn’t about to be placated.

‘It’s easy for you,’ he said. ‘You’ve got connections –’

‘That’s not fair –’

‘– and the menstruum –’

‘What?’ said Apolline, her voice silencing Cal. ‘You?’

‘Apparently,’ Suzanna said.

‘And it didn’t dissolve the flesh off your bones?’

‘Why should it do that?’

‘Not in front of him,’ said Lilia, looking at Cal.

That was the limit.

‘All right,’ he said. ‘You don’t want to talk in front of me, that’s fine. You can all go fuck yourselves.’

He started towards the door, ignoring Suzanna’s attempts to call him back. Behind him, Nimrod was tittering.

‘And you can shut the fuck up,’ he told the child, and left the room to its usurpers.





IV (#litres_trial_promo)






NIGHT TERRORS (#litres_trial_promo)

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hadwell woke from a dream of Empire; a familiar fantasy, in which he owned a vast store, so vast indeed that it was impossible to see the far wall. And he was selling; doing trade to make an accountant weep for joy. Merchandise of every description heaped high on all sides – Ming vases, toy monkeys, sides of beef – and customers beating at the doors, desperate to join the throngs already clamouring to buy.

It wasn’t, oddly enough, a dream of profit. Money had become an irrelevancy since he’d stumbled upon Immacolata, who could conjure all they needed from thin air. No, the dream was one of power, he, the owner of the goods that people were bleeding to buy, standing back from the crowd and smiling his charismatic smile.

But suddenly he was awake, the clamour of customers was fading, and he heard the sound of breathing in the darkened room.

He sat up, the sweat of his enthusiasm chilling on his brow.

‘Immacolata?’

She was there, standing against the far wall, her palms seeking some hold in the plaster. Her eyes were wide, but she saw nothing. At least, nothing that Shadwell could share. He’d known her like this before – most recently two or three days ago, in the foyer of this very hotel.

He got out of bed, and put on his dressing gown. Sensing his presence, she murmured his name.

‘I’m here,’ he replied.

‘Again,’ she said. ‘I felt it again.’

‘The Scourge?’ he said, his voice grey.

‘Of course. We have to sell the carpet, and be done with it.’

‘We will. We will,’ he said, slowly approaching her. ‘The arrangements are underway, you know that.’

He spoke evenly, to calm her. She was dangerous at the best of times; but these moods scared him more than most.

‘The calls have been made,’ he said. ‘The buyers’ll come. They’ve been waiting for this. They’ll come and we’ll make our sale, and it’ll all be over with.’

‘I saw the place it lives,’ she went on. ‘There were walls; huge walls. And sand, inside and out. Like the end of the world.’

Now her eyes found him, and the hold this vision had on her seemed to deteriorate.

‘When, Shadwell?’ she said.

‘When what?’

‘The Auction.’

‘The day after tomorrow. As we arranged.’

She nodded. ‘Strange,’ she said, her tone suddenly conversational. The speed with which her moods changed always caught him unawares. ‘Strange, to have these nightmares after so long.’

‘It’s seeing the carpet,’ said Shadwell. ‘It reminds you.’

‘It’s more than that,’ she said.

She went to the door that led through to the rest of Shadwell’s suite, and opened it. The furniture had been pushed to the edges of the large room beyond, so that their prize, the Weaveworld, could be laid out. She stood on the threshold, staring at the carpet.

She didn’t set her bare soles on it – some superstition kept her from that trespass – but paced along the border, scrutinizing every inch.

Half way along the far edge, she stopped.

‘There,’ she said, and pointed down at the Weave.

Shadwell went to where she stood.

‘What is it?’

‘A piece missing.’

He followed her gaze. The woman was right. A small portion of the carpet had been torn away; in the struggle at the warehouse, most likely.

‘Nothing significant,’ he commented. ‘It won’t bother our buyers, believe me.’

‘I don’t care about the value.’ she said.

‘What then?’

‘Use your eyes, Shadwell. Every one of those motifs is one of the Seerkind.’

He went down on his haunches, and examined the markings in the border. They were scarcely recognizable as human; more like commas with eyes.

‘These are people?’ he said.

‘Oh yes. Riff-raff; the lowest of the low. That’s why they’re at the edge. They’re vulnerable there. But they’re also useful.’

‘For what?’

‘As a first defence,’ Immacolata replied, her eyes fixed on the tear in the carpet. ‘The first to be threatened, the first –’

‘To wake,’ said Shadwell.

‘– to wake.’

‘You think they’re out there now?’ he said. His gaze went to the window. They’d closed the curtains, to keep anyone from spying on their treasure, but he could picture the benighted city beyond. The thought that there might be magic loose out there brought an unexpected charge.

‘Yes,’ the Incantatrix said. ‘I think they’re awake. And the Scourge smells them in its sleep. It knows, Shadwell.’

‘So what do we do?’

‘We find them, before they attract any more attention. The Scourge may be ancient. May be slow and forgetful. But its power …’ Her voice faded away, as though words were valueless in the face of such terrors. She drew a deep breath before beginning again. ‘A day’s scarcely gone by,’ she said, ‘when I haven’t watched the menstruum for a sign of it coming. And it’ll come. Shadwell. Not tonight maybe. But it’ll come. And on that day there’ll be an end to all magic.’

‘Even to you?’

‘Even to me.’

‘So we have to find them,’ said Shadwell.

‘Not we,’ said Immacolata. ‘We needn’t dirty our hands.’ She started to walk back towards Shadwell’s bedroom. ‘They can’t have gone far,’ she said as she went. ‘They’re strangers here.’

At the door she stopped, and turned to him.

‘On no account leave this room until we call you.’ she said. ‘I’m going to summon someone to be our assassin.’





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